sorry Long time no update..

Well people.... I need a rest from blogging yah!! too busy with work and other stuffs... when im back then i'll blog... do visit my friendster ok : www.friendster.com/kennyboiix !!

Badminton & Dinner @ Nikki Cheese Prata

Today my another off day went to play badminton.. after sooo long never play, felt like dying after that. sooo bleedy tired.. After several practice, we then match and play doubles.. wooh of course as usual i lost the game... so sad can lost by one or two points only.. sooo tired la cant be bother to play real real also... just play for fun. AFter that I got craving for cheese prata.. so went home to bathe then we head down to Clementi NUS to eat cheese prata at Nikki shop! wah soo hungry like hell leh!! I ate Nasi lemak, Mee goreng Banana cheese prata and Potato cheese prata! Thats alot man!! Well the food was just mediocore standard dun really think its nice. After that head down to Bugis and shop for clothes!

Sooo tired after badminton!

Look at my tired legs!

Camwhoring while the food to come!

Camwhore again! testing my camera la

Oh this is an impromtu shot.. my cam just went click!

The prata that we had

haha.. this dog sooo cute! just random...

Monday Dinner @ Clay pot rice

Today had dinner at Clay Pot rice place at Geylang.. Travel all the way there just to eat leh... wah its sooo damm nice can.. We ordered one big bowl of Claypot rice "which we cannot finish", 8pc of bbq chicken wings which is sooooo damm nice finish all!! then sambal Kankong also quite nice! wah a hefty dinner again!!!! Waited for like 30 min for the food can wait sooo long. AFter dat i go home pom pom then sleep!! wah my second off day spent the whole day slacking and eating.. and not forgetting playing with "boy boy" the dog.. today he abit dun like me i dunno why maybe coz i didnt bathe the whole day!

The clay pot rice... mmmm yummy yummy!!

The ckn wings and sambal kangkong

"Boy boy" sitting & slacking on the bed!

Dinner @ Fish n Co.

Today went Fish n Co at the glass house for dinner... Suddenly craving for seafood. So we had Fish and chips, Prawn Pasta, Garlic Mussels and Piri-piri BBQ prawns.. The mess we made after dinner was damm grotesque.. Well cant blame us its all shelled food dats why messy. I think i ate too much seafood dats why my stomach dont feel good. So we went to Spinelly at Heeren to drink some hot tea. My all time favourite tea from spinelly, Cranberry tea! Haiz.. dunno what i am gonna do for the next three days!! I got 3 days off man!! so boring can!

Thats my fish N chips and the Piri-Piri Prawns!

Gobble gobble gobble

Dats the mess after meal!!!

What lies in my heart.. stays inside

Mailing a letter without an address
This kind of feeling seems a bit distanced
Whose song are you playing
What mood are you in
Can you tell me

The rain is falling very quietly
Or is that you secretly crying
Happiness is really not easy
The scenery behind you
has me loving you

I can accompany you to look at the stars
There's no need to do any explaining
I just want to be with you

I dont want To be separated from you again
I really want every beautiful instance to be
Because of you

Bored on my off day

Today is my off day.. hmmm so bored got up early and go accompany sumone to SGH dental center to get his braces changed... luckily is was fast if not i wack him liao... hahaha after dat went to eat seafood at clerkquay.. It was nice and cheap but he say not nice... arsehole!! Then went to study at Funan from 5 till 8. Saw sumone working there.. haha so funny la! After study, went to have dinner at "Thai express" at raffles city.. we ate Tom Yum Noodles and Prawn Balls! I complained that the noodles was not hot.. it was cold can! so he gave us the noodles for free!! siao! so instead of paying like 20plus for the meal, i only end up paying $8.10 only! so cool man!

So long since i wore my tophat!! suddenly it looks cool on my long hair.. lol

cool top hat.. gonna grow my hair longer...

just a random pic... i really mean it though!!

Bored on my off day

Today after work went to hang out with my colleagues... went to art gallery and make alot of noise there... nothing much... was soooo tired coz we all start work at 6am can!

posing next to paintings

This is Fai, my craziest colleague.. she's mad like dog!

Went home sooo tired and sleep ZzZz just find this pic sexy! hahaha

Awww my poor colleagur have to sleep under a rack! haha

Mid Autum Festival & A very Angry day for me!

Well, Its mid Autum festival and I've gotta event to handle.. It was the worst event of my life! the first time my event being cancelled half-way and spoilt all bcoz of some "a few" bunch of idiots, proud and self centered morons who cant even follow simple instructions! I got super pissed off that i scolded everyone on that day. Thanks to "you people" that my reputation is spoilt! I lost face.. i really felt ashamed! My name, My status, my reputation gone down the drain just in one day coz some people.. Im kind enough to let the incident pass and still treat u "guys" as friends still. But what ever it is, im not gonna take you guys to do my event. Dont take advantage of me just becoz of im a nice person.. IM NOT A NICE PERSON.. IM A SELFISH BASTARD WHO ONLY THINK OF MYSELF AND MY STATUS AND MY REPUTATION. I HATE PEOPLE SPOILING THEM. AND IM NEVER GONNA HAND OVER OR SHARE MY STATUS TO ANYONE! im not rich.. this is my rice bowl, you people and you people just make me loose my rice bowl.. you people only treat this as a happy happy thingy.. oh my god. what am i thinking.. Its my mistake anyways.. I should not have put KIDS into my event.. I need professionals from now on... Learnt my lesson, wont make the same mistake anymore.. I just hate the way you people are so arrogant! I just wish one day you all get bash up really well. Apology not accepted.

A day at Work..

Its been 2 month already im in StarBucks.. What i can say is the place is damm fun to be at.. nice people and not to mention nice food and drinks!! Though there's so many complicated stuffs i've gotta learn as a manager.. Overall its been a greadt experience and once i gotta hang of it i think i'll be fine.. finish work nothing to do so took some pics lor!!

@Me!! Just finish doing some Admin work!!


@One of the Barista taking a nap! she got shocked i took pic!!

@My little office "space" messy right!!

New Hair Cut !!!

Well Fri i went to have my hair cut coz my boss keep nagging at my fringe say its covering my face and she nag and nag and nag.. so i finally got it cut!! Went back to my usual salon at far east and I got a free Treatment! probably gonna colour my hair net time...

Camwhoring while the stylist is styling my hair!! look nice rite!

Eh.. i look fat here!! how come ar??? i think the angle

This is Three Hours later after walking for 2 hours and wind blow!! ARGH

Movie @ Cineleisure ...... Wall E
Went to maxwell after that to eat... dont feel like clubbing so i went to watch movie called Wall E at cine.. We catch the midnight show.. The show is so dammm cute can! at first i thought its gonna be stupid BUT its really nice movie.. funny yet so sweeet.. i feel so touched! come to think of it its so stupid! feel touch over robots!! wth! Wall E is sooo cute!!! must watch ok! ii wan watch again online!! After movie take night bus home.. then sleep!! Sat im working night!

camwhoring outside cine!! aww aint this cute???

Posing at 5th floor cine.. so many red red thingy i like... my fav colour!!

The sian look pose.. see my sexy legs!! yeah that sexy sexy sexy

RoLLer Blading @ East Coast !!

My off dae went to rollerblade at east coast... Soooo long time never rollerblade infact stepped to east coast. Funny thing is, we rollerblade in the mid afternoon wher the sun is freaking shining like theres no tomorrow!! so hot and sweaty can! well not to mention ii got tann"er".. i bcome more darker!

Holy shit!! i got shocked seeing a monkey on a tree !!

havent seen this tower in a long long time!

after bladding look so tired!!

Gost! i blade over a FROG and now its DEAD!!

Taking a rest at Fort road Bridge!

Gods give!! err err partially is man made!

Dats me bladding!! very fast can!

obscene sign shown!!

well gotta say bladdin was fun but damm tiring after that... well went back home feeling very tired and abot sick... so i slept early... hhahahaha

So random...

My short poem 4 euuu.

You ask me if I love you,
and I ask myself how to begin
to share with you
the feelings in my heart.

You inspire in me a love so deep
words cannot describe it,
so powerful that it overwhelms
my every thought.

You ask me if I love you,
and I wish there were a way
you could just see into my soul
and find the depth of passion,
tenderness, and love
that holds you closer to my heart
than anyone or anything else.

You ask me if I love you,
and I look into the magic
of your eyes and promise,
"Yes I love you...
I always will".

I'm afraid to lose you i dont know why its not that i cant live without you, its just that im afraid day will come ull forget all about me

I may not grow old with the perfect life, but I will grow old with the one I love, Just love me until my blood runs cold.

Some unposted pics!

Some Clubbing pics on sat!!


Me and Andy cam whoring!!

My turn cam whoring!! was dat a cool look or what!

Hiding behind the cage!

Went out with My Guru Pitka!!

Well today outing was walking and shopping!!!! Went to get a berm, two polo-t shirt and a pair of shoe! actually for my new job la coz can wear anything i wanna make sure im hip! Well I got a remarks from a friend saying im "OLD" coz my dressing changed! he say now i dress like old people so simple just t-shirt and jeans or shorts unlike last time funky clothes and lotsa fancy assescories. Well, I dunno, lazy to "AA" now.. "AA" means attract attention.. LoL.. Well, while walking, my first time ever entered an Armenian Church and cemetary!! damm cool can the place very impressive ambience.. and many funny statues.. and the priest dressed like some wiccan group liddat.. Im so daring to take the pics of the cemetary! Below are the pics..

There is a story behind this pic.. "How jesus escape not real"

Did jesus really died on the cross?? hmmm this is my version after evaluating the statues... not real

After being tied, The guards went for kopi break so jesus managed to escape. He sway himself untill the cross fell down and he escaped..

Remember he was not the only one kana crucified?? So not to make any suspicion, he carried the cross away to remove evidence so the guard wont notice anyone escaped.. The cross was so damm heavy so he dragged it untill du lan.

Then this is where I came in.. See him so poor thing, I offered him a helping hand. I pat his back and said well-done on the escape. Now let me help you carry this cross.. So together, they quickly escaped and jesus was saved.

After he returned to somewhere safe, He thanked me for helping him.. He took out his new camera and decided to take a pic with me for memories. I look good in this pic..

He returned home so happy.. all the kids run to him and hug him..

Everyone were rejoicing seeing him alive!! Even the angels stated dancing, drinking Vodka Ribena and getting drunk while dancing to the song "When I grow up"..

THE END
Note: Those who think that im Racist or what, this is just a "made up" not discriminating to any religion or race! If ur too sensitive, go migrate to malaysia!

Some Pics Of the cemetary..

The angels pointing upward saying "U wanna go up? dream on..."

Damm cool cemetary!!

What happened to her arm?????

THIS PLACE ROCKS!!!

Saturday 9th August...

Its Singapore National Day!!!! Happy 44th Birthday Singapore... Well, I stayed home the whole day just to wait for the NDP 08. I never missed to watch it every year.. I especially like the ceremonial parade part... Just impressed at the parade segment and the marching stuffs... Damm cool.. I remembered kanna tortuted last time marching non-stop under the hot sun... Was kinda impressed by our parade and their marching.. BUT.. after the previous night Beijing Olympic Opening ceremony, I think im more impressed with the China Army Marching.. It may seems kinda dunny though but its damm syncronised and disciplined. I dont think singapore Army will ever be to that kinda discipline anymore.. Coz, firstly, singapore is high tech, so who needs discipline when u have machines??? Secondly, Mens in the army are too pampered to be disciplined.. Well cant blame them coz singapore men are turning gay! everysingle one of them, one at a time! Singapore dun really need the army.. What singapore need is better technology and make a nuclear bomb. Then singapore will be safe from threats especially from out closest neighbours.. If i become presindent one day, I have better plans for singapore.. Like any Business, we need to expand!! and u know what expand means! hahaha..

Clubbing @ PLAY ~ Friday

Well The pics show it all...

Me and my best Bud Andy!!

I just Love her tounge.... Look!

Err err.. People i know.. clubbers!!

I like my smile... so nice yet so fake... the thing beside me looks scary... hahahaha

Little Liping, im stuck in the middle & andy acting cute

New Update!! for FRIDAY 8th August

Went clubbing at PLAY.... Not a good memories for me... Well, Its like been almost a Year I got "Unusually drunk".. "Unusually Drunk" means whereby i got moodswings and started picking fights.. damm dangerous.. Everything is spinning, i cant even recognise face! dats damm shit la.. I thinks its cause of that cocktail i dunno the name... It has a mixture of Asahi Beer inside... I think i couldnt mix asahi beer with liquer if not my head will spin like mad... I think that explains my mood swings.... Not my normal drunk self.. Ooooo weird wierd experience... Well forgive me everyone for that "unexpected" experience!.. Not gonna talk about it anymore! Sorry to those I accidentaly hurt... Well above got some pics of clubbing at PLAY.... kinda ugly la me... hehehe

Quit my Job..... Gotta new one.

Well its Friday 1st August 2008. I tendered my resignation at O'Briens... Well I gotta scrutinize the company to the Max. It is the worst ever company that existed in singapore with poor management system. No proper HR department, Accounts department is shabby with so many discrepency undetected. Well what can I say.. The company will never go far or even break its first million dollar benchmark. Worst thing is, My salary was postponed TWICE, last month and this month coz of some calculations thingy. Stupid pregnant lady (the finance manager) dont even know how to do work. If by next friday she still dun give me my pay. I will make sure she loose her baby in her CB! Especially this is the 7th month.. Bloody Malaysian worker dont know how to do work properly.. I reinstate.. I HATE MALAYSIANS. Now i realise I love my country so much.... MALAYSIANS come to singapore work they think they know everything but the fact is they cant do their job properly. PLEASE go back to your country and carry on ur corruption there la! I work for bleedy 2 month without pay leh!! I curse your stupid malaysian baby born deformed! down syndrom! mental problem!!!

Well on the other hand,im starting my new job at another cafe (dun tell where). Good thing i got this job. the pay is much better and i work 10 hours lesser than O'briens with a much highier pay. And i will be working in Orchard! My first day would be on the 14th this month.... Well back to being a cafe manager again...

Love, Romance... I wanna Make love to you

unposted Pics... LOL

Found some unposted pics in my phone.. well just put it up ba...
In the train with my super messy hair... I got it cut already.... No more fringe.... back to my comfy bangs!!!
This pic is so GAY!! oh its my godson lol..
Oh my fav past time... eating on my bed slacking lol....

hahahahahaha

Bored Bored.. my Sunday !

Its a damm bloody sunday again.. Last nite didnt go for Jojo Bday at PLAY.. I fell asleep at ard 9 plus i think.. Watch TV halfway then fell asleep... Sorry JOJO and HAPPY 21st Birthday to you!!!...

SIA interview:

This morning I wake up at 11 plus then rush down to Sheraton Hotel for the SIA cabin crew interview.. Being a first timer, i was shocked to my death! Didnt expect this phenomenon to me. First.. there was like "ALOT" of people sooo many preety and handsome people "including me" ahem!ahem!! at first they check my height requirement. Then the Fxxing lady say loud loud, "Im sorry sir U didnt meet our height requirement!" WTH im 170! then she called her supervisor to check and found out she read wrongly.. Stupid blondie! Then they call like10 ppl for the first round interview (which there was 3 rounds).. In the interview room, we all sit infront of the judges like "american next top model" liddat.. gosh so many cute guys some are models.. wooh i got sooo nervous!! Then one by one stand up and do a 2 minute presentation on why they are the right candidate.. Then comes my turn.. gosh I trembled and i think i only speak less than a minute... Im soo freaking nervous.. My first time.. Then after all dat, they ask wait outside the room for the result.. waaa now is like the "apprentice" scene.. all nervous.. then the lady came out. she called out 4 names and say "the rest, thank you for coming.." KNS my name not called.. so sad can!! the chosen one to go for the 2nd round interview all can speak very well, wear so smart with tie, short and neat hair and "Handsome" gosh the model guy got nice bods and face! haha as for me.. im damm shit.. I came with long hair, Skinny jeans, and Tshirt.. hahaha Damm! then I head home and went for a swim.. Anyways, gonna try again next month.. everymonth got..

Back at home:

Sians nth to do at home.. sleep and watch TV.. really budgeting whats left of my savings.. Anyways I took some of my kindergarden graduation pics.. Haha.. kept it from K2 till now.. Sooo cute aint it?? dats why back then always got sooo many pervert uncles try to rape or molest me.. stupid old man!

New Job..

