OMG pimple breakouts!! HELP

so Pissed off!!! Pimples start to break out al over my fucking hot face!! lol.. So irritating two bleedy huge pimples smack on both my cheeks! so balance summore same spot on both side... Fucking CB sia!! i damm bleedy hate pimples... Those who laugh at it i tell you will sure get even worse one!!! Hope the pimple will get better by sat sia.. at least if better put concealer still cant see... haiz.. so suay my life!!!

OMG pimple breakouts!! HELP

My new house...

Ytd go my new house to do some work there... hmmm.. one more week to move in.. to my supprise the house is still in a mess! the upper floor is ready, not to my satisfaction however.. but the first floor is still crap. Hope the stupid contractor finish the work in time... Oh shit, i still havent buy my furniture yet!! Got really no time to get it.. Maybe on Thu then get hopefully they can send by fri sia!! Hmmm.. Oh ya.. take a look at my Mums Da'Vinci Chandellier cost a freakin 8 grand!! Stupid woman go waste money on suck a fuckingtard stuffs and I HATE MY ROOM! so small can.. cant fit the queen size bed so must stick to single! fucktard sia.. kaoz ii really got no time to do my room!! how how how?? moving in on sat which i will not be around as well... grrr why so many things clash at one time!!!

LOVE, n. A temporary insanity curable by marriage or by removal of the patient from the influences under which he incurred the disorder... It is sometimes fatal, but more frequently to the physician than to the patient."- Ambrose Bierce, The Devil's Dictionary, 1911

OMFG!!! (oh my fucktard god!).... Just found my school pic!! Ugly days!

Was cleaning my room last nite coz wanna move hse already... then found my JC class photo... So fucking farktard can!!! its like 4 years ago la!! haha ii was sooo nerdy back then!! anyways not nerdy la still cool and CUTE! but the day we took the pic was the wrong day. Its right after PE la can!! so me and some boys went to bathe then hair all messy messy like KUKU liddat.. Try and find me lor.. keke. Hmmm The Older teacher is my HT (Home Tutor) Ms Amy Lee, she teaches GP which is dammmm fucking BORING and we called her ugly fucking witch! The younger teacher is our (AHT)shit forger her name, she taught us Economics.. shes da best ever!! Cant remember some of their names liao.. Look at the boys.. hint hint.. majority are GAYS!! freaking fucktard!! and a few Lesbies.. normal we all come frm all boys or all girls sec sch!!

Aniways.. Miss my school and classmates soo much!!! Shit this reminds me... im getting older sia!!

Whatever... CJC Rawks!!!... yeah as if..

Everybody Dance to my LOVE.....

Most people say LOVE is like a song... But to me, Love is like a dance.. There is always a hidden meaning behind it...Everymove has different enigma to what love incorporates.. Love is like a rhytm in the dance... The music and dance must coincide and syncronize in order for it to work.. The music should not ovecast the dance.. and the dance should not overcast the song.. Same way for love.. Love is never unconditional.. But whatever shit is... I love you!

Dont say me EMO... im NOT!!!!

Life has been better..

Falling in love is sooo scary...

Sumtimes the best way not to get hurt is not to get into it.... Just be a lonely fucktard sit one corner and dun have to worry about heart break....
But its still best to fall in love and enjoy happiness...

p.s. I LOVE YOU.....

Fri Nite.. Drunk Girls and boys!!!

Eve went walk walk with Fiona at Chinatown.. She wanted to buy the bag im using the "Agnes B" bag but unfortunately the shop closed already.. so bo bian still early so go walk around then go to play to get a chop. Clubbin at first was bit boring so decided to drink... keke Introduce Fiona and Yongan a new Drink, they say very nice but in the end both drunk like "drunken prawns".. Can u imagine one person "me" taking care or two drunken fellow... Both keep swaying and falling down.. haha.. Bring both back to my home and sleep coz both like cannot walk so must carry them.. Aiyo so heavy can!! LOL u dun wanna know what nonsense happen when they were drunk... I can laugh my arse off!!! hehe... Aniways, i didnt drink much... how to... if not who take care them... bla bla bla... My friends didnt came clubbing again.. Pangseh no.2. Andy go to KL with his BF.. Ash just got his wisdom tooth pulled so fever.. Shawn K went "club-dating" so dao me... Kitty with his new FAT BF also dao me also *piak*.. Noris also didnt come... Haha but atleast i can enjoy without them..

