Xmas is coming!!!

So long i never update coz really got no time and was busy.. well not many things happened aniways so now im updating... hmmm.. been doing some christmast shopping... going BROKE soon.. Think i over spent on the xmas gifts.. haiz.... Fri nite my friends and me went to give out lollipops!!!! OMG.. so embarassing can!! but its the christmast spirit.. to paise so i woreshades to hide my face.. hehe... below picc os me and my best bud Andy!! his hair suxx to the max!! only ii can pull off with bangs!! hehe....

giving out lollopops for christmast!!

I wanna HUG you!!

this time of the year really reminds me of great memories i had... thinking bout it somehow made me smile then sad.. Smile coz ii found that someone this time of the year sad coz i lost that someone even before this time come.. It was very sweet memories.. That person stalked me for like 6 mth but i refused to go out with him.. He supprisingly mail to me a xmas present "a ring" and one very cute letter..**smile**... haha didnt even have a chance to spend christmast with him.. well, hope his christmast with his new stead will be very enjoyable for them.. I just wanna wish both you and your new stead a happy merry christmast and hope U guys can treasure each other and love each other even more esp during christmast!! cheers..

I made the choice to finally go because I can’t stand this pain. It’s time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again

When u Fall in love ~

I knoe its a bit too late... But this is for you.. Doesnt matter who u are.. Those whom i hurt before. and the one whom i loved before... Emo again.. no la.. just putting down things in my new blog... haha


Love fails when the heart fails to love.. But my heart has stopped beating, so how can it love again??

Summore new pic ~ more of my feelings and expression

If there is any possibilities or a glinch of hope, i would want....

See there is one problem, God create man with a brain and a penis, and also enough blood which can only goes to them one at a time..

ii so suay today!!

Today im so unlucky sia.. I fell down at my work place sia and injured my knee.. I walk into a corridoor where the workers went to polish the floor means that was oily.. as i entered the corridoor i didnt notice the floor so when i steppen in, i slipped and fell landed on one knee. The two bleedy workers can still laugh at me siia!! so angry.. then i scold them for not putting any signage there.. Stupid siia.. My knee hurts like shit now.. haizz.. then du lan so i watch Harry Potter order of pheonix DVD... haha My fav character is of course Dumbledor; "you may hate him, but U gotta admit, he got style!"

Fall down still can act cool "Peace!"

The arithmetic of love.. one plus one equals everything. Two minus one equals nothing..

St james on Sunday!!

Last night the whole bunch of us went to st james to celebrate the return of muii friend MIMI from New York.. we had such a crazy and fun times again.. waa its been 3 days straight i clubbed.. At stJames, we opened two bottles of absolut.. Siao! spend like nearly 800 bucks there.. kinda had to much to drink till get very high and drunk.. haha.. look at all the pics.. all the face KNS wan coz drink too much.. Its NOT make up wor its the drink! look like shit siia.. The black shirt one was at PLAY on sat.. haha.. DANCE like siao then muii hair all messy like shit.. haha


Do you love me Coz im cute or am I cute Coz you love me??

For those who wanna Love sumone.. Read this bitch !

This is what you should do if you really like sumone...

However.. Please please bear in mind this...

juz some pix i find well meant...

I dont Discriminate people... I just hate everyone

Day out at ViVo city!!

Went to ViVo city with a friend.. Catch a movie; Mr Megorian Magical Emporium.. Hmmm let see.. i slept half through the show... was damm boring and its for KIDS!! Today dunno why suddenly i gotta such a huge appetite.. ate so many things.. First we eat at Carl's Jr, some huge burger.. Then we went to Starbucks to drink.. After some walking then we eat again at Modesto.. Had a huge pasta which cost a BOMB 42 bucks a plate.. siao!! After that we went shopping.. bought a new shirt and a new pants... I also bought a new Perfume.. Hehe my new favourite scent; Clinique Happy for men.. haha.. AFter that went back liaoz... then Go out again with my friends to Bugis to shop again.. Siao!! spend alort siia today.. must save.. buying a new phone soon.. so must save!!

Sometimes you have to let go of someone to see if there’s anything there to hold on to

Bitches.. Get Out Of My Life la... parasite!

Cupid requires target practice for every time he shoots me, he hits me right between the eyes so that I am too blind to see

Party party party.. shake me baby!!