Well, Went for an interview and got a job at O'briens Irish sandwich Bar .. Well I gotta job as Management Trainee... Means that after three month of training I'll be running my own cafe/Bar as a Store Manager.. Well the pay is not that fantastic much much more lower than teaching of course.. But this is what i want to do.. I hate office jobs and I love F&B jobs coz i get to EAT!! haha

Hope this job work out for me and its my stepping stone maybe one day i'll set up my own cafe as well.. well i gotta long way to learn. Aniways you people can come down and chill at my cafe yah!! i'll be stationed at UOB plaza Clerk Quay for the time being... Chaozz..

Devastated

Suddenly felt deeply devastated and dissappointed.. So many things keep going through my mind now.. I cant stop thinking.. Sumtimes i wanna cry, I dont know what i'm thinking..

I lost my job... It was so sudden.. No warning no nothing... I dun even have back up savings to support myself.. I wanted to change job but not this soon, at least after i had saved a bit. Well, My department closed down so i have to go. I spent all of my last mth salary paying my credit card bills and etc... I dunno what i should do now.. I cant tell my mom. She expects so many things from me. I cant dissappoint her.. Guess I have to struggle. My next step is to find job.. well, with some faith and hope i guess i could find one soon. Cant be choosy, these days not easy to get job.

I dunno I suddenly lost hope.. I dunno what I am feeling now.. I feel this uneasiness in my mind and heart. I feel this emptiness thats preventing me from smiling. I dun feel like talking to anyone. I dunno.. I feel so useless.. guess I am a nobody now already.. I lost everything. I am such a miser now.. I feel so low..

I cant tell my family. Im living "alone".. No body is beside me to lend me a shoulder to lean on. I have to be strong by myself all this while... I am very happy when i was succesful but now that i am in the lurch, i feel so down i could break out in tears anytime.. I prayed, but why dont "they" help?? am I such a bad person to have such a bad luck?

Dunno what to do now........ yet alone once again... I regretted so many things in life..

Long time no Update!!

Well sorry folks for not updating for so long coz im really busy didnt even have time to go online.. Well now since im back.. Hmm nothing much happen.. Same old daily stuffs.. Been spending alot of time with my "sushi".. Hes going back to Japan tmr. Well Im gonna MISS YOU!! Cant say much here.. keeping more of my life private coz been the talk of the town lately.. so must stay low low profile.. Well, those who knows i hate you, "I still hate you".. those who knows i care, "I still care".. And those who knows i love you, "I still do!" ... and yah my hair is growing longer.. but soo slow!!

Chilli Crab!!

Went out with my international friends ard 5pm to eat chilli crab at Lau Pa Sat. Two of my friends one from Korea and another from Vietnam.. Both ask me say wan eat chilli crab like dats so my favourite! so I took time off from work and indulge in the heavenly food! So at Lau Pa Sat we ordered Chilli Crab which is ard 60 bucks! "gong gong" "hum" and vegetables.. All my fav!! Gosh the chilli crab so nice! I ate damm alot untill i end up walking like crab.. hahaha.. aniways below r the pics
The gong gong and hum
Our Chilli crab!!!
My Korean friend.. my Vietnam friend


After eating I go home and sleep.. So sleepy sia.. Now wake up at 11pm and blog down... Going back to sleep.. Haiz Im Single and Available.. just random.. I miss U :)

Korean Dinner

After work i met my old friend Iggie.. Known him ever since i small boy 14 yrs old... Anyways, Iggie took me to a Korean Restaurant at China Square.. At first I dun like coz i dun fancy koran food and kimchi.. But after eating, I love the food. The Kimchi is nice too.. We ordered beer as well, a korean beer called "hite".. The beer is damm nice and smooth.. And it goes really well with the food. I ate spicy chicken.. Its so nice.. The whole experience was spectacular. Everything blend in so well.. Gosh Im lovin it!!

Fri, Sat and Sunday madness

Well this is my blabbing for the weekends...

Friday:
After work went to meet friends in town.. was happy and all.. Then suddenly at cine saw my ex, "Rain". He tapped my shoulder from behind and said hi. I stood there shocked and didnt say a word. I stared at him blankly and didnt even smile. My heart suddenly beat so fast. Gosh a year passed and he changed so much.. Must admit that he's not that good looking as before but still. He ask why have i been ignoring him on msn? i couldnt answer just keep quiet.. I just answer dunno then he point middle finger at me then walk off.. My mood suddenly changed.. I bcome not so happy le.. dunno why. Then sumtime later he call my Hp and ask wan to meet anot. I ask why. HE say he miss me. I ask him to fuck off coz he got stead liao and his stead is very ugly. Then at nite went to PLAY with my best bud Andy and his stead and two other girls. Partying was ok only. Then sumtin happen. Andy and his stead quarreled. Coz his stead go and take other guy number than Andy jealous then go and slapped his stead. Then they nearly fight. This his stead "Big Bro" Ah Zhen come and push Andy and wan to beat. I pulled Andy Behind me and ask them to stop. Then I pull Andy go dance floor and dance with me.. I talked things with him and after club both of them go home together.. I think they're ok.. Everytime fight wan. Then when I wan to go home, some ppl make me angry. FUCKING TAKE ME FOR GRANTED! I good enuf call my uncle send them home yet they FUCKING take their Own sweet time sashay here and there mingle mingle untill my uncle wait so long and scold me. I FUCKING pissed at HIM and the friends, I nearly slapped the 4 of them. and NONE OF THEM FORK OUT A SINGLE CENT TO PAY ABIT. SO BO PAISE CAN. FUCKING BITCHES AND SLUTS ENJOY FREE THINGS! GO AND DIE LA! If i see them at Maxwell again dats it..

Saturday:
Went to Legend to sing and drink lots and lots of beer.. haha Sing untill my throat sore now. Halfway then saw Fiona, Yongan and another guy come also they come drink drink.. I wasnt in a good mood coz of my "date" coz of friday nite that thing... Then he pissed me off again by exchanging number with another guy he just met. They went to chat outside secretly and exchange number. How i know.. I may be inside singing but my eyes are everywhere.. At that moment i ask him to FUCK OFF its over. He take his bag and leave, I hack care.. So bleddy angry. I never met anyone so "ARGH!" before. Then Fiona and Yongan get really drunk. They drink in the end I have to take care. Fiona not so bad still can walk. Yongan totally flat, and I have to carry Him halfway.. Cant carry all the way coz too heavy la.. fat liao.. then his BF continue carry him.. Then we sit at maxwell.. Both Fiona and Yongan vomitted like damm alot can!! I was not in a good mood. Fiona in her drunk state very annoying.. I said "DRUNK STATE" normal she very nice. She keep making alot of noise i dun care.. But then she start hitting my face. I du lan then i slapped her damn hard and shout at her to keep quiet. I wan her to wake up la not coz i hate her or wad. And I very particular and dun like ppl hitting my face. U can say anitin can scold my mother father or wad but never touch my face.. One reason coz it was expensive.. lol joking nia.. Then I took Fiona home and she spend the nite at my hse.

Sunday:
Me and Fiona wake up and prepare to go out. We ate curry chicken at home my mum cook then head to town. then ROY pang seh us! MAKE US WAIT FOR 3 HOUR THEN LST MIN SAY NEVER COME. If i bad mood i sure scold upside down and slap! Then met Christina and her super irritating but abit cute friend Benji. Me and Fiona dun like him. Keep on blabbing nonsense that we r not interested in. So we went walk walk in town then go home. I feel abit sick.

Guess u're over and done with.. U dun even care

Im seeing everything clearly now.. U dun even show a slight care from me. I thought id protect you from getting hurt but it seems that Its not worth my effort. The last Sms u sent me clearly showed everything. All the answer I need to know. Well i guessed u moved on fast. So im gonna head home and throw away wad ever things u give me. I hate seeing them now. It just makes me mad. Im gonna get over you. Sumone told me, "Why cry and be sad over you, when you out there are having a good time and dun even think of you not even a slight thought". I figured, I must let you go.. Well, goodbye and i dun ever wanna think of you again..

Im breaking Down!! I regret ... yet again

I miss you so bad... I miss your voice.. I miss your sweet talks, I miss you like crazy.. Its so difficult to get over you.. How can I force myself to stop loving you? How can i force my mind to stop loving you when my heart still does?

I love you and i still do.. I regret whatever i did though i know its for the better of us.. There are things which i could not explain. There are things which i cant let you know coz im scared.. It hurts so bad.. I force myself not to cry specially not in front of my friends though im abit "seh". I didnt cry. Instead i was busy taking care of Fiona coz she drunk. no one knows and i intend to keep it dat way.. Let me breakdown myself..

I realized I have myself to blame.. I drove you away.. I forced you to leave.. Not coz i dun love you. Its coz i dun wanna hurt you in the future and I dun wan to get hurt just like before... There are things which i dont wanna tell you. But I know if I dont tell you, You will sure find out from other ppl. This "aj" circle is so small. Coz I know U will never accept me. Just like any other ppl who just suddenly "disappear". I dun wan to fall in love with you so deep and get hurt in the end coz of this. Its not easy to drive sumone you really love away and forget about it. I still read the "thing" every now and then.

I know i cant do anything now.. I know I have to move on. Im not normal. Nobody will accept me. I feel so inhuman. I'll just continue hurtin everyday..

Why does it hurt so bad?? Why do I feel so sad?? I thought i was over you but i keep crying when I dont love you. So why does it hurt so bad?? Guess I can never be over you yet...

Im kinda seh... its 5 am in the morning. and i think i better sleep now.. :(

Bored at work cut newspaper..

Today gt nothing to do at work so I cut newspaper and paste paste.. haha.. This if for ma meat eaters!! rock your fat!! Eat more fats and you'll be harder to burn in hell!! Dont even think of slimming centre, It doesnt work! FACE IT.. FATS are sexy... Look at the PIGS! they're pink!mame no sense... nah im just bored!! hahaha.. If ur reading this means: UR FAT!

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Fucking Old pervert my office

Today I got stalked and pissed off by an old chinese pervert from Trevvy. Im looking for people who can teach accountings at my school so in tried asking around but no one can.. So i post an advertisement on Trevvy.com.
Of coz when i post the ad, my profile will appear ma then can see my pic. Then today i receive a call from this guy.. He say he's young and qualified, experienced and very interested in the job. So He DEMANDED i arrange an interview with him.. I called him once i reach my office at 10.. Then he came down very fast leh at 10.30!! I also asked him to bring down his CV and certificates..
Apparently, when he came down to my office, I got a few supprises. First, He was this freaking old man around 40 plus. His hair is balding and receding. Bad enuf, He also come empty handed no CV no cert.. So i ask him, "Can i take a look at ur CV or Cert"... then he ya ya papaya reply, "I dun need CV and Cert, Im experienced enuf you just employ me!" .. Then i say "But I need it to submit to my boss!".. Then he say "No need la, I can make you happy!".. HUH! wad does that means!
Coz he sit infront of me.. Then he suddenly under the table put his hand and reach for my lap and touch there.. I say "Excuse me, What r u trying to do?!".."I think you better leave, I will call you again when you have the cert".. Then he apologise.
Then he ask me out for tea. Keep forcing me say go out with him.. of coz i say no la. Then i call my colleague come in my office pretend got something important so he can leave.. Then He wait outside my compound sia... Fuck im so pissed off... Im so desperate looking for people to hire and he come play this kinda things.. Waste my time only sia... Im so angry.. Hes so OLD and UGLY and BALDING!! and worst of all PERVERT OLD MAN!

Sad love, Miserable love, emo love

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know

Why does it always have to come down to you leaving
before i say i love you?
why do i always use the words that cut the deepest
when i know how much it hurts you?

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more

I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

I looked in the mirror this morning, but I only saw me without you

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

I really dun understand why people wants to find a perfect guy! always complaint of imperfection.. But to me, its different. I come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly

Im on Magazine!!!

OMG im featured in so many magzzz !!!! so cool!!

Guess im the moron of the year!! Screw up so many things this year.. So shit can!!!

Awwww aint that sweet.... lol... no wedding gowns la..

Haiz... why life so dreadful!!

Sumtimes when U like sumone, its just to difficult to say it to them.. Especially if you had done something wrong or you know that your not up to dat person expectation or standard.. All U can do is just sit there and think of em all the time and wish that feeling just dissappear though its difficult.

More Emo emo emo emo

I loved you.. I took care of you... I gave you everything you needed.. But it was never enough.. Its always lack of this and that... U found ur perfect guy.. I found My perfect disaster.. Given chance i will always take you back, coz true love never die even if we separates..

Its just loads of pain and agony everyday living life being alone.. When U have no one to laugh with, cry with, hold hands with, no one to to put ur hands around..

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's bright

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I.....
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
They tell me how much you care
yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
'Cause you,
You mean the world to me

I know
I've found in you
My endless love

And, YES
You'll be the only one
'Cause NO one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

I Still Love you after all these years....

Quotes of the day:

Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean?

Whenever I cried he would always make me feel like he would change the world if he could so it couldn't hurt me anymore. But now I’m crying and he's not here

You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most

I hate you...and then I love you...it's like I want to throw you off a cliff....then rush to the bottom to catch you

Emoing again... Damm that stupid love song! Its Raining again...

Late for work, Sore eye...

Been coming for work late lately dunno why.. Normally I wake up at 8am latest.. But this few days I keep waking up at 9 plus... And Im suppose to be in office at 9.30.. Been three days liao keep coming to work at 10 plus or 11.. Well, My boss didnt notice la coz he's never in.. Dunno why today i woke up with a sore eye damm painful.. Cant wear contact lense.. Have to wear my goggle to work! damn!

My eyes damn pain!!
Gosh, dont feel like working this few days.. I cancelled all the lectures and classes this week ask them to stay at home study for exam next week. Cant seem to do anything, just sit and stare at the computer and watch youtube.. This week damn lag! hope i can get on my feet again next week if not i'll get the booting sia!!
Nothing much to do lately.. after work head to gym and swim. 3 days in a row liao I swim and Gym.. Muscles starting to ache like hell also.. But i'll keep on pushin it.. Ah wells... Saving money for my Bangkok and Korean trip.. BKK will be in July and Korea in Dec where its snowy... Guess i needa chill pill!!

Reflections 5: How my life transforms from a boy to man -.-

Basically this is how my life transform from A kid to an adult.. It seems so fast to me.. Too fast that im missing my childhood days very much. I miss my schooling days alot. I miss my secondary Sch and JC friends.. Gosh if i could turn back time, theres so many things I wanna do! Time fly so fast!

I miss me Secondary school life.. I miss NCC! I miss my Dance Club! I miss My class, The best class ever.. Well I stil remember Almost all our sch CCA heads were from my class.. Example The Head Student Council, CSM & ASM(me!) of NCC, SI of NPCC, Chief of Scouts, Head of Boys Brigade, Head of CAC (Catholic Activities council), President of Dance Club (me!).. haha so cool. And I remembered My Graduation Prom nite.. Gosh.. I was the Class Chairman so I have to deliver a speech.. Haha So embarassing and after my speech all the boys were like screaming like girls! (all boys sch wad ya expect!).. And the thing is.. I was the "Mr.Personality" dat nite... hehe cool eh!!

Then I remembered when i collected my O level result.. So nervous! As usual Being Paranoid I tot i failed badly! So when get the result, i looked at it slowly.. Shocked of my life!!! I remembered I saw an all A and one pathetic D! SHIT spoilt my Cert only! Guess wad was that D?? yes Its Maths! I bleedy got a D7 for maths! So there goes my chance to get into a Polytechnic.. Sad yes i was sad.. its like All "As" and maths D! I suck at maths la..

Then went to CJC since most of my classmates going there also... However in CJ, we got saperated.. All my bleedy sec sch classmates took different subject combi from me!! They all took science but i took pure arts! how dumb! I took what the sch called a "Killer combi", its Econs, History, Geography and Lit. Haha and only 11 people took this combi!!! Was struggling like mad in JC.. Coz its like ten times thougher than sec sch stuffs... I remembered I went to continue my NCC as a Cadet Officer (CLT) and then promoted to senior (SCLT). I very on in NCC wan ok! of course la the best in my school leh! After promotion to JC2 coz i did my promos Exam badly, the principle force me to drop one subject.. So i drop Lit.. Preparing for A levels was like HELL!! Plus i got this bad habbit of clubbing since sec 4!! haha "WHYNOT!""Waterbar!" my weekends clubbing hangouts! Even during exams, I still club sia! Crazy! So I didnt do too well for A level.. sob sob.. but its ok!

After this, there goes my childhood days!! Its Adult hood time... and u know what dat means.. At the same time, I took on to take my private study from UOL.. did my BBA for 3 yrs.. And i also studied Dance at MDC and SDC. "I love dancing too!" haha..