No pic of U this vids reminds me of U.. bla bla Valentines Day!

Watch this vids.. Stop the imeem player and play this vid and watch... nice song too..
Remember how i always say you look exactly like Rain?? Keke and how much you hate it coz i called u "my Rain" but u hated him.. keke and coz of dat u dun let me take ur pic... so ii dun have any of ur pic when we're together.. i was glancing thru my vids and i stumbled upon this one.. It realy reminds me of you.. Well.. haha hope u dun see this if not u sure curse me like hell.... haha.. reminising only..

Valentines day!!

hmm... noting much... After work, went to town to pick up cake i bought at swensens then went to Taka to give it to Adrian (his Bdae).. Bought the 1kg Black forest ice cream cake.. Hmm also gave him Bdae present i bought few days b4.. lol a wallet from Topman.. I dunno to me it look nice and i like it very much.. hopes he like it too ba.. also gave him Centrum Supplement (not bdae gift!) Coz dat time he complain cant sleep and pimples.. The supplements can help sleep better and good for the skin... Hope he take it daily very ex leh!!.. keke.. Give him all the things at Taka then i go off le... dun wan stay long long.. Went walking alone awhile then bought a Vday cake frm Swensens... really emo emo de... im narssistic nia lol. And once again... im BROKE! haiz...

My Quotes For Valentines Day..

This year Valentines Day means nothing to me... I dunno... I just wanna be alone on this day.. I just wanna go to the place we went last year and sit there all by myself, maybe i'll smile, maybe i'll cry but it doesnt matter coz im alone.. Today could be our second Vday, but i cant stop forgiving myself for loosing you... And I thought i had fallen in love again, but was dissappointed again.. I know myself, who would ever wanna love me.. Just one look at me and its written all over my face "Utter Failure".. Well, thats what it would be, I just wanna be alone.. I am happy, very happy though, but whats th point of being happy if you cant share that hapiness with sumone.. Why ppl just take me for granted.. Why ppl just want me for my money, for my body but not for my heart?? Maybe im just like one of the preety face toy people play with then throw. Well, this are all the quotes i could think off today.... :

"A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried."

"Forget The Times You Walked By, Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry, Forget The Time You Held My Hand, Forget The Sweet Things If I Can, I Can No Longer Pretend, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend"

"When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have"

"How Can You Be Friends With Someone If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes You Want Them Even More?"

"Even when I pour my heart out to you, I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know."

"I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever."

"I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me."

"There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you."

"The part that hurts me the most, is knowing that I once had you and then lost you..."

"The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned."

"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do."

"How do you heal a broken heart? I have no idea where to start because everything I do reminds me of you. "

"Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and you can never have them?"

"I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last."

"There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ... "

Sore EYE!

Woke up damm late today and have sore eye.. zharks!! hate it now i must wear specs out so unglam can! Left my office early coz have to head down to PLAY at 5 coz having the audition for Beauty pageant called Singapore Miss Universe.... I was one of the audition judges la get to ask questions to all the bimbos!! I didnt know Singaporeans are soo dumb blonde and dead shit bimbo!! OMG the answer they gave u can really make u either wanna laugh or wanna give a thight slap across their face.. Finish at ard 10pm.. Cant find a cab so took bus home.. Bus journey was sooooo long so use my comp in the bus and chat...keke not so boring after all.. Reach home, was too tired then ZzZzZz....

keke pic taken in bus... the upper deck totally no ppl wan.. haha

Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?"

OMG.. Im officially broke!!

Gosh.. im officially broke as of today untill two more weeks to come... Keep spending and spending didnt realise my pocket hole getting bigger.. Then Ytd i go pay my school fee which is like almost all of what i had left this mth.. Hiaz.. now i stress again got no money.. bla bla bla.. ii wan ask my mother money scared later she make noise ar then