Friday night.. went party at PLAY.. was funnnn!! the whole bunch of us went crazy... hmmm let see.. there was me, Andy, Shawn, Shai, Wilson, Aiden, Wellness... bezerk man.. we had alot to drink, for what occasion, beats me.. We opened a bottle of tequila and dude we finished the whole bottle on neat.. Crazy!!. I was not dat drunk la but just abit high so sent totally crazy.. let see.. ii went to disturb few guys whom i also dunno.. not as in the flirting way coz i dun flirt pls juz dancing and dirrrty dancing lol! Crazy got three ppl take my number sia OMG feel so retarded.. We dance till like 3am plus. After that went to maxwell to eat. As usual me and Andy ate "Xiao Wok Mian"... reach back bout 4plus and went to sleep. Cant sleep well i dunno why. I woke up at bout 8am plus and did my blog.. PLANS for today.. SHOPPING!! i wanna go buy nw clothes at Heeren.. Skin and Ed Hardy is havin a sale below $100.. Ran out of new clothes to where.. hmmm who wanna bring me go shopping?? haha.. Maybe i'll party again tonite. cheers!

If i have a kid one day... I'll tell him U've got the cutest daddy! Ur moms just a bitch!

My reflections... Troubled

Been doin some reflections lately... so many things on my mind i need to let off. So many problems.. After much thinking, i realised that i dun have much problems coz most of it is just nothing and i've been thinking too much.... Firstly, I dunno how to tell my boss that i am turning down the job offer at New York. I am supposed to Fly to New York by this week or next to work there. well, I dont really wanna go coz 3 mth is too long being away frm home.. and its winter now and its bleedy freezing cold and i dont like cold places.. get sick easily. I was supposed to go there like few weeks ago but i procastinated till now.. I just couldnt find the right reason to tell him i dont wanna go to New York. Then another person wanna bring me to Alaska for christmast. WTH id rather go to Africa where it is hot and sunny. Im abit weird huh!!

Another problem is that i gotta look for a new job... since im not going to NY, i guess its better for me to leave the company and find new ones.. so difficult to find job lately since its december. So difficult to get a job also.. I only got A level siia its like noting lor.. haizz sad life.

Next problem is my Family shit.. I've not been going home for a long long time and soo many things happened at home.. One of my favourite pet parrot died!! I taught him to say "Help Help" and "Good Morning" now hes dead.. so poor thing.. Then my elder bro got into trouble and now i have to crack my brain to help him.. My mom keep nagging at me and force me to do things. how irritating!! let see.. she asked me to go back to school next year either NUS or SMU.. but i told her i wanna do private degree instead coz faster mah.. WTH, i really dun fell like studyin but bo bian.. Then shes sending me to take a drivers licence in jan coz she wants me to drive her to work every morning coz she tired of taking cab.. wth think im her chauffeur meh?... Sianz... dun feel like going home at all siia... everytime go home sure got things bother me sia... how?

Then comes my own problems.. for the past few month i've been thinking alot about me ex. Its so stupid la... I keep thinking and thinking but i just dont understand why am i still thinking about it. My friend asked me if he were to ask me back will i patch back with him.. Honestly i said no. Its coz i dun love him anymore.. He's not in my heart nemore. But why am i still bothered? well, i guess im just reminicing about the good times and touching times. and also times when i screwed up.. I just kept thinking why i screw up. why am i such a lousy lover. Why i cant make my relationship work. Its just the memory thats eating me up in the inside.. Well, i think its time i erased the memory from my mind and stop it from corrupting me any longer. Guess the counselling session from Agnes, my "gan mummy" works. xie xie ni mummy. I gotta move on with my life and never look back.. Looking back is poisoning to the mind. Aniways, i feel much better now after three long hour talk with her.. She asked me to find new stead, but i told her i wont.. If one comes then i'll just grab it and i'll make sure i wont screw up anymore.. in the mean time.. i need to focus on my work till i start school again.. Haiz life is so complicated!! Yet another valuable lesson learnt

Just a little of mood poisoning ..... must be something i hate..

Day out with Mummy....

Today i went out with my mum.. my real mom dat is not my gan mummy.. haha. Going out with my mom is always very boring coz she always shop for her things and spend hours and hours in just one shop.. Can you believe it, she spend two hours in a boutique looking at clothes and all are women clothes... how irritating!! Aniways, after that we went to courts shopping for new appliences for da new house... As usual, i always pester her to buy me things for my new room. Good thing she good mood so bought me alot of stuffs. So i gotta new Plasma Tv for my room, DVD player, mini refrigerator, wardrobe and a new queen size bed.. My younger bro got more stuffs la how irritating!! And she bought for him an MAC lappie!! I so jealous can!! Anyways, moving to my new house sumwhere in jurong on January.. So many things to pack. I havent done a singke packing yet and da woman makin alot of noise.. hehe also coz i seldom go home la stayin with my friends.. who ask her never gimme money.. if give me more money then i go home siia... hehe.. Aniways, Still am sick and i refused to go to the doc coz i hate visiting clinics.. Phobia..lol.. going back home to sleep!..

Good looking people turns me off!... myself included ....

Sick and Bored to death!!

I woke up at 3pm today.. Only got like few hours of sleep. Gotta meet sumone in town.. as usual i was late again.. Not my fault though coz i was sick.. Gotta fever and my head spinning. Been sick couple of days.. Dying soon i guess. Look at my sick face!!!