Well, By the age of 20, im already working.. After 3 years of working.. I think its time i hit the books back and continue my studies... One thing havent change! I still am a Club-holic.. haha Told ya i love dancing! and drinking! lol... Well most importantly when i club now, its my childhood friends that are still clubbing with me and we never get tired of each other!! I miss the good old days! I hope the young people really enjoy their youth to the fullest before they start to grow up fast!

I remember my sec best friend give me a note on graduation nite:
"Grow Up!! But dont loose the child in you!"

Hurt

Well I guess its over.. Life goes on I guess... back to being the Lonely and Emo guy again.... I dunno whether I made the right decision.. I know Im gonna regret. I know Im gonna miss you alot. Let time Heal... "Om mani Pedme Hum" mantra of compassion.. May it heals and deliver everyone from sufferings..

I hate this feeling of a broken heart.....

What more can i say to you

Look at the way you talk! You're giving up to easily.. You keep saying ur self a looser! Im dont wanna be with a loser.. If you really want me, show me something.. instead of giving up like that, you should stop me from leaving! You should ask me back. work something out. Be the man! Instead ur just giving up and walking away.. That shows how much you love me. Dont just say it la prove it..

I explained so many hundred thousands of times to you but you still dont get it.. Should i spoon feed you on everything so that you could be a normal gentlemen?? I dont know what to say anymore.. Ur sms this morning is implying as if i have no family, as if i have no friends, as if i have no work, and as if i dont have to concentrate on my 25 000 words thesis. I have all that too! I think of you thats why i always make time for you! but everytime i make time for you, you just too busy with something else. How many days have i not been working on my thesis just to make it free for you. U dunno. So dont think of what you do only... IN your heart is Im very hard to please... NO. IM NOT HARD TO PLEASE!! you just need to know basic needs of a relationship. And yes im pissed off with you when you asked me out yet you went to study with your friends.. You could clearly see i dressed up so nice to spend time with you. In the end all i meet is just a shabby guy in singlet, shorts and slippers getting ready to go to the library to study... You could have told me earlier so I wouldnt have to dress so nice just to met you for an hour for dinner miles away from home. And i could meet you some other day and i could stay home. Its dissappointing yes it is! You asked me out. I thought i could have the day with you, thought could watch movie with you and spend time together... but you let me down..

I know it seems biased... it seems its all me, me, me and just me. But hey if im that selfish bastard, i would have leave you earlier for not being there with me at all. but i gave you your space that you needed... Infact i gave you all the space you need.. so is it all about me?

Think la... Its a holiday and weekend, is it wrong to spend some time with me? U meet ur family and friends every single day. .

aiya forget it, no use for me babbling on and on... set your priorities right and be a man, not just of words, but action... I dont hate you... maybe just a little mad... but hey, u walked off not me.. u gave up.

Yes I still Love you... If I dont love you, I wont care, I could just flirt around when ur nt there but i didnt.. Is coz i love you im doing all this. IF I dont love you, I wont be asking you to spend time with me... You dont have to ask me how uch i love you... use ur brain and think.

You're too shallow!

me

Back to Square One .... It was a mistake in the first place .. Bla bla bla

Clearer picture..

You still dun get it.. maybe my previous post is abit too innuendo-istic or "chim".

You always dun have time for me. Dats all im trying to say. If im your pet dog, i think i'll die of hunger. I dun need so many calls or sms, if that the case, i might as well move to the states like i always wanted to and we can still keep on this same thing.. U always say Ur cropped up with school stuffs, projects and etc etc etc etc.. but dun see any efforts in trying to meet sumone u "love". Dun even put school as an excuse. Im working full time everyday and studying too. Its a matter of priority (which i know obviously im not the main one) and organization (if dats the right word to use). U realize it and still blog it down but all u did is just to say sorry. I was waiting for you to do something about it but days passed and ur still the same. im mad yes im mad.. im very mad, and you dont even notice it.. You're just like my doctor, i have to make an appointment and check on availability..

Saying a million of "I love you" and gazillion of sweet talks is not the only back bone of a relationship.

Reflections 4

Definition of paranoid: extremely fearful of something that may not be true or may not happen.

So dats the definition... But should i say paranoid?? may not be true? may not happen? i dun think so.. So everything is alright? leaving me alone for the longest time and you still think that nothing have changed?

No, i don't need no apologies;
Heard that too many times, doesn't make sense to me anymore.
If by saying sorry the heart could mend, then the earth wont have no tears no more.
I dont need words, i need actions. Im sick of words
I dont want to hear anymore apologies. No. Not even a single sorry.
Action, action, Dont even mention about this thing to me. If you know do something and show it. I dont want anymore apologies or sweet talks.. no more...

No, I don't need no sympathy;
Stronger than ever, im much much more stronger.
I can stand alone. Im fine standing alone.
Having sumone sumtimes make the standing much more worth it.
So dun pity me. Pity yourself if you have to.

No i havent change,
Im just holding back, taking step back.
Every human being's heart has a door..Its beyond the physical heart that keeps us physically alive, Its the door to the heart of the soul, the one that keeps our soul, faith and love alive. My door has no lock, but it closes when no one keeps it open. Just like a shopping mall door, if no one walk by it, it automatically closes. Somehow it does make sense to me.

I know whatever decision i make now i wont get hurt. But hurting you is the last thing on my mind. I believe in karma, what goes around comes around. So i wont let karma bite me anymore. Maybe we should think it over and not hurt each other, this way karma wont attack any of us.

Think it over what you really want. dont make hasty decision. Its like having a pet, dont adopt one based on indulgence and in the end neglecting it, there's too many strays out on the streets. Think it through, dont hurt yourself.

Mother's Day ~ a true touching story

Mothers day recalled me on a story of the patience and perseverance of a mother.

15 years ago in a village, a youg man lets name him Harry, left his hometown to travell around the world, leaving his old parents behind. He was stubborn and reluctant to stay despite his parents begging him. He left. Two years later his father died leaving his mother alone.
After Harry's dad passed away, his mother waited at the railway station every single day at noon bringing Harry's favourite food Glutinous rice dumplings. Everyday She waited, hoping for her only son to return. Years passed, soon she went down with a Tubercolosis (TB) and started coughing blood every now and then.. Her conditions worsoned but despite that she was determine and vow not to die untill her son return.. Everyday she continued waiting for hours at the raiway station..
The whole village called her crazy and senile.. No one offered to help this poor old "so called crazy" lady except for a kind soul young lady "Amy". Despite all the discouragement from people, she patientely waited.. everyday for 15 years she waited, tearing and coughing blood every so often. She prayed everday for her son to return.
One day she got really sick and couldnt get out of bed, almost on the fringe of death.. But suddenly dont know why she forced herself to get up from bed and dragged herself to the railway station.. Amy couldnt stop her but just to follow.. She waited again from noon to the late evening.. To no avail, she breakdown in tears and started coughing blood again..
Then suddenly a voice came from afar, "Ma!" She looked up and to her supprise she saw a fully grown man, her son Harry. Now you can just imagine the situation now. She cried but this time not with the tears of sorrow, but tears of joy.
They were reunited after 15 years of saperation. 15 years doesnt stop the mother from waiting or giving up hope. The mother look at Amy and said, "Waiting for sumone you really love, you need alot of patience and peserverance. You need to believe and never give up. Not many people can do that. This is called true love. Cant be found even in marriage, But only a mothers love..."

Happy Mothers Day to all mums out there!! and to the evil Children, May you rot in hell!!

Not a very Hapi Nite

Sat nite....

Would like to Thank "You" alot yeah! I almost lost my VIP status at the club.. Mad yes im mad.. Its so embarassing can! I dunna recap what happened... Thing is.. I gotta warning by the Club Boss, and he trusted me alot and now im so embarassed I think I loss his trust. Im not just mad about that, but also other reasons..

I hate people taking advantage of me! I am not a Kind person! I am a bad, selfish and self-centered guy who only think of myself.. so people, STOP TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME!! simply Fcuk Off from me if you think im sumone who u can get things for free and then bleedy dissappear as if i dont exist... I dont go to club just to please you people... Id rather please myself and my good friends.. U All are just a bunch of immature kids who goes around bitching about other people.. simply hypocrite! get a life and GROW UP.. and to "YOU".. I dont owe you anything! stop giving me a fcuking attitude.. U r a bleedy New bird in this circle show some respect before u and ur friends really get a good wacking from me. Dont test my patience.. I've treated you people soo kind and i've "loved" you before.. Remember that in your brain.. Gosh get a life la kids!

You'll never stand alone... and dont you cry

If there's a time when the fears should fill your eyes
And you can't see past the shadows, To the sun on the other side
Don't despair, because there always will be someone there
Don't lose faith, love won't let you lose your way Because

You, you'll never stand alone
I'll be standing by
I'll keep you from the cold
I'll hold you when you cry
I'll be there to be strong
When you can't find the strength inside
And you, you'll always have a home In these arms of mine
You'll never stand alone
Love is standing by

If there's a day when the rain should find your heart
And you're cold and tried and lonely
And this would has you in the dark
Don't be scared, you can just reach for me and I'll be there
Don't lose hope, love will see you through you know Because

You, you'll never stand alone
I'll be standing by
I'll keep you from the cold
I'll hold you when you cry
I'll be there to be strong
When you can't find the strength inside
And you, you'll always have a home In these arms of mine
You'll never stand alone
Love is standing by

Standing by to life you above all the hurt and pain
Standing by to carry you through all the tears and rain
Reach for me, I'll be with you Reach for me, I'll see you through
I'll be the one to hold you
The one to show you that

You, you'll never stand alone I'll be standing by
I'll keep you from the cold
I'll hold you when you cry
I'll be there to be strong
When you can't find the strength inside
And you, you'll always have a home
In these arms of mine
You'll never stand alone
Love is standing by

Would it be nice ~ Together

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong


You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

The happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Oh Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Oh, wouldn't it be nice

good night my baby
sleep tight my baby

Happy Day today!!

Well.. this if for YOU! you and i know what im gonna say rite... so i wont say here u should already know wad i wanted to say.. aniways... Go figure this..

Hang bok han, handall, gi nyum i'll !!!! sarang hae yo!!!

Oh ya.... and thank for the Sentosa celebration.. haha.. and We are not an Event!! remember that, im not your event company or event manager to cater to your event! so dont call our outing and event! get a better vocab! haha Je taime tu amour!!!! Aishiteru!!
A&K never too far..

Chalet on Saturday

Well im back from my "short break" from posting updates.. Hmmm Sat went to chalet at Aloha Changi. Was Victoria Birthday and some anniversary thingy.. no comments bout it kinda bored ppl playing mahjong and me, chatting with my old time friend Iggy.. Talk and talk nonsense and laugh like mad.. Then After dat Adrian called so i ask him take cab come down the chalet. Well his stupid taxi uncle got lost so i waited by the roadside of the Ooolo street alone.. its kinda distance away frm the chalet.. Well its kinda scary la standing alone there very dim light and everywhere is forest! then got one very huge owl fly and stop ontop of the lampost.. The first live owl i ever seen.. But my grandmother say, At nite if you see owl come near human its not owl, its GUI!!! scary can! Well, Adrian got crazy in the room and started wearing victoria boots dunno for wad! Then take pic and pose pose all dat.. You ask me to post the pics.. I posted all liao so u know wad to do hor!!!!

"I wish you knew"

went on Cruise with mummy and aunt

Ytd went for Cruise with mummy and Aunty Ling Ling aka Nina. Main motive of them going is the casino la.. So pull me along.. Bad ppl teach me gambling. I good boy no gamble ok! Reach habourfont ard 6 then we check in the Royal Star Cruise. The ship slighty smaller than Virgo la. Once reach there, we quickly go to the restaurant there coz onboard is 24 hours free buffet ma.. hehe so bing a PIG as usual, i eat and eat and eat.. hehe.. imagine i finish eating, then go walk on the ship one round then go back to the restaurant to eat again.. haha. alot of food! After check in our cabin which look like army bunks, only nicer.. so after eat and all dat they went gambling at the Casino.. Basically, its casino everywhere.. so big and so many jackpot machines! i dunno where they dissappear to i tink play the blackjack and dunno wad game la.. "told ya im good boy".. was damm boring!! the swimming pool was under construction! so i walk around look at the sea... by night time, the sea all so black, nothing to see liao.. So bored then decide to try the jackpot coz very interesting ma the "ka-ching ka-ching" tempted me.. so put in $10 then loose, hen put in another $10 then loose.. about 4 times leh.. then the 5th time i play then suddenly so many "ka-ching" on my machine.. lol i win $300!! then machine ask want to continue play or cash out the money? me being "a good boy" and not greedy stop playing le.. get the money and go back to m bunk and ZzZz.. Then dunno wad time mummy come in and she take out a super thick pile of money and count on the floor.. gosh she win like thousand plus lor.. Then sleep le then morning wake up the ship reach Habour front liao then go to work lor.. sooo sleepy now!
Aunt Ling Ling on the deck.. Gosh shes 43 and still look like 23.. hmm wads the secret? Oh dats my mummy nagging again say the room very like sai.
Argh.. Mummy force me to take this stupid pic with dunno wad creature! and my shit is Mickey boy... dots leh!


Our cabin. I sleep upstairs Look at all dat money she win!!The upper deck swimming poolThe 24 hrs buffet restaurant.

A day on Cruise with Mummy and Aunt Nina

Gym and Swim on Sat!

Today No plan so decided to get in shape.. Went to the gym and then Swim at Jurong West sports complex. Been eating too much liao like PIG and my dear say im fat liao! :( so i need to tone up.. Gonna be more macho then dear!! humph!

Then when i reach the Sports Complex, wanted to get a drink from this vending machine! Fcuktard!! This machine eat my money!! put $1.60 and then press for coke but the machine "ignored me"!! ass then i kicked the machine and say @#$@#@!
Then went to gym and work out for like one hour.. SO damm tired and my muscles are like jelly liao so weak!!! but can see like toned abit la.. my body very easy tone wan... lol so BHB!!!


After gym straight away go down to swim.. haha after like months never swim. At first scared to wear my trunks scared mody not nice... then i look in the mirror.. hmmmm not bad eh quite nice.. lol.. then went to swim 20 plus lap.. use to be able to swim double but my muscles kinda tired.. after dat go home liao!!!! today i diet.. never eat!! so dear dear cannot call me PIG!

Meeting and wine!!!

Went for a meeting with some client with Jojo at Tg pagar... So they brought us to a wine place called wine afaire.. lol so many wine can... AT first i have doubts about it coz i dun like wine so bitter!! but then when i drink this one its so sweet.. yummy can.. didnt thought of it as a wine so keep drinking and drinking but after sumtime my head start to spin.. the alcohol start to take effect.. wow its so cool!!!!

Figure this out!

Ik hou van je
Mahal kita
Je t'aime
Ich liebe dich
Aloha au ia'oe
Taim i'ngra leat
Ti amo
Ai shite ru / Kimi o ai shiteru
Te amo
Ya vas lyublyu
Phom rak khun
Ya te volim

For My one and Only ... figure this out!!!

Bye Bye ~ We all loose sumbody in life

Well, i like this song very much by Mariah Carey.. Bye Bye.. Its so meaningful la.. Everybody will loose sumone they love and treasured most in life.. I Lost a few people in my life like my friend "shawn" in a road accident after partying together.. My Cuzzie "same age as me" who died of lukemia at 14. I saw the tears on her moms face by the hospital bed. My Luohan Fish died of drowning & starvation.. "i forgot to feed it for like a week". And I havent even got any 4D number yet!!! Last week one of my parrot the white one died out of the sudden.. Dunno why maybe commit suicide coz depression. Hope my other 3 parrots have the courage to pull through. Few days ago i saw a rat died squashed by car lying on the road.. Poor Rattatoiule lost a good chef. But one thing you could never say bye bye to are cockroaches!! they never seems to die!! Squash squash!!

Well, I dedicate this to my friend whos dad just passed away yesterday. Wish You well.. Sorry I may not make it for the wake coz of my thight schedule . This is Bye Bye by Mariah Carey: The lyrics can be found at the right hand side of my blog > > > > >

And may all that are gone rest in peace not just in pieces. For the Sinners : Ur momma sucks cock in HELL!!

Monday Blues !!

Its Monday and its back to office... How dreadful!! First of all my apologies to Andy for not coming down to Powerhouse last nite. Was really tired and gotta work today.. Hope u enjoyed "Powerhousing!".. Got my new contact lenz last nite at JP.. Its "Groovy Green".. woo wierd colour but i got no choice the other colours dun have my power and i dun wan wait for 3 days.. well, i accidentaly tore my old lenses the other nite so get new ones.. cant live without em.. haha

@ i look so fat! shit gain weight again!

Well, had my first official meeting with Principal Dr.Ng, International Director Ms.Nelly, Marketing Manager Ms Lynn, HOD Business fac Mr.Toh, Accounting Lect Mr.Jimmy, Hotel and Tourism Lect Mr.Indian (dunno name) and some other people i dunno names.. First time see them all there like gosh im so sleepy and all hope i dun fall asleep.. And yah as normal, i dun participate in it at all.. just kept quite and "listen".. haha hate meeting.. Well, Suprise suprise rumours that i heard came true. Yes its true. I got elected to HOD Accounting and English. WTF and worse, they didnt mention anitin about $$$ so i bet my pay is still the pathetic same. So gonna make my first ever name card lol... when ready i'll post it up.. Hmmm yeah talking about $$$, am so going broke soon.. damm soon.. paid my Sch fees, my shocking HP bill, Internet Bill, House Bill (Im not staying for free with my parents u knoe! ass), my savings plans at UOB. Gosh broke broke broke.. I'll always go broke every now and then coz i overspend like on Clothes and "party".. ass gotta save up... if not im so dead.. Haizz. i wish i could be like my stupid older bro, just stay home and get $$.. and yah, sarang hae yo to "U" ..

Nite out with my Dearest Dear !!! Sunday

@Esplanade ~ Art Peice.. i dunno what it is.. look like "Mopeng" on sumone face. lol
@Memorial Park ~ How romantic sitting on dead people.. lol
Underneath the bright full moon...

Met "Dear" at suntec at nite and ate dinner... After dinner went to memorial park to sit and chat. Then he gave a supprise of my life!! its "Dear's" precious collection of Chivas bottles and also "PIG" wth!! but its kinda really sweet.. Oh pls, Ur damm tooo sweet to me la.. I cant believe u gave me ur most precious things u loved alot.. I appreciate it alot and i love it.. Promise to take gd care of it.. Gonna gave you something id never thought of giving anyone before.. well, its my music book the longest thing i kept since sec one.. Back then i loved dat book alot.. "U R" really an awesome person.. I never laughed this much before talking to sumone.. Its like wadever we do is mostly the same thing and we think alike.. (Though i dun like "kimchi" no offence.) U R so perfect to me.. Ur smart, intellectual, sweet, funny, caring, loving and not forgetting "hot". What more could i asked for??

Well... what more can i say.. shant say much now... U will know what kinda person he is when u see the smile on my face big smile!!!

@ Big big smile!!!

Falling for you...

Gosh stop being so nice to me!!!! im falling for you so bad now... gosh im loving you.. its no good!!! ur so bad!!! u stole my heart!!! ur just my "imgination" just a figment of it.. argh NO.. ur real!!! im not dreaming!! ur so nice to me, all those things u did and words melt me like a flame. But people change. I hope you you wont change.. I hope u will remain the same "dear" forever.. this few days i cant stop thinking of you. its bad!! im going haywire!! I know you love me and some how i feel it too.. but please dun rush it, i just dont want you to make the wrong decision.. Lastly, DUN speak japanese to me!!! ur Korean can!!! kimchi kimchi kimchi sour sour de...!! haha Ur just so perfect to me... sarang heo my dear!

Saturday nite Fever....

No im not sick... just Party with my Bud Andy. Andy's stead, Kitty, Sean Krums and his GF was there too.. haha.. So long nv party with them.. Tonite we had a "decent" party, no waterfall, no lamborghini and no abscene red! gosh dat was wierd.. But thing is we all got dead by Jugs! 8 dreadful jugs of super concentrated Vodka cranberry... Why was it super concentrated?? Normal Jugs only have like 4 cups of vodka, but ours is like 8 cups.. Fainted!! Coz Andy's friend was the bartender there.. aniways it tasted better than Abscene red.. haha Party was fun but we all "disintegrate" at some time coz all "seh seh" liao.. well, being a good drinker, i wasnt "seh" damm bored when they all started "going missing".. so i called "Uncle Yan" to send me home.. Woo everyone wating for cab and i took a "silverline mercedes cab" for just ten 13 bucks to JW!! Well i saw a person "no names mention" outside the club.. havent seen "it" for like 4 years liao.. The last time i had a crush on "it" but "it" pang seh me... lol.. so ytd this person told me.. "kenny u changed alot.. looked different as in better.. One thing never changed, Ur beautiful eyes." Pengz =.= I told it "dont push ur luck! ur 4 years older but u look as if ur 40 yrs older." BIARTCH!! well wad can i say, so many plastic ppl around.. So many come up to me and said "Oh last week was ur bdae?? ""happy birthday!!" .. my bleedy bdae is over can!! And to "YOU" Dont be jealous of my achievement can.. U dun have to be sour over it juz cause i catch up to you and about to surpass you.. U cant be at the top forever you know, sumone's gonna push you down.. Just like Mariah Carey did to Elvis Presley. So Mr. N---S, cmon, dont be a looser and make bitter with me.. I didnt open my mouth coz i respect ur senority but if i do open my mouth, u're gonna cry badly.. Im climbing the ladder damm fast and i will not stop... Only those few will know what im talking about..

Why me again???

and then suddenly when i thought i am down and all alone, sumone came into my life again.. Gosh, why cupid always take me as his target practice???!!! Hope u read this and understand.. Saying the three letter word I Love You is easy. Promises are also easy to make.. Promises are like babies, easy to make, hard to deliver. I know ur "hot" and all i can think now is that ur just my fantasy. coz never before a"hot" person say "I Love You" to me.. and im like melting can... wakakaka... but its not about the looks.. Aiya so complicated.. I gave you my answer liao hor on sms so i dun have to write here.. its for u to know only... Hope you give me sumtime coz of too many reasons.. very happy knowing you though and talking so much things to.. thanks for making me smile also.. hahaha

15th Apr.. MY B'dae!!!!

Tuesday 15th april is my exact b'dae... hmm not gonna tell u how old keep guessing..
After work, Met Adrian coz he say he wanna celebrate wimme.. so awww can... lol.. aniways, We went to watch movie Crocodile eat people show.. lol then went to swensens to eat dinner.. We ate Fish and Chips, Chiken thingy, Baked musel and a large ice cream Fondue!! Not forgeting before the movies we went to coffeeclub to eat muddy mu pie... After dinner we went walk walk and took silly pics...

Muddy mudpie from Coffee Club
All the food at swensens
Adrian wan be spiderman??
Testin Adrian Nerdy Specs
Thanks for making time for me after sch!!

well,back in school earlier, gotta bdae present frm my rich rich students. One Myanmar girl gave me a Silk Tie set gold in colour.. Obiang!!! so gonna keep it as memories.. another gave me a mont blanc pen! gosh damm ex!!! also gonna keep!!..

hmm... My mum gave me one of my bdae wish list.. a new HP... lol...

Well... "He" smsed me Hapy birthday @ 6am in the morning.. He remembered!! Another of my wish list done... Gladly now im hapy i can move on peacefully.... I'll post summore sn... tired

Randomness ~ Still emoing

As you get older, you really want to settle down with sumone.. im tired of flirting, im tired of attention seeking.. meet new people every now and then.. tired of all that life.. I just want one person to spend the rest of my life with.. Who could dat be?? im not searching im just waiting.. I still kept the empty CK summer bottle at home. U gave it to e on my bdae last yr! The "beauty" glass u gave me broke but i kept the remaining of it still.. I changed alot. You were my inspiration.. U turned me from a useless guy into sumone successful. How can i ever forget you?? You changed my life. U made me what i am now.. But now, i stand alone.. Though u broke my heart in a million peices, i never hated you, coz without you, im still a useless flirtatious, attention seeking little boy. U made me grow up. Thank you.. Im Happy that you're finally found ur happiness with him. Im happy that ur smiling everyday with him.. No im not jealous, maybe abit, but im glad i had you before.. I think of you now coz one year had passed.. And this day last year, u made me very happy. Im just waiting for you to wish me Happy Bdae again this year.. Dats all i wish for.. I had already moved on, but the memories still lingers.. So now, im waiting for sumone to spend my life with... And i hate ppl treating me like a sex toy, just sleep with me, give me false hope and leave.. no more.. Im not giving my bods dat easily now.. im willing to make any sacrifise just to be with the person i love.. And im still waiting.... "i miss you"

My B'dae celebration on Sat !!!

Today had my bdae celebration with my friends... In the afternoon, met my laopo Vivien and Wilson and we went walk walk.. Miss them so much so long never see laopo!! its like nearly 2 years can!! Went from town walk all the way to Marina Square.. Then went to eat a buffet dinner at Yuki&Yaki at MS.. Wow we ate alot like pig!!! so many things and ice cream also!! then suddenly i got supprise from them.. i went to toilet when i come back i saw one cake and they sang bdae song for me... Arrr so sweet of them can so touching "i feel molested!".. Love you two alot la!! then went down to PLAY!! more supprises cmg next.. hmm really felt special this year coz everyone knows my bdae.. gosh even my "enemies" wished me happy bdae!! hmm WeiJie made me drink "BlueSpin" @ tanrics. gosh that drink coz too strong.. i one glass i seh seh liao.. but thanks WJ for celebrating my Bdae!! hugxx.. then some friends gave me presents.. thanks!! But what touced me really was my long time friends.. Mimi, Ash, Wellness, Andy, Khai etc.. gosh i missed you guys alot.. i nearly cried seeing u all there after so long u guys dissappeared!! Despite their bus schedule they came down.. and still can say "I come down coz ur bdae!" so awwww can!! They remembered! and My best bud Andy gave me one of my Bdae wish list.. M.A.C studio FIX.. gosh!! He didnt even read my blog cz he dun come online but he knows wad i want!!! dats what i called a True friend... I show u the M.A.C

wad so special about M.A.C studio fix?? Its the best ever in the market. And its damm ex!! Love you Andy!! thanks!!

Then we all went to drink and drink.. i got drunk!! haha damm drunk!! Though the music is kinda sucky, but my friends and i, we enjoyed alot.. we all got drunk and had a good time.. see its the friends u have that matters.. no matter how boring the club can get, if u have fun friends, ur nite will be great!! I really miss you guys, Chinatown Cabaret peeps!! "Chinatown Cabaret", Thats where it all began.. thats where we became close friends. Stayed together, sleep together, eat together, laugh together and cried together.. I miss those days where we were much younger!! Hmmm im trying to get the pics.. once i got it i will post more about this hor.. lol..

Cut My hair

Sat went to cut my hair.. GOSH did i make a stupid decision or smart one?? hmmm celebrating my bdae party at nite so decided to get a new hair cut. Went to SuperCuts and the stylist reccomended me a short haircut.. i so scared can she say its a new trend and nicer make me look more "man".. dots.. since when i look like a "not man" !!!

Craps again.. Some shopping

hmmm It was raining heavily.. maybe heaven understand how i feel and expressed it for me.. Stuck under my office can go anywhere luckily my boss Dr.Ng saw me and offered me a lift in his "not so nice" car.. lol. sitting by the window i could see nothing outside except the rain and the water that flows down the windscreen like a non stop tears..

Then after that went to esplanade library to read some books and watch a musical.. got special performances by some schools.. nice music... dint take the vids though.. Nth else to do then walked down to city hall went to topman to get some t-shirt.. lol i cant decide to get white or black.. if i get white i will look more hunkier but its kinda transparent.. lol

Yesterday!

Today out of the blue Rainhan asked me out for dinner in town.. hmmm we havent met up fpr a long long time.. i think he miss me la.. lol gosh !!bhb!! met him at orhard mrt at 6.30.. woo he looked better.. cuter with the new haircut.. well done dude!! lol.. went to eat dinner and then went for a movie at cine.. watched some very heart moving show about two strangers with cancer suddenly bcome good friends and then both die and bury together at the mountain.. really taught me a lesson about friendship.. u can turn a perfect stranger into good friend in less than a month. its not about the length of time, is about how sincere your heart is.. if ur heart is very sincere, u can be a good friend in a day. However, i also learn that, if you have money, friends stick to you like glue. well face the reality. its te fact!

Aniways.. also sumthing very funny happen at Famous amos at cine.. A girl working there suddenly saw me and suddely cannot work liao.. when she took my order, its so obvious shes flirting with me.. and one sentence makes me laugh, she said "ur the most handsome guy i ever saw". I was shocked and dunno wad to say.. She suddenly got blur and very clearly she and her colleague very kan cheong suddenly.. for fcuk?!! i gave her my nets card.. key in my pin and funny, she ask me to sign on the receipt!! WTF its a bleedy NETS u dun need to sign!! i told her dat then she like paise then blur.. didnt even realise dat im holding the queue.. theres like 6 other customers behind me... from no queue to long queue and i felt so paise holding up the queue.. i feel like scolding the girl but cant la... all the famous amos girls were keep staring and glancing at me... gosh for once i got big headed.. took my cookies and walk off then all the customers look at me so paise can... My friend keep laughing and laughing.. wtf la... that was so wasnt called for.. gosh so funny!! the funny part is after she saw me the first time she suddenly become blur!! how stupid! Must be my magic charm spell.. well im not praising myself ar if thats what you think!!!


After eating the whole packet of cookies, i got stomach ache and keep pang sai-ing til today..

Brand new day....

Mourning season is over.. gotta get going and going, handling this like a matured man. Going back to my old life.. nah not flirting and findings ons.. "i seldom get horny nowadays la maybe coz the testerones gone down lol" ...tired of guys already.. not dat im turning straight la but im sticking to my policy "Dun find love let love find you". tired tired simply tired and worn out in all this things.. and i wont put anymore hope in getting back together with him.. "Rain" said the same thing to me, i waited but all just lies... lies lies and lies.. after being soo good all i get is lies and flase hope.. all the same la.

I made up my mind liao.. I wanna move away frm here. Im currently finding jobs in another country like canada and australia.. Once i got the job, then i'll move. I see no point of me stayin here. hmmm.. savin money now "or maybe find sugardaddy lol".. wanna go to bkk prob in june to have face surgery done... thinking of doing my nose bridging, jaw shaping, dimples and cheek bone shaping. Dun worry, wont change my face just make it slightly shuai-er.. lol

Now im kinda have more time alone, gonna start gymming and swimming again.. gonna build up my bods again like the pic.. lost alot of weight liaoz bcome kinda skinny.. so i get the weight gaining pills liao..

I seriously dont mind being alone at the mean time.. no friends no nothing.. but i can say after i build up my bods and look better, people will start cmg to me...so its a reward in return.. I wont go for ONS anymore ever since my last HIV test cleared i dun dare le.. cant risk it.. god gave me hands and internet for a reason..

Oh ya my bdae is next week.. I wanna celebrate it at PLAY this sat.. so people pls come down on sat yah.. but pls.. dun just ask me to sign you in and dissappear..! gosh! so come down! we drink, get drunk and bitch till morning... miss my good friends Andy, Ash, mimi, shai, Muz, Kitty.. hope u guys will be there.. We known each other eversince my dick hair havent grow yet! now all old already dissappear.. Hmm.. i need to get a life! a serious one!

"Dun find love, let love find you.. dats why its called falling in love... you dun force yourself to fall, you just fall... still <3>

Aways be my baby ~ (Listen to song and read the lyrics).

This is the lyrcs to the song that ur hearing... Its very meaninful and it potrays exactly what i feel and what im gonna do.. so listen and read yah... hope u'll understand...

Always be my baby by mariah carey

We were as one, babe
for a moment in time.
And it seemed everlasting,
that you would always be mine.

Now you want to be free,
so I'll let you fly,
'cause I know in my heart, baby
our love will never die.

You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.

And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.

I ain't gonna cry, no,
and I won't beg you to stay.
I you're determined to leave boy,
I will not stand in your way.

But inevitably
you'll be back again,
'cause you know in your heart, baby
our love will never end.

You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.

And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.

I know that you'll be back, boy,
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder.
I know that you'll be right back, baby.
Baby, believe me, it's only a matter of time, time.

You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.

And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.

Im sorry if i had dissappointed you before... I dont want to put anymore pressure on you.. I gonna be understanding, so whatever you decide, im gonna agree no matter how hurtful or agonising it would be.. i'll understand. i know where i stand. i wish you happiness and joy in ur life..

Tue, Wed, Thu crap!

Tuesday:

Hmm after work went to Plt Fitness @ Raflfles plc to gym. I got 8 free trial pass.. how cheapo rite!! so long never go gym liao all the fats start coming out.. gym for about an hour then very tired then go and have a hot shower!! so nice!! I dunno why i suddenly bcome the centre of attractions in the shower room.. some idiot try to pick me up.. ugly old fart!!! keep peeping at me shower.. i just feel like wacking the hell out of him!!. so bored still early so i decided to walk to town lor... misplace my phone dunno where i think in the bus.. quickly went to PS starhub there to get a new sim card!!