In town We went to watch movie: The golden compass.

The movie was interesing but kinda boring at the end coz it ended hanging meaning there will be like part two or sumtin.. hmmm Nicole Kidman damm Chio siia! But my fav character would be the Bear and witch... Damm cool!!! Hmmm next movie to watch.. Chipmunks!!

Just Need to express Myself... wrote this two mth ago.. juz wanna blog it.. kinda sentimental. means nothing much now actually

whether you read this or not is not important.. I just have to write this down hopefully you would read this. It doesnt matter whether u care or dont or whether it moved you or not..

Times I spent with you when we were a couple was the most memorable and most wonderful time i ever lived in my life. Though things went completely wrong in the end and it doesnt work out anymore, i still feel that you're the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me..

Remember the first day i met you?. I was two hours late and you waited for me.. But instead of being angry, U smiled at me the first thing when u saw me.. The second time I was an hour late and yet you still didnt get angry. I realise i was a big jerk in the past.. I kept hurting you. Keeping things from you and made you cry at times.

We always quarreled almost everyday but i know you loved me very much and i do love you very much as well. But like you said, its ok to quarrel alot coz alas we wont have anything to quarrel about anymore. I still remember every moment i spend with you. Im sorry i forgot to give you your birthday present. I remember during Valentines day? It was the most romantic ones i ever had. I like the CK summer u bought for me for my Bdae very much.. I still keep the bottle and the box which u drew a heart eventhough the perfume finished. I still kept your letter that you threw down your window saying that you're really sorry to yelled at me and you loved me very much.

I know im your first ever BF and the first ever to screw up BIG time.. Im really very very sorry. I was so stupid and childish then. I did so many things that pissed you off. Im sorry to hurt you badly. If there is only one wish i could get i would wish i could turn back time and change myself to the perfect man that you desired. Im really thankful for what you've done for me so far. I thank you also for leaving me coz it made me wake up from my slumber land.

I missed you so much.. Even though its been half a year i lost you, i still think of you everyday. I dont know why its so difficult to get you out of my head.. Yes u left me, But u didnt tell my heart how to live without you. Every now and then when i think of you and my stupid self, i would tear. It just hurts so badly living without you. even though i got attatched again to others, it just dont feel the same. No one treats me the way you did. I missed you biting me til i scream in pain, I missed arguing with U, i missed your kiss, I missed your hugs, I missed your care, I missed your perfect smile, I missed your sacarstic remarks. I really missed you alot.

I know i can never ever get you back. Not in this life and the next. After what i did i know i dont deserve anymore chance at all. And i gues you may be happier with your new bf.. You know what my plan is.. I will woo you back in three years time.. Why three years? Coz i gonna make it big by then. And also you will be older.. STupid huh.. But i hope after three year you would already forgive me.. hopefully you would forget me so i can date you as a new guy again.. well thats kinda stupid, but that really shows how much i love you and regret loosing you.

I shant write more. It just makes me wanna tear. U're the first one whom i teared for. Ure the first one whom i Waited under ur void deck from 11 in the morning to 10 at night just to say im sorry and i wanna u back. But it still dont work.. I guess u have closed ur heart for me.. I would do anything to get you back. Even if it takes me to cross rivers of fire and Thousands of mountains, I would.

My last words... Im really sorry to hurt you. Im really sorry to be the first ever trerrible stead of all mankind. Im sorry i did not try hard enough to keep you. Im sorry you lost your feelings for me. I love you alot and I will never ever hate you.. I hope you dont hate me as well. Well just for you to know, Im a changed person now. Im no longer the stupid naive childish boy you knew. Im pursuing my Double degree and im staying with My friends now. Im more independant compared to last time.. Haiz.. guess whatever i said makes no point now. Well, I hope youre much happier with him even though it really hurts to hear that. Its really sad to know that he makes you smile and laugh. I know i can be better than him now. I wish you both all the best and dont quarrel so much like we used to do.. Hope you both stay happy for a long long time. And if you dont, you knoe who to turn to huh..

I love you.

My haloween 31th oct 2007

This year my haloween was very exciting!! hmm let see.. I dressed up as an angel with my buddy Andy who was also an angel... but.. im the white angel kinda like the pure and good one andn Andy's the Dark angel.. Party was funn!! we went to several places to party kinda like party hopping. This year was the most memorable and funn-est haloween i ever had with my friends since my schooling days.. Heres some pic.. Aniways i kinda got tanner dat day coz in da noon went to sentosa and suntan da whole day with my galfriends.. hehe...

My haloween 31th oct 2007

My New Blog

HEy people.. this is my new blog.. anyways.. I'll start posting and i try put lesser picture then the previous blog.. Try to be less vain now la.. hehe.. aniways.. enjoy reading yah and do comment!! so yah, put some new pic first la..