Wednesday:

after work went to walk ard at esplanade.. so boring walk walk and walk nth to do.. then went to suntec and eat macdonalds.. ard 7 plus then Adrian called ask me out.. so he came over to suntect find me.. Then we walk at MS till about 9 plus nth to do then walk to town lor.. reach town le then sit at Starbucks he use my lappie.. till about 11 plus.. Then i say i gotta go home coz later no more bus and tmr i gotta work.. He send me to busstop then i take bus home.. Then he dunno go where meet friends.. Oh ya xiaopei also msg me ask me go prawn fishing! wtf so wuliao late nite go catch prawn for wad fcuk?!

gosh his head so big can!!! its like twice my head size!! lol

Thursday:

Wake up feeling sick.. kinda feverish and headache.. maybe last nite no enuf sleep. Went to work as usual.. Still feeling sick but no choice i dun wan risk my probation. Must think of my future and baby too. Ard 3 plus then my sickness came to full blast! My body was super hot yet i feel so damm cold that i shivered like a vibrator.. my head is pounding like mad and i was like cant tae it anymore... went back home wait for taxi like so bleddy long can! then the fucking cab driver is so inconsiderate.. i ask him to off the aircon.. he can see me shivering yet he say "aircon very low liao cannot off!" WTF so bleedy rude can! then he drive so damm slow and got into a jam.. Guess how much my cab fare?? $32 bucks!! if i take train ican save 30 bucks!! I hate the government! they so selfish and stupid!! they want people to give up their cars and use public transport yet they increase the public transport fare!! I urge all singaporeans to buy cars!!! trust me its cheaper than taking public transport whch can cause up to $30 bucks per trip!! And i hate cab drivers.. I wish those inconsiderate ones get into a terrible accident! dont die, just loose ur limbs and become potato.. serve u right!! gosh sick sick sick!!! i feel like dying!! reach home straight away ZzZz.. cover with 2 layer of blanket.. Sweat untill like shit liddat..

People always come to me when they need things.. I feel so taken advantage of! example.. hmm bring into PLAY then go in then they dissappear. Ask buy drinks.. give them drink after dat also dissappear. Absolutely everyone did this to me except for my best bud Andy. So am i Santa Clause or sth? hmm.. Ppl keep asking me buying them stuffs and i never said no.. Im trying to be a good guy here but what do i get in return?? not even a sincere friendship.. This is wad i call clubbing friends.. they will only call u on weekends and in the weekdays, all dissappear. even on msn dun even msg me.. well, im quitting clubbing so i hope they are happy clubbing without the need of me. kids will always be kids.. p.s, doesnt apply to some of you..

Another dreadful pic!!

aniways incase i forget myself, here's my bdae wish list:
1st ~ Hugg and kiss my ai ai ai ai ai .......... dream on kenny!
2nd ~ New Phone !! my phone kns liao
3rd ~ M.A.C studio fix !!! sumone get for me on my bdae!! i lazy get myself!
4th ~ Zara shoes ... the white leather shoe with stripes..
5th ~ Colonge ... hmmm Armani Aqua di gio, 212 men, aiya sweet smell wan la..
6th ~ Kenny Rogers ... cravin!
7th ~ New MP3 player ... ipod would be nice... lol
8th ~ just to remember my bdae and celebrate it on weekends..
9th ~ "you" sms, call or msn me and wish me happy bdae. & dun ignore me anymore... pls

April review and history...

hmmm... April fool !!! doesnt seem to put a smile on my face today... i actually felt worried for him the whole day tot he really sumthing happen and i partly blame myself... asshole sia.. gotta let loose.. 14 more days to my birthday, look like im gonna spend my birthday alone this year coz it falls on a weekday and not week end where my friends are free.. last year was memorable thanks to Danial.. nothing expensive just some of my favorite things to do..i didnt celebrate my bday for years... no one seems to remember... Maybe this year i wanna go kenny rogers eat.. been craving for it.. then i wanna sit my the beach or anywhere got water and calm and eat a whole big tub of ben and jerrys ice cream. Then i wanna sit sumwhere and sing.. ofcoz where gt no ppl la sing alone ppl tot crazy.. going one year older liao so many things have changed, im more mature and i need a more mature lifestyle.. love life?? hmm to me love all have the same endings never sweet always tragic. everyone in love will change thier feelings and affection towards the other party, its a matter of who is faster. Probably remaining single will make me a public temptation. lol. Friends are just a replacement for loneliness and companion. some are really pain in the ass. Family, money minded! forget it dun talk bout my family. Other than that, life is completely fulfilled. I wanna be a monk!!! amitbha!! be monk better no worries no trouble just peace.. err err considering the tibet riot, i'll reconsider.. lol.. aiways, here are the history on 15th April:- my Bday!!
1) The nite Titanic sank

2)2002 - An Air China Boeing 767-200, flight CA129 crashes into hillside during heavy rain and fog near Busan, South Korea, killing 128.

3) 1452 - birth of Leonardo Davinci

4) My ex birthday also..

5) aiya so many things la lazy to wite down liao.. u guys go find then tell me ok?!!!

aniways, below pic taken with Xiaogui aka baby ghost.. lol so cute!

aiya i'll update again... mind block now.. tired

Out of the hatenes!!

so this few bucnch are among my favourite sudent.. not that im being biased la but really these bunch are not the typical china people.. though their physical aspects still the same.. but attitude and charater wise different. they treat me with respect and we had fun times together.. all the rest either so rude, attitude problem(think they very smart) and CB face! but ground point is kenny = anti MIC. Im just being plastic to them.. all of them.. dey so disgusting can.. can you imagine the girls, can say look abit preety la wear speghetti top then armpit never shave got alot hair wan.. aiyer.. super turn off!! lol...

lol today i wake damm late so didnt have time to put on contact lens and style hair.. lol damm fugly can!!.. i really need to cut my hair.!!!

The decent ME!

been really good at work this few days coz kana warning from boss liao.. lol suddenly become decent liao dunno why... havent been meeting anyone lately... After work is either i go town to walk alone or sit alone at starbucks to study or do work... or sumtimes go home and stay in my room till the next morning then to work.. kinda boring la but wad to do no one pei me out sia!!! my friends will only start calling me on weekends for clubbing.. "main motive is to ask me bring them inside play so they dun need pay".. well may not go clubbing for the month or so la see how long i can stand witout clubbing coz very bored la and i spend so much money there... Only go if there is show la at least can earn bucks there.. now dun look down on me juz because i #####(u know what la ok).. i earn 200 bucks for 3 minutes only can!!! haiz... i need a hair cut also.. my hair very long liao!!

haiz shoooo bored shooo lonely... got parents like no parents liddat.. got siblings like no siblings liddat. got friends like no friends liddat.. got love like no love liddat. When i need sumone, no one come to me all stay far far away frm me... when i dun need anyone, everyone come to me.. sumtimes i sit by the NTU park alone enjoying the serenity of nature.. suddenly my loneliness dissappear coz the wind and the birds and the plants befriend me.. i can feel them soothing me, calming my soul and telling me that loneliness is just in the mind.. wonders of nature.. but inevitably, i will break down in tears reminicing my dreadful misery. this is where life itself hands me a lemon.. what do i do with it??

Reflections 3

Im not proud of myself and my life. People think of me highly but i feel im just a useless person. Everyone look at me as a different person. All dont look at me as KENNY but sumone else. (U know who la) and sumtimes i feel so ashamed of it. But sumtimes I feel good. Its just a mix feelings that always urge me to quit but then alas i cant coz i dont wanna loose the good feeling. Im born to do it. Im born to entertain. However, Right now i have a new meaning for entertaining, im gonna do something different. Well, firstly, i already joined an entertainment company and they are sending me to a Music and entertainment school.. Im gonna study and trained as an event host and a singer. I can sing la but still not good / professional yet so i will be trained by a vocal coach for 4 mth and after getting the Cert/Diploma i will have alot of singing jobs.. lol. But the main priority is hosting. I hope after this course i will be more professional and hopefully will have a chance to come out on TV.. So thats my dream now, to be amongs the TV stars. Well, its only a dream la but i already have the stepping stone for it. Gosh. I really wanna make it big this time. I just wanna feel it. I dunno maybe i think too much la.. but who cares its my dream! not happy with it U can just go fcuk a horny spider!!
BUT this is just my sideline job and i still need to focus on my fulltime job...

Reflections 2

Been reading some inspirational books and some blogs which enlightens me a bit. Did alot of wrong things and bad things lately. I learned a huge lesson never make a deal with a devil or he price paid will be huge. Kinda ashamed of myself, seeking a supernatural being for rewards and giving promises in return which i know i could never fulfill. Im not gonna emphasize on what it is coz its very scary. U may choose to believe it or not coz im just penning down my experience. My friend already warn me not to do it but stubborn me dont listen. Well, karma bites back and its done and over with. Coz of that, I nearly lost my job and now my boss is placing me under a month probation for no reason, I quarreled big time with my parents and brothers and now all of them not talking to me!, I nearly lost sumone i really love, My credit card application suddenly got decline after i got my card already(how funny!). Its a huge loss but what is important to me now is i still have sumone i love. Lesson learnt.

Been thinking about my life also... I wonder what i should do with my life! Im no longer a kid and I dun have NS anymore. Im not like those youngsters still waiting for NS can dun care about their life. My life started rite after NS but where am i now? I have big dreams but im not living it. I know i can reach my dreams coz since young whatever i aimed for i will get there. Like when I aimed for straight As for my 'O' levels, I did got it (except maths which i suck at got C6). Struggled abit in JC but i worked very hard to pass my A level. (i got one A ok not bad!!! the rest ahem). Even when i was working part time since sec 2 in a Fast Food restn, i worked hard and by age of 18, i was already a manager. But after JC suddenly my life change. I become more lazy sia.. I dont wanna study anymore and resort to taking private sch. Work also i play play and kana fired twice now almost the third time. I keep depending on Shows to make money. Theres a point of time i never work at all just shows everyday for a year or two. My financial is always not stable, sumtimes i can have loads of money can buy so many things and sumtimes im flat broke. I wanna more stable income, i wanna earn more than my parents. They are fcuking rich but stinking stingy can!!
Now that i gotta job, i must not lack again sia.. i must really prove myself this one mth. coz after my confirmation then i will be a confirmed fulltime lecturer and will earn big bucks. gosh, and my MBA!! its near April and i havent even do anything about it! i really need to wake up from the dream land and come back to reality! SINGAPORE!.. u no education, u cannot go anywhere, i realize that..

Stress

Been very busy lately.. sooo long didnt update my blog.. Haiz so many things to rush nowadays from work to projects to other stuffs.. Been kinda thinking so much lately so stress!! I got alot of problems.. I dunno what... I took MC again yesterday coz too tired then this morning i went to work in the afternoon coz last nite i tonned outside.. hmmm.. really very tired.. i think mu boss wants to fire me already but then he wont do it directly.. I thinks he wants to drive me out of the company and quit. Haiz.. this morning i received a very supprising SMS frm my Director.. he said "Think u need more time 2 rest. U just come from 1:30 - 5:30pm with effect frm 2day. Mr Toh will take over ur mornin classes" . gosh wad does dat means... its like half of my day gone.. i dunno whether he is paying me half day pay also?? if he pays me half day pay then i die already then i cannot survive liao with half pay.. gosh!! wad should i do?? desperately searching for another job now.. this time i think is real.. haiz.. OMFG!! now i try to talk to him try and beg him not to cut my pay in half.. if cannot then i find another job and MIA frm this job serve them right.. once again i emphasise I HATE CHINA PEOPLE!!! BLEEDY BACKSTABBERS WHO LOOK DOWN ON SINGAPOREAN ... they deserves to be a fulltime whore leech on old uncles here in singapore they dont deserve any place here! shoo shoo!! go back to ur stinking country! KENNY = ANTI MIC .. anyone that comes frm there please i advise u to stay the hell away from me!!

Dance show at Grand Copthorne Hotel.

Hmmm, ytd did a show at a Hotel Ballroom, Kinda huge but not excitin enuf.. hmmm, Did few dance item with Jojo so tiring can the song nonstop.. stupid me mix the song untill so long!! Hmmm its been so long since i got out of my heels and Delmontes and be a Male dancer.. think about a year or two...Really missed dancing alot and i would love to do it again... and its hassle free no make up as well!! haha!! Its was crazy.. me and my crazy ideas.. lol... did a nonstop 8 min medly which halfway i was out of breath but still continue with full of energy.. Jojo!! you halfway then no energy liao!! lol see la in camp BJ too much dun wan to run dats why no stamina.. lol.. Proud of Jojo as well, this his first or second time did male dancer and did very well also!! Next time need male dancer can call u liao.. can call u Diva Dancer lol... Wellness as usual did her eye catching enthics and kana sabo by the emcee lol.. should see he expression on stage... so lost! lol.. Aniways good payment also so today can pay my hp bill finish hundred plus sia!!

White angels!! so sexy Shanghai night

All these are the wuliao moment when we were waiting for out second item which was 2 hour interval..

Shoe lace.

I forgot to tie my shoe lace the previous time and when it walk i kept trippin and then i fall.. it doesnt hurt that much as before coz im used to the pain... Now that i got up again, im gonna tie my shoelace double knot coz i dont wanna fall anymore..

New Quotes for the week.. EMOING!!

Things will never be the same again... tired of love politics. Sick of passion entics, i'll return to my monotonous way of life...

"And 'll take this broken heart, and go somewhere else, and try to put it back together,but just so you know,
My heart will NEVER be the same again. "

"Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels"


"Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?"


"Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions"


"Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in? "

"You expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong.While you're inciting others.You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone. because you're not going anywhere"

My new bank Cards... lol

Hmmm recently got too much money so must open few banks and sign up new cards.. kinda sick and tired of POSB liao interest rate not that much.. hmmm.. i heard of a very good deal at Standard Chartered bank so i decided to check it out. Gosh, know what, you can open an account wih just $1.. haha all other banks needs a minimum of $500 and above but this one no need.. summore they can upgrade you to Platinum Mastercard summore.. YOU guys should open an account there as well.. its damm cheap!! oh ya for the youn people.. u need to be at least 17 yrs old.. lol Then I also went to open OUB account coz its near my office and i can just drop in my Cheque weekly coz im receiving Overtime pay in cheque form.. Hmmm Below are pics of my two new cards... lol... Aniways, i also sign up a Visa Credit card from OUB as well coz so far i only have Mastercard and Visa would come in handy sumtimes.. Its a Mini card very cute de but will only received in two weeks time by post.. once receive, its shopping time.. lol.. Reason why i need 3 banks is coz im into investment and financial planning.. I dont want to put in too much money is POSB coz their ATMs are everywhere and i'll tend to withraw money often.. haha clever rite.. hard to find ATM then dun spend so much.. lol...

Nice vids and song.. watch!!! WAITING FOR YOU!

Its been a long time since i updated my blog.. lol.. nothing much to put in also coz nothing much happen its been work work and work.. finally got some free time.. hmmm.. watched a dvd serial the whole day recently called ai qing he yue(contract of love).. very touching and sadd.. haiz move me to tears sia... and i love the song also very touching and nice.. haiz How i wish there are such true and unconditional love... WAKE UP... THERE ARE NONE! Ppl always promised unconditional love but they dont even know what that means.. Unconditional love doesnt mean you love the person alot alot or you give all your love to the person.. It means that you love the person for what he is. You dont expect anything in return from him. whatever he do or dont do you stil love him with al your heart.. Normally love is alway conditional... for example, "when u become ugly i wont love you anymore" or "If you do this then i love you / dont love you" means that you want something in return.. haiz.. no love is TRUE after all...

Reflections on MONDAY night..

Went to office today.. OMG its been like so long that i am teaching in AMGT school. Im hating my job more and more everyday.. I hate seeing my students everyday.. I hate them for being stupid! i hate them to be so ignorance! I hate them for being so Lazy, Noisy. EVerything they do i HATE them.. OMG im loosing my patience soon.. keep blowing my temper every now and then in class.. Loosing my voice too.. Why cant i get smart and clever student?? gosh yeah, if they were smart, they would be in The local Uni already not a Private school. gosh.. Tmr im gonna start my new module. Human Resource Management. HRM. its gonna be a thougher module and lord help them.. hmm My schedule is becoming more tideous. sarting frm tmr, i will have three lesson per day instead of two.. gosh so tiring can.. hmm morning is IELTS, 1pm is Business Comms and 3pm is HRM.. Guan yin ma help me!!! One thing i dun like is stupid people.. nobody is born stupid.. they're just lazy!! when you're lazy, you become stupid! and dont hate me for calling you stupid since ur too lazy.. gosh get a life!!! and i hate act smart ppl as well... u dont know shit and act as if you know the whole world!!

After school today went to meet baby for dinner and movies... went to yishun there... really miss my baby siia so i went all the way to yishun meet baby. went to watch "meet the spartan". damm stupid funny show but too short la.. after that walk to khatib to send baby home.. The path i took was familiar like the path i used to take almost everyday last time.. walk pass blk 643 and i look above to the widow... the bedroom light was on. ooh ok who cares, reminiscent is a poison to the mind.. i moved on long ago. the old flame had died, but the scare left on the candle still unscathered.. vanquish that thought and embrace the one who love me now... I really wish history wont repeat itself again.. i dun really wan to suffer frm a terrible heart break once more.. i have plans if it does happen again.. its a secret cant tell.. Aniways loking foward to spend long long time with baby... i'll prove you wrong.. i am worthy after all... amour amour amour le baby!!!

Mariah Carey.. She did it again

My Diva duin it again... MC releasing her new album on my BIRTHDAY 15th April..!!! So we celebrate together!! haha..So my bdae wish list would be hmmm...

1) Mariah Fragrance (M)... vry nice!!

2) I wan go Bangkok!!! shopping!!!! clothes and clothes!

3) Party with all my friends and get high... not on E but drinks... lol

4) Ipod Vids

5) New shoes.. i wan black, silver, and white shoes!!!

6) Agnes B bag...

okok, back to MAriah Carey's new album. read this interesting stuffs..

NEW ALBUM IN STORES APRIL 15th; FOLLOWS-UP WORLDWIDE 10 MILLION-SELLING, MULTI-GRAMMY WINNING THE EMANCIPATION OF MIMI
Performer and songwriter Mariah Carey has set April 15th as the in-store date for the most eagerly anticipated album of the year, E=MC². The 11th studio album of her career, E=MC² is the follow-up to The Emancipation Of Mimi, Mariah's worldwide 10 million selling #1 album, which generated three Grammy awards (including Best Contemporary R&B Album), 2 #1 singles and countless more industry honors during its 18-month stay on the charts.
The first single from E=MC² is "Touch My Body," written and produced by Mariah Carey, C. "Tricky" Stewart, and The-Dream, hit radio stations worldwide on February 12th. The video for "Touch My Body" was directed by feature filmmaker Brett Ratner - Internet, cable and network premieres for the video will be announced in the weeks ahead. In addition to C. "Tricky" Stewart and The-Dream, other guest producers joining Mariah on E=MC² will include Jermaine Dupri, DJ Toomp, Stargate, Will I Am, Bryan Michael Cox, Nate "Danjahandz" Hills and James Poyser. E=MC² is executive produced by Mariah Carey and Antonio "LA" Reid, Chairman, Island Def Jam Music Group.
The Emancipation Of Mimi, released April 12, 2005, was an industry phenomenon for the mega-platinum award-winning superstar - Soundscan's biggest-selling album of the year, bringing total sales of Mariah's albums, singles and videos to more than 160 million worldwide, making her the most successful female recording artist in history. Mimi featured "We Belong Together" (winner of the Best Female R&B Vocal and Best R&B Song Grammys) and "Don't Forget About Us," Mariah's 16th and 17th #1 career singles respectively. They tied one of the most enduring chart records in Billboard Hot 100 history, Elvis Presley's 17 #1's. Mariah is now positioned as the only active recording artist in the 48 years of the Hot 100 (which began in 1958) with the potential to surpass the Beatles' all-time high of 20 #1 hits.

OMG pimple breakouts!! HELP

so Pissed off!!! Pimples start to break out al over my fucking hot face!! lol.. So irritating two bleedy huge pimples smack on both my cheeks! so balance summore same spot on both side... Fucking CB sia!! i damm bleedy hate pimples... Those who laugh at it i tell you will sure get even worse one!!! Hope the pimple will get better by sat sia.. at least if better put concealer still cant see... haiz.. so suay my life!!!

OMG pimple breakouts!! HELP

My new house...

Ytd go my new house to do some work there... hmmm.. one more week to move in.. to my supprise the house is still in a mess! the upper floor is ready, not to my satisfaction however.. but the first floor is still crap. Hope the stupid contractor finish the work in time... Oh shit, i still havent buy my furniture yet!! Got really no time to get it.. Maybe on Thu then get hopefully they can send by fri sia!! Hmmm.. Oh ya.. take a look at my Mums Da'Vinci Chandellier cost a freakin 8 grand!! Stupid woman go waste money on suck a fuckingtard stuffs and I HATE MY ROOM! so small can.. cant fit the queen size bed so must stick to single! fucktard sia.. kaoz ii really got no time to do my room!! how how how?? moving in on sat which i will not be around as well... grrr why so many things clash at one time!!!

LOVE, n. A temporary insanity curable by marriage or by removal of the patient from the influences under which he incurred the disorder... It is sometimes fatal, but more frequently to the physician than to the patient."- Ambrose Bierce, The Devil's Dictionary, 1911

OMFG!!! (oh my fucktard god!).... Just found my school pic!! Ugly days!

Was cleaning my room last nite coz wanna move hse already... then found my JC class photo... So fucking farktard can!!! its like 4 years ago la!! haha ii was sooo nerdy back then!! anyways not nerdy la still cool and CUTE! but the day we took the pic was the wrong day. Its right after PE la can!! so me and some boys went to bathe then hair all messy messy like KUKU liddat.. Try and find me lor.. keke. Hmmm The Older teacher is my HT (Home Tutor) Ms Amy Lee, she teaches GP which is dammmm fucking BORING and we called her ugly fucking witch! The younger teacher is our (AHT)shit forger her name, she taught us Economics.. shes da best ever!! Cant remember some of their names liao.. Look at the boys.. hint hint.. majority are GAYS!! freaking fucktard!! and a few Lesbies.. normal we all come frm all boys or all girls sec sch!!

Aniways.. Miss my school and classmates soo much!!! Shit this reminds me... im getting older sia!!

Whatever... CJC Rawks!!!... yeah as if..

Everybody Dance to my LOVE.....

Most people say LOVE is like a song... But to me, Love is like a dance.. There is always a hidden meaning behind it...Everymove has different enigma to what love incorporates.. Love is like a rhytm in the dance... The music and dance must coincide and syncronize in order for it to work.. The music should not ovecast the dance.. and the dance should not overcast the song.. Same way for love.. Love is never unconditional.. But whatever shit is... I love you!

Dont say me EMO... im NOT!!!!

Life has been better..

Falling in love is sooo scary...

Sumtimes the best way not to get hurt is not to get into it.... Just be a lonely fucktard sit one corner and dun have to worry about heart break....
But its still best to fall in love and enjoy happiness...

p.s. I LOVE YOU.....

Fri Nite.. Drunk Girls and boys!!!

Eve went walk walk with Fiona at Chinatown.. She wanted to buy the bag im using the "Agnes B" bag but unfortunately the shop closed already.. so bo bian still early so go walk around then go to play to get a chop. Clubbin at first was bit boring so decided to drink... keke Introduce Fiona and Yongan a new Drink, they say very nice but in the end both drunk like "drunken prawns".. Can u imagine one person "me" taking care or two drunken fellow... Both keep swaying and falling down.. haha.. Bring both back to my home and sleep coz both like cannot walk so must carry them.. Aiyo so heavy can!! LOL u dun wanna know what nonsense happen when they were drunk... I can laugh my arse off!!! hehe... Aniways, i didnt drink much... how to... if not who take care them... bla bla bla... My friends didnt came clubbing again.. Pangseh no.2. Andy go to KL with his BF.. Ash just got his wisdom tooth pulled so fever.. Shawn K went "club-dating" so dao me... Kitty with his new FAT BF also dao me also *piak*.. Noris also didnt come... Haha but atleast i can enjoy without them..

No pic of U this vids reminds me of U.. bla bla Valentines Day!

Watch this vids.. Stop the imeem player and play this vid and watch... nice song too..
Remember how i always say you look exactly like Rain?? Keke and how much you hate it coz i called u "my Rain" but u hated him.. keke and coz of dat u dun let me take ur pic... so ii dun have any of ur pic when we're together.. i was glancing thru my vids and i stumbled upon this one.. It realy reminds me of you.. Well.. haha hope u dun see this if not u sure curse me like hell.... haha.. reminising only..

Valentines day!!

hmm... noting much... After work, went to town to pick up cake i bought at swensens then went to Taka to give it to Adrian (his Bdae).. Bought the 1kg Black forest ice cream cake.. Hmm also gave him Bdae present i bought few days b4.. lol a wallet from Topman.. I dunno to me it look nice and i like it very much.. hopes he like it too ba.. also gave him Centrum Supplement (not bdae gift!) Coz dat time he complain cant sleep and pimples.. The supplements can help sleep better and good for the skin... Hope he take it daily very ex leh!!.. keke.. Give him all the things at Taka then i go off le... dun wan stay long long.. Went walking alone awhile then bought a Vday cake frm Swensens... really emo emo de... im narssistic nia lol. And once again... im BROKE! haiz...

My Quotes For Valentines Day..

This year Valentines Day means nothing to me... I dunno... I just wanna be alone on this day.. I just wanna go to the place we went last year and sit there all by myself, maybe i'll smile, maybe i'll cry but it doesnt matter coz im alone.. Today could be our second Vday, but i cant stop forgiving myself for loosing you... And I thought i had fallen in love again, but was dissappointed again.. I know myself, who would ever wanna love me.. Just one look at me and its written all over my face "Utter Failure".. Well, thats what it would be, I just wanna be alone.. I am happy, very happy though, but whats th point of being happy if you cant share that hapiness with sumone.. Why ppl just take me for granted.. Why ppl just want me for my money, for my body but not for my heart?? Maybe im just like one of the preety face toy people play with then throw. Well, this are all the quotes i could think off today.... :

"A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried."

"Forget The Times You Walked By, Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry, Forget The Time You Held My Hand, Forget The Sweet Things If I Can, I Can No Longer Pretend, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend"

"When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have"

"How Can You Be Friends With Someone If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes You Want Them Even More?"

"Even when I pour my heart out to you, I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know."

"I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever."

"I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me."

"There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you."

"The part that hurts me the most, is knowing that I once had you and then lost you..."

"The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned."

"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do."

"How do you heal a broken heart? I have no idea where to start because everything I do reminds me of you. "

"Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and you can never have them?"

"I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last."

"There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ... "

Sore EYE!

Woke up damm late today and have sore eye.. zharks!! hate it now i must wear specs out so unglam can! Left my office early coz have to head down to PLAY at 5 coz having the audition for Beauty pageant called Singapore Miss Universe.... I was one of the audition judges la get to ask questions to all the bimbos!! I didnt know Singaporeans are soo dumb blonde and dead shit bimbo!! OMG the answer they gave u can really make u either wanna laugh or wanna give a thight slap across their face.. Finish at ard 10pm.. Cant find a cab so took bus home.. Bus journey was sooooo long so use my comp in the bus and chat...keke not so boring after all.. Reach home, was too tired then ZzZzZz....

keke pic taken in bus... the upper deck totally no ppl wan.. haha

Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?"

OMG.. Im officially broke!!

Gosh.. im officially broke as of today untill two more weeks to come... Keep spending and spending didnt realise my pocket hole getting bigger.. Then Ytd i go pay my school fee which is like almost all of what i had left this mth.. Hiaz.. now i stress again got no money.. bla bla bla.. ii wan ask my mother money scared later she make noise ar then i dulan so might as well dont ask. hmmm.. think i'll go on budget this and next week first nia... Haizz...
Other than that nothing much happened...bored bored bored... maybe i'll go and sing... lol

Sat and Sun nonsense!!

Sat..
Nth much.. Woke up late coz previous nite didnt have enuf sleep... Went to PLAY at nite.. All my friends didnt club but i have to go down to settle some event thingy with the boss at PLAY.. SO one of my friend, Noris follow me to PLAY.. Was alone.. met Jojo inside.. wasnt feeling good as usual emo emo again.. need to drink.. Then come a girl called Fiona, she drank with me.. I bought her like 4 tequila shots and 2 abscene red then she got drunk.. haha. also get to know YongAn, got him drink as well.. kinda nice guy... I was Supprised... saw my ex Boss Xandra inside... OMG that bitch is a Lesbie!! haha got her drinks as well... I drank rather alot.. wanted to breakdown and cry, but huggie sumone make me feel better.. Haixxx.. After clubbin, Fiona, YongAn and another girl come sleep at my hse... We left at 2pm plus and i went to see my new Hse in Jurong..

Sun...
Hmmm, went to see my new hse in jurong... Kinda not happy with the situation there...
Hmm let see, The stupid wooden ledge on the stair came off.. the constructor havent fix properly yet.. i nearly fell down the stupid stairs.. Went to see my bedroom.. so bleedy small can.. My parents room damm big la summore got nice view.. My room sux! then after that went to Changi meet my "mummy"... Went to drink and eat seafood with her... she stress nia old liao lor dats why stress... Then at 12 midnite met BenBen and we go watch movie at Cathay.. watch Ah Long Pte Ltd.... So funny yet stupid show... reach home about 3 plus then sleep le very tired... Haiz..

Dont Blame me for ignoring you... its not me... remember, you pushed me away... ii tried... maybe ii should stop trying... U dont have me in ur mind...

Today woke up at 6am to prepare for the CNY concert.. Damm not enuf sleep and bad Hangover frm last nite crap.... Slept at 4.30am and wake up at 6!! only 1 half hour nia... My head spinning like shit.. Prepare all my crap and The bus picked me up at 7.. Had headache the whole day... Reach home at 3pm then went back to sleep till 7.. Then wake up go meet my friends.. Sooo tired still.. Haiz.. nth much to talk.. Aniways, gonna meet my friends now in town.
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ii just wanna sit alone in the corner.. Whats the point of having luxury, money and everything. Having everything without U is like having nothing..



I still miss you alot... Let time erode everything away, im tired... Sick of crying, Tired of trying, Yes im smiling, But inside im dying .....

Break down.....

Trippin Last nite... Went out with some friends, i wished i didnt... Intented to watch movie but i didnt went to St James instead... Ard 9pm ii received a phone call... Received the biggest shocking news of my life.. i made the wrong move on Stock Market and it came crashing down and i had a major loss.. my faced changed.. was not in the mood... No one noticed guess ii was rather "invinsible".. Left them and went to play pool alone.. Had 4 rounds... the fastest rounds i completed.. Lost and distraught.. I went to Balcony Bar to drink alone.. Had a long island tea, Waterfall and flamin lamborghini.. sit down alone... kinda seh already.. I called my "gor gor" and cry on the phone.. which ii only do when im drunk la... I called my best friend Andy also.. He ask me to go St James find him.. So i went to St james.. Met my "real" friends Andy, Ash and Shawn.. Bought more drinks... They dont let me drink flamming so sua lor i bought 8 jugs and drink all.. was damm seh.. I started to break down again...cried and cried... All my shares gone just liddat.. and "Sumone" dont even care... My friends gave me a good lecture.. He say " see la, spend money on boys only let them take advantage on U.. When ur down, they just leave liddat and dont care!.." I realised le ii made that big mistake to to put all my hope and money on sumonelse when ii know its just no returns.. U led me on and then leave me in the lurch.. Thanks alot.. i shouldnt be so blind and stupid.. I learnt my lesson now.. I tot of leaving the country, But my friends persuade me to stay and dont run away.. Yes ii will stay coz of my friends.. But i swear i wont be the same person... I regret everything i did.. Gonna start on new shares again...

Dont blame me for ignoring you..... remember, ur the one who pushed me away... Though its hurting and dissappointed, another lesson learnt.

Eve of CNY

Eve of CNY went for Dinner.. Nothing exciting bout it.. Everyone was gossipping and blabbing nonsense.. After that ii go and set up the alter for prayers coz later at 11.30 praying the fortune god and Rat deity" he came out in the pic i took beside the joss stick!" See properly then can see.. Haha and ii also kana force to wear the red guy's cheong sam thingy....so RED can! Then at 11.30 start praying le... keke Ask for soo many things siia hope the god wont du lan with me... haha Finish the praying at bout 12.30 liddat then i go meet my friends and we went clubbing.. haha I cant sleep nia so dunno wad to do then club lor... haha then went home and morning go grandma house.. sianz...

see i set up the table nice nice de hor... haha
See the last pic beside the joss stick my auntie say its the rat deity!! ii also dunno look like wad... ii think im the one looking like rat!

Tuesday BuzZzZz

Today ii woke up damm late! wake up at 2pm... didnt go school.. 5pm went to Office awhile then went down to town to meet a client at cine.. After that ii went to Heeren to get fedora hat for Adrian.. didnt know dat kinda hat would cost a bomb... lol... Haiz... I spend too much on CNY le. Spend almost all my money le.. i didnt realise it untill i checked my account balance.. haha Scary!! Try beg my mom for money hope she give me big big hong bao!! After town ii went to gym near my office ther.. Want to build my bods nice nice de.. Gymmed from 8 pm till 11.30pm de... so lei can.. Gonna go swimming tomorrow morning too!! Then went to my office slack slack then ii went to meet muii ex settle some of his prob.. reach home ard 4 plus de... haiz... gonna wake up at 9 to swim.. See below my pic ii take at the gym... nice bods rite?? LOL. Below also the pic of the fedora hat.. Hope he likes it....

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If ur bl0od cud save me,i'd asked for onLy 1 dr0p. If ur air cud save me,i'd asked for onLy 1 breath. But if ur tears cud save me..i'd rather die .. than to see you CRY ..

Sunday Madness

ii Woke up very late today at 7pm.. Supposed to go for rehearsal coz i need to teach dance for my dancers doing show on CNY.. Something so important ii can overslept.. Short of a dancer coz not enuf guys to dance.. So i called Liliang.. Met Liliang at 9pm at Tg pagar Mrt then we went to Lau Pa Sat to eat coz all the people late!! After that went to my studio for rehearsal.. Was kinda angry coz Few of my dancers didnt turn up.. "hello!! ii pay you people to come rehearsal as well!!".. My best bud Andy also didnt turn up.. Such an attitude im so dissappointed. Aniways, I had a hard time teaching them especially Liliang catch very slow i have to repeat and repeat over and over again... The rest was rather ok.. I still need to call Tommy to come for rehearsal on Monday.. ii hope they do a good show coz its a big officia event with ministers.. hope they enjoy on CNY also...! Sorry to my friends Ashley, Shawn and another gerl ii put u guys on aeroplane coz didnt go St James with ya'll. was to tired lor. Sorry U guys dun angry wif me hor!!!

Fri and Saturday...

Friday...
Cant remember what ii did on friday.. hmmm... well, nothing to write bout friday another mundane day... well at night went to tonn at my friend house coz my friend sick so ii take care him lor.. he cannort sleep so ii accompany him chat till morning... didnt sleep the whole nite only like one hour nia...

Saturday....
Went home ard 3plus in the afternoon then went to take a nap awhile... Then meet Adrian at 7pm and watch movie.. Watch some stupid movie called "Sweeny Tods".. Its a Thriller, Murder plus Musical movie.. It was damm boring to the max and so many singings! Despite that, got the man slit and cut off people throat wan and soo many blood come out frm it... aiyo... I closed my eyes damm tite everytime he slit the throat.. I got hemophobia nia.. "Fear of blood coming out frm human body" ii nearly puked... After movie went to PS TCC there.. ii dun wan eat anitin ther coz ii dun like the food there not nice wan... Then we went to maxwell i feel hungry... went to eat, which ii shouldnt coz i got drunk later and i puked.. grose!! Went to play but Adrian dun wan go.. Tot ii wan bring him in but he dun wan and he say he wan stay alone outside... Feel soo bad leaving him outside alone.. coz the place is many ppl drunk wan scared anitin happen to him nia.. Inside play keep worrying for him.. msged him few times but no reply le guess hes with friends already ba.. Inside PLAY, my stupid friends keep forcing me and buying me drinks... they make me drink like so many flamming drinks till my throat burns like hell... then ii quarreled with sumone, some idiot.. spoil my mood.. Went to maxwell, then went up tp my studio take my bag, coz ii put my bag there earlier, then take cab go home sleep... ZzZzZz. Angry!

Thursday nite..

Tonite my friends asked me out to drink in town.. ii was too lazy to go coz very tired and the next day wake up early... and he called me when ii was just about to sleep lying down on my bed le.. i dun wan go but kana forced to.. He say he pei me drink then i bo bian ma near my house so just go lor.. This time is really "out of bed" look.. haha. I only had a long island and a choc martini..

The bar there got so many buddha pantings la... i tot it was a temple... haha the buddha got many expression one.. The first one is Buddha giving the plastic smile and seductive eyes. The second pic is buddha in depression. The third one is buddha is sad coz he gotta ugly hair, a mole on his head and damm droopy ears. The last one was buddha when he was till small... What does this show... PUBERTY changes everything.. The older u get, the uglier U become!

Wed.. Nth much happen

Today was a normal day again.. Ive decided to quit my job in March.. I need to go back and study again.. Made up my mind liao.. too many things stressing me... Gotta be dependant on my parents again maybe for the time being... Probably after finish studyin, ii want to go overseas to work. Nothing left for me stayin here liao.. Probably i'll fall in love with an ang moh there.. haha and get married ther who knows... kekeke.. Well, heres sumthing frm me Wishin You all a Happy New Year!!! Nothing to do in class draw draw le.. haha

In the evening ii went to Cine to watch movie.. Watch 27 dresses.. tot it would be some stupid girlish show but turns out to be very nice and moving.. So romantic yet bimboistic movie.. Went out with this "pal" so auntie can!! aniways ii feel quite bad to him la.. send him aeroplane le but still act as if everything is normal... I hope uu know feelings cant be force and uu being extra caring and nosey is kinda getting me on my nerves.. probably too much mixing with girls made u liddat.. lol.. life is unfair i know, u like the person so much, the person dun like you... The person u dun like, likes u very much... aniways its poetic justice in the end both also hurt... haha kinks showing off my literature expertoir... lmao... Gonna take mc tmr.. feel very tired!!

You are s.i.n.g.l.e make the best of it. It doesnt mean your not good enough, it means [no one] is good enough for y o u.

Today... Nth much

Hmmm... nothing much happened today... went to school on same old boring place... As usual, Business comm module is damm boring so only 2 students turn up.. Those are the "guai kias".. Finish lesson early so wuliao take pic with them.. haha then watch some MR.BEAN vids in class.. haha..

Then in the eve went to Tampenes Mall coz got a meeting with Mr Dave Lim, some Business Partner la.. He's 28 but sooo ke ai look like 20 liddat.. haha.. After that meet a friend there and o eat at Pasta lo.. haha Below pic ii take outside Starbucks while waiting for Mr.Lim.. haha

Who's gonna be my Valentine This year since Ur gone with another??? Gonna be lonely this year Vday!

Sunday Today! Day out in JB

Today ii went JB with Jojo... ii was suppose to go on a business trip nia but ii dun wan go alone so bring Jojo along.. We met at 1pm at bugis and first go to Fu lu Shou ctr and Pray for my good business contract. Then we took bus to JB. The meeting was fast and i gt the contract! yeah! after that we went shopping and walk2. haha Dunno we walk where we actualy got lost! came upon this market so many food! and smoky.. im all sweat out and oily.. hate that feelin! See the pic we took at the market! after that we went home ard 8 plus. The causeway too many ppl and we got stuck! So we walk across the causeway lo soo damm far! After that we went to Causeway point and have dinner at KFC.. tired and all shagged out! went back home!! JB was fun! oh ya, I bought a Giogio Armani Belt and Levis wallet.. soo damm cool and nice! Well, too tired gonna sleep now.. see the pics! haha the last two is me waiting at MacDonalds in JB.. nearly fell asleep too tired

Roses are red, violetets are blue...You are always on my head cuz i love you... I hope you are dead cuz i hate you....These tears I shed are not worth you.

Friday and Saturday crap!

Well now updating for fri and sat stuffs.. haha .. Hmmm let see... Friday, was my stupidest day! I had a meeting till 9 at night.. was not on the right mood too many things on my mind.. was clubbing at PLAY with my friends.. I dunno why i kept getting drinks for me and my friends.. bought alot of lamboughini and abscene black (the strongest flammin drink). Stupidly i spend nearlt 300 bucks... First time tried abscene black.. it was dam FuXXXing strong can! The flame was so big. Sipped the whole thing finish and ii puked at the bar there... so paiseh la! my best bud Andy took it also puke there.. so funny la.. haha.. Well, hmm I dont know why but this guy (no names mention) suddenly came up to me and hugg me.. (He was my so ex date la who is a bastard who like many others only wanna get into my pants!) make me piss off only siia. I push his hands away and ask him to go FxxK off.. He taught me a lesson, I will never date anione older than me! Hmm my phone also dunno what happened... I msged (HIM) 4 times i thought he dun wan to reply or ignoring me but then found out he didnt receive my msg.. Felt so stupid.. So sorry if u think im ignoring you.. im not.

Saturday nothing much happened! Cant sleep well dunno why.. I woke up early at 8 then went to the gym. After gym i went swimming at HV there.. Gonna work my bods till good shape. Went home hungry my, my maid didnt cook and my mum was oversea. Dunno why im not so lazy today i actually cooked my brunch! haha.. nth special, just some eggs and roast a steak. took pic of it below... haha.. hmm He asked me out for movie today but last min cant make it so i went to town alone to get sum things. then went to clerk quay to meet my friends..

BorinG Day Today..

Another Boring Day in School today. Wake up late for my morning Class, Start at 9.30 I reach at 10 plus sia. All the student waiting for me in the Class room siia.. I walk into the class only all start going "Orh U late!!.." then one girl suan me say " U come very early today hor!" such an Evil bitch! Hope she fail her exam cant take Diploma. HUMPH!.. As usual my director came up to me in my office bout 3 plus after my lunch come lecture me... Toopid old man! not as if i everyday late siia.. Aniways ii give him excuse say bus breakdown.. haha Then he ask me why nv take taxi, then i answer "Taxi fare go up liao!". Haiz so suay sia.. Aniways I was still sleepy. Since ii got no eve class, so just sleep nia. Lock my office door and sleep.. hehe so smart right!

Today ii got think of him... hmm dunno whether he is thinking of me.. wanted to keep chatting with him on msn but ii dun wan disturb him scared later he find me irritating... Well, made my resolution. Frm today onwards, I am gonna put aside half of my Pay every mth to save up For my MBA. Maybe i will apply for it somewhere in April. So must go on thight budget.. cant spend so much liao. But i will work hard for the money so dat me and possibly IF will have my other half can enjoy together.. 3 more mth till MBA. Thanks to my director for approving my application..

Everytime you touch me, i become a hero. I'll make you save whereever you are. And bring you everything you ask for, nothing is about me. I'll shine like the candle in the dark, when you tell me that you love me

Today in Office.

Haiz... Today my day is so boring in office.. First, I had a morning class Teaching business English.. only 10 out of my 26 student came.. dont know what happened to them. Then in my afternoon class Business Comms, none of my students come.. Aiyo dunno why leh, is the subject damm boring or is it just me? Aniways they are lucky enuf to have a very young and "shuai ge" not! lecturer.. Haiz.. So whole day sit in my office lor marking papers, Preparing lecture notes and watching youtube... haha.. ii also took pic of my own office.. the wall is one of my fav color Yellow! so bright and lively.. But you see my table is pathetic right so messy.. haha maybe clean tmr la.. Its six already getting late.. beter go back now.. im alone scared got ghost! haha.


ii wanna hold you close under the rain, i wanna kiss your smile and feel your pain, i wanna share the world only for you, all the impossible ii wanna do.

ii misintepreted u...

I guessed i got the meaning wrongly.. He said he didnt reject me but just wanna know muii betta first... I hope he really mean it. Anyways, ii wanna get to know him better as well and ii also wan him to get to knoe me better coz ii dun wan him to regret later being with me just like dat boy "dun mention name".. When the time comes, if we are fated to be together, we will be together. Only time will tell.. ii will keep on trying to impress him with what i am made of, the true me and whats come frm my heart and within... This ii promiise..

Anyways... I might be thinking of doing My Masters Degree probably in few years to come. My school just offered me a direct application for it.. Of cozz ii wan to take it.. Anyone in the corporate world would want a MBA. But the cost is freaking $21 000.. ii will save that money ii hope...

Relationships are like glass... Sumtimes its better to leave them broken than to hurt yourself trying to put it back together.

Guess It wasnt meant to be..

Well, Guess i gotten the answer preety clearly... I know myself very well, its hard for almost anyone to accept me and i accept this reality.. Even though if i changed myself now, my past would still be there.. But ii never regret living my past and doing Its been a great experience, good and bad memories, but i this is what i do best. But now I think i wanna stop doing it already (Those who knoe me should know what i am talking about DQ). now, i wanna leave it all behind and start my career track.. Just wanna thank few ppl. First, my Mummy Sebrena and Agnes for guiding me. Fellow aquaintance who have worked together with me for the longest time; shawn, Lisyaz, Ash, mimi, wellness, Andy, and Max. Also Muii sistaz Jojo, Joey & michael yong. I also wanna thanks some fellow backstabbers (U know who U are: "WJ a must to mention" and others) whom taught me a lesson on trust. Aniways, I hope you guys continue aspiring and do what you do best now! Entertain!.. Cheers

Well, today funny thing happened, after 7 months, My ex suddenly msg me on msn and we talked. Though ii dun have that feeling for him anymore but it just feels wierd.. I felt even worse knowing he's still with his stead for 7 mth and loves him alot still (and his stead his way uglier than mi!!).. ii dunno... Makes me wonder what he's got that is so special? Guess ii must make myself a better man ba so next time i can treat my stead better and prove that i am a worthy and better man... Lessorn leant

I thought i found my Cinderella, But i little did i know that she has found her prince charming.. I got no choice but to walk away.. Goodbye love.

ii WiSh YoU OnLy KnEw ... Play, watch & listen..

This song is how i feel now.. i dont know.. Usually im not this unsure.. Im usually brave enuf to tell sumone i like him.. But dunno what has happend to me now.. Is it coz im scared? but what am i afraid of? theres sumthing inside holding me back.. Hate that feeling that when U like sumone but u're unsure whether he/she likes you back or not.. and ii have this very very low self esteem and confinence of myself.. And whether he/she is the right one for u and many other reasons.. I just wan to love that sumone (U if ure reading this), to take care of that person, be there when he needs me and be sumone he can rely and seek comfort with.. But alot of people dun appreciate this kindness and love and effort that i put in... should i give one more try to get him? or should ii just back out and be alone? Im not emo.. im just curious and it was on my thouht this morning... One day ii may just get married and have kids and spend the rest of my life with my wife, loving sumone till the day i die... but for now, ii want him! Only thing is ii dun think he may want me, at least ii dunno yet.. Well aniways if he dont like me, i'll just move on then, still needa make that big bucks for my future!! haha.. But ii really hope U'de like me too and give me the chance to get to know u better.. coz the day i met u was the day U captured my heart away and i'de do anything to get you.. aniways, yah here's my feelings and hope U read this...

if u know who you are.... i like you!!! and pls pls dun tell anyone about this k... !!!

Lost Muii HandPhone !!!

Saturday night I lost my Bleedy new phone!! OMG how could this happen?? II never lost Phone wan... as if.. ii somehow think one of my friends took it but how could he?? Coz, i was sitting at a food center with two of my friends, then my hp batt died and ii needed to make an urgent call, so i accidentally left my hp on the table (hoping my friends would look after it) and i borrow my friend HP to make a quick call outside the market coz to noisy.. I came back like two min later and found out my hp was gone!! Was so angry and annoyed! I search up and down but my bleedy friends just sit there and continue eating! they say they didnt notice aybe a passerby took it.. HOW could dat be??!!! No passerby will be so daring enuf to take right off sumone table lor.. Then the next day ii found out from another friend that my this friend (the one at the table) said that my bangs cover my forehead is bad luck and i deserve to lost the phone coz my father everytime buy me phones wan.. Walau!! what the hack my hair gotta do with my phone siia... and He took my phone twice liao lor the other time was sumwhere last year.. You see im such a GOOD and FORGIVING friend, i know you took my phone ii still keep quiet and still be ur good friend.. II know UU dun have much money and u confirm sell my phone de. Its not about the phone la but its the friendshp lor.. II help you so many times how could U do this to me TWICE!! U no $$ i always help you lor.. Im just upset with you now la.. but i think aftr sumtime i'll be ok le.. II just hope you change ur character lor.. I am ur BEST FRIEND lor and best friend DONT HURT EACH OTHER!! Pls mend ur way la.. and aniways, thats my new phone!! just got it 1 week ago nia.. but alas, I only have myself to blame for being soo careless. STUPID ME...

i think ii may fall in love again.. But ii dunno whether ii should go for it or stay my way of being ignorance to love and just enjoy freedom... help me.

my fav song.. play!!

Qian Li Zhi Wai... ii like this song very much.. hehe

Summore emoism of me

Will you forgive me??

When you left me..

Me and Barbie Vids... Play

Since i was in school, my friend keep asking me "Ken where is ur Barbie?"... SO, This vids is about me!!! and how Barbie dont deserve me!! haha i know its kind BHB... okok alot BHB but who cares... haha

Day out Bowling with muii friend.. Went to Marina Sq to bowl today.. my bowling skills has degraded so badly siia.. gotta puck up and be as pro as before.... chey!!.. But it was fun coz so long never bowl. Haha nothing much liaoz.. these few days quite free so keep going out with friends... gonna stay home this few days and sleep sleep sleep!!!

you need to take a chill pill and a small fries mister!

Another song for you.. Play watch and listen

Another meaningful song to me.. It was done by a vietnamese boy who lost sumone he really loves. Very toucing story and song.. haha emo again...

HIV test

Today ii got HIV test... Just a routine check and its free aniways.. was very scared to take leh dunno why just scared, not that i was naughty or sumtin but this kinda thing very scary to check wan summore have to take blood... then after that waited for the result.. waaa damm scary and excited siia, can feel my heart beating very fast and my hands trembling.. Aniways, I was super relieve when result show dat im NEGATIVE.. haha see the pic got only one line.. means negative.... haha

play, watch and listen... I love this song.. means alot to me

Hmmm its 2008 already!! I dont feel any diff frm last year.. Maybe not yet. New Year resolutions.. hmmm first, Make more money, second; make more money, third; make more money.. Then the rest of my resolutions will depends whether my first, second and third resolutions are achieve.. lol..

Anyways, New Year countdown party was fun at my friends place.. Loud music, fancy peoples, Nice drinks... Baileys irish cream my fav!! everyone was screaming when the fireworks started.. I dun understant why!! well, guess i dun fancy fireworks.. Didnt go clubbing instead i slept early.. Waiting for sumone to come back in the end that person never come back! I slept alone leh!! slaps! Aniways, I woke up damm late the next day dunno why.. Guess i was tired...

Nothing much happen this two days or so... so nth much to talk about... Oh ya.. I get so annoyed coz alot of ppl say im fat already!! i admit i do put on weight.. alot of weight..!! Dunno why lately i always very hungry, kept eating and eating and eating like pig! Maybe its puberty!

Xmas is coming!!!

So long i never update coz really got no time and was busy.. well not many things happened aniways so now im updating... hmmm.. been doing some christmast shopping... going BROKE soon.. Think i over spent on the xmas gifts.. haiz.... Fri nite my friends and me went to give out lollipops!!!! OMG.. so embarassing can!! but its the christmast spirit.. to paise so i woreshades to hide my face.. hehe... below picc os me and my best bud Andy!! his hair suxx to the max!! only ii can pull off with bangs!! hehe....

giving out lollopops for christmast!!

I wanna HUG you!!

this time of the year really reminds me of great memories i had... thinking bout it somehow made me smile then sad.. Smile coz ii found that someone this time of the year sad coz i lost that someone even before this time come.. It was very sweet memories.. That person stalked me for like 6 mth but i refused to go out with him.. He supprisingly mail to me a xmas present "a ring" and one very cute letter..**smile**... haha didnt even have a chance to spend christmast with him.. well, hope his christmast with his new stead will be very enjoyable for them.. I just wanna wish both you and your new stead a happy merry christmast and hope U guys can treasure each other and love each other even more esp during christmast!! cheers..

I made the choice to finally go because I can’t stand this pain. It’s time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again

When u Fall in love ~

I knoe its a bit too late... But this is for you.. Doesnt matter who u are.. Those whom i hurt before. and the one whom i loved before... Emo again.. no la.. just putting down things in my new blog... haha


Love fails when the heart fails to love.. But my heart has stopped beating, so how can it love again??

Summore new pic ~ more of my feelings and expression

If there is any possibilities or a glinch of hope, i would want....

See there is one problem, God create man with a brain and a penis, and also enough blood which can only goes to them one at a time..

ii so suay today!!

Today im so unlucky sia.. I fell down at my work place sia and injured my knee.. I walk into a corridoor where the workers went to polish the floor means that was oily.. as i entered the corridoor i didnt notice the floor so when i steppen in, i slipped and fell landed on one knee. The two bleedy workers can still laugh at me siia!! so angry.. then i scold them for not putting any signage there.. Stupid siia.. My knee hurts like shit now.. haizz.. then du lan so i watch Harry Potter order of pheonix DVD... haha My fav character is of course Dumbledor; "you may hate him, but U gotta admit, he got style!"

Fall down still can act cool "Peace!"

The arithmetic of love.. one plus one equals everything. Two minus one equals nothing..

St james on Sunday!!

Last night the whole bunch of us went to st james to celebrate the return of muii friend MIMI from New York.. we had such a crazy and fun times again.. waa its been 3 days straight i clubbed.. At stJames, we opened two bottles of absolut.. Siao! spend like nearly 800 bucks there.. kinda had to much to drink till get very high and drunk.. haha.. look at all the pics.. all the face KNS wan coz drink too much.. Its NOT make up wor its the drink! look like shit siia.. The black shirt one was at PLAY on sat.. haha.. DANCE like siao then muii hair all messy like shit.. haha


Do you love me Coz im cute or am I cute Coz you love me??

For those who wanna Love sumone.. Read this bitch !

This is what you should do if you really like sumone...

However.. Please please bear in mind this...

juz some pix i find well meant...

I dont Discriminate people... I just hate everyone

Day out at ViVo city!!

Went to ViVo city with a friend.. Catch a movie; Mr Megorian Magical Emporium.. Hmmm let see.. i slept half through the show... was damm boring and its for KIDS!! Today dunno why suddenly i gotta such a huge appetite.. ate so many things.. First we eat at Carl's Jr, some huge burger.. Then we went to Starbucks to drink.. After some walking then we eat again at Modesto.. Had a huge pasta which cost a BOMB 42 bucks a plate.. siao!! After that we went shopping.. bought a new shirt and a new pants... I also bought a new Perfume.. Hehe my new favourite scent; Clinique Happy for men.. haha.. AFter that went back liaoz... then Go out again with my friends to Bugis to shop again.. Siao!! spend alort siia today.. must save.. buying a new phone soon.. so must save!!

Sometimes you have to let go of someone to see if there’s anything there to hold on to

Bitches.. Get Out Of My Life la... parasite!

Cupid requires target practice for every time he shoots me, he hits me right between the eyes so that I am too blind to see

Party party party.. shake me baby!!

Friday night.. went party at PLAY.. was funnnn!! the whole bunch of us went crazy... hmmm let see.. there was me, Andy, Shawn, Shai, Wilson, Aiden, Wellness... bezerk man.. we had alot to drink, for what occasion, beats me.. We opened a bottle of tequila and dude we finished the whole bottle on neat.. Crazy!!. I was not dat drunk la but just abit high so sent totally crazy.. let see.. ii went to disturb few guys whom i also dunno.. not as in the flirting way coz i dun flirt pls juz dancing and dirrrty dancing lol! Crazy got three ppl take my number sia OMG feel so retarded.. We dance till like 3am plus. After that went to maxwell to eat. As usual me and Andy ate "Xiao Wok Mian"... reach back bout 4plus and went to sleep. Cant sleep well i dunno why. I woke up at bout 8am plus and did my blog.. PLANS for today.. SHOPPING!! i wanna go buy nw clothes at Heeren.. Skin and Ed Hardy is havin a sale below $100.. Ran out of new clothes to where.. hmmm who wanna bring me go shopping?? haha.. Maybe i'll party again tonite. cheers!

If i have a kid one day... I'll tell him U've got the cutest daddy! Ur moms just a bitch!

My reflections... Troubled

Been doin some reflections lately... so many things on my mind i need to let off. So many problems.. After much thinking, i realised that i dun have much problems coz most of it is just nothing and i've been thinking too much.... Firstly, I dunno how to tell my boss that i am turning down the job offer at New York. I am supposed to Fly to New York by this week or next to work there. well, I dont really wanna go coz 3 mth is too long being away frm home.. and its winter now and its bleedy freezing cold and i dont like cold places.. get sick easily. I was supposed to go there like few weeks ago but i procastinated till now.. I just couldnt find the right reason to tell him i dont wanna go to New York. Then another person wanna bring me to Alaska for christmast. WTH id rather go to Africa where it is hot and sunny. Im abit weird huh!!

Another problem is that i gotta look for a new job... since im not going to NY, i guess its better for me to leave the company and find new ones.. so difficult to find job lately since its december. So difficult to get a job also.. I only got A level siia its like noting lor.. haizz sad life.

Next problem is my Family shit.. I've not been going home for a long long time and soo many things happened at home.. One of my favourite pet parrot died!! I taught him to say "Help Help" and "Good Morning" now hes dead.. so poor thing.. Then my elder bro got into trouble and now i have to crack my brain to help him.. My mom keep nagging at me and force me to do things. how irritating!! let see.. she asked me to go back to school next year either NUS or SMU.. but i told her i wanna do private degree instead coz faster mah.. WTH, i really dun fell like studyin but bo bian.. Then shes sending me to take a drivers licence in jan coz she wants me to drive her to work every morning coz she tired of taking cab.. wth think im her chauffeur meh?... Sianz... dun feel like going home at all siia... everytime go home sure got things bother me sia... how?

Then comes my own problems.. for the past few month i've been thinking alot about me ex. Its so stupid la... I keep thinking and thinking but i just dont understand why am i still thinking about it. My friend asked me if he were to ask me back will i patch back with him.. Honestly i said no. Its coz i dun love him anymore.. He's not in my heart nemore. But why am i still bothered? well, i guess im just reminicing about the good times and touching times. and also times when i screwed up.. I just kept thinking why i screw up. why am i such a lousy lover. Why i cant make my relationship work. Its just the memory thats eating me up in the inside.. Well, i think its time i erased the memory from my mind and stop it from corrupting me any longer. Guess the counselling session from Agnes, my "gan mummy" works. xie xie ni mummy. I gotta move on with my life and never look back.. Looking back is poisoning to the mind. Aniways, i feel much better now after three long hour talk with her.. She asked me to find new stead, but i told her i wont.. If one comes then i'll just grab it and i'll make sure i wont screw up anymore.. in the mean time.. i need to focus on my work till i start school again.. Haiz life is so complicated!! Yet another valuable lesson learnt

Just a little of mood poisoning ..... must be something i hate..

Day out with Mummy....

Today i went out with my mum.. my real mom dat is not my gan mummy.. haha. Going out with my mom is always very boring coz she always shop for her things and spend hours and hours in just one shop.. Can you believe it, she spend two hours in a boutique looking at clothes and all are women clothes... how irritating!! Aniways, after that we went to courts shopping for new appliences for da new house... As usual, i always pester her to buy me things for my new room. Good thing she good mood so bought me alot of stuffs. So i gotta new Plasma Tv for my room, DVD player, mini refrigerator, wardrobe and a new queen size bed.. My younger bro got more stuffs la how irritating!! And she bought for him an MAC lappie!! I so jealous can!! Anyways, moving to my new house sumwhere in jurong on January.. So many things to pack. I havent done a singke packing yet and da woman makin alot of noise.. hehe also coz i seldom go home la stayin with my friends.. who ask her never gimme money.. if give me more money then i go home siia... hehe.. Aniways, Still am sick and i refused to go to the doc coz i hate visiting clinics.. Phobia..lol.. going back home to sleep!..

Good looking people turns me off!... myself included ....

Sick and Bored to death!!

I woke up at 3pm today.. Only got like few hours of sleep. Gotta meet sumone in town.. as usual i was late again.. Not my fault though coz i was sick.. Gotta fever and my head spinning. Been sick couple of days.. Dying soon i guess. Look at my sick face!!!

In town We went to watch movie: The golden compass.

The movie was interesing but kinda boring at the end coz it ended hanging meaning there will be like part two or sumtin.. hmmm Nicole Kidman damm Chio siia! But my fav character would be the Bear and witch... Damm cool!!! Hmmm next movie to watch.. Chipmunks!!

Just Need to express Myself... wrote this two mth ago.. juz wanna blog it.. kinda sentimental. means nothing much now actually

whether you read this or not is not important.. I just have to write this down hopefully you would read this. It doesnt matter whether u care or dont or whether it moved you or not..

Times I spent with you when we were a couple was the most memorable and most wonderful time i ever lived in my life. Though things went completely wrong in the end and it doesnt work out anymore, i still feel that you're the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me..

Remember the first day i met you?. I was two hours late and you waited for me.. But instead of being angry, U smiled at me the first thing when u saw me.. The second time I was an hour late and yet you still didnt get angry. I realise i was a big jerk in the past.. I kept hurting you. Keeping things from you and made you cry at times.

We always quarreled almost everyday but i know you loved me very much and i do love you very much as well. But like you said, its ok to quarrel alot coz alas we wont have anything to quarrel about anymore. I still remember every moment i spend with you. Im sorry i forgot to give you your birthday present. I remember during Valentines day? It was the most romantic ones i ever had. I like the CK summer u bought for me for my Bdae very much.. I still keep the bottle and the box which u drew a heart eventhough the perfume finished. I still kept your letter that you threw down your window saying that you're really sorry to yelled at me and you loved me very much.

I know im your first ever BF and the first ever to screw up BIG time.. Im really very very sorry. I was so stupid and childish then. I did so many things that pissed you off. Im sorry to hurt you badly. If there is only one wish i could get i would wish i could turn back time and change myself to the perfect man that you desired. Im really thankful for what you've done for me so far. I thank you also for leaving me coz it made me wake up from my slumber land.

I missed you so much.. Even though its been half a year i lost you, i still think of you everyday. I dont know why its so difficult to get you out of my head.. Yes u left me, But u didnt tell my heart how to live without you. Every now and then when i think of you and my stupid self, i would tear. It just hurts so badly living without you. even though i got attatched again to others, it just dont feel the same. No one treats me the way you did. I missed you biting me til i scream in pain, I missed arguing with U, i missed your kiss, I missed your hugs, I missed your care, I missed your perfect smile, I missed your sacarstic remarks. I really missed you alot.

I know i can never ever get you back. Not in this life and the next. After what i did i know i dont deserve anymore chance at all. And i gues you may be happier with your new bf.. You know what my plan is.. I will woo you back in three years time.. Why three years? Coz i gonna make it big by then. And also you will be older.. STupid huh.. But i hope after three year you would already forgive me.. hopefully you would forget me so i can date you as a new guy again.. well thats kinda stupid, but that really shows how much i love you and regret loosing you.

I shant write more. It just makes me wanna tear. U're the first one whom i teared for. Ure the first one whom i Waited under ur void deck from 11 in the morning to 10 at night just to say im sorry and i wanna u back. But it still dont work.. I guess u have closed ur heart for me.. I would do anything to get you back. Even if it takes me to cross rivers of fire and Thousands of mountains, I would.

My last words... Im really sorry to hurt you. Im really sorry to be the first ever trerrible stead of all mankind. Im sorry i did not try hard enough to keep you. Im sorry you lost your feelings for me. I love you alot and I will never ever hate you.. I hope you dont hate me as well. Well just for you to know, Im a changed person now. Im no longer the stupid naive childish boy you knew. Im pursuing my Double degree and im staying with My friends now. Im more independant compared to last time.. Haiz.. guess whatever i said makes no point now. Well, I hope youre much happier with him even though it really hurts to hear that. Its really sad to know that he makes you smile and laugh. I know i can be better than him now. I wish you both all the best and dont quarrel so much like we used to do.. Hope you both stay happy for a long long time. And if you dont, you knoe who to turn to huh..

I love you.

My haloween 31th oct 2007

This year my haloween was very exciting!! hmm let see.. I dressed up as an angel with my buddy Andy who was also an angel... but.. im the white angel kinda like the pure and good one andn Andy's the Dark angel.. Party was funn!! we went to several places to party kinda like party hopping. This year was the most memorable and funn-est haloween i ever had with my friends since my schooling days.. Heres some pic.. Aniways i kinda got tanner dat day coz in da noon went to sentosa and suntan da whole day with my galfriends.. hehe...

My haloween 31th oct 2007

My New Blog

HEy people.. this is my new blog.. anyways.. I'll start posting and i try put lesser picture then the previous blog.. Try to be less vain now la.. hehe.. aniways.. enjoy reading yah and do comment!! so yah, put some new pic first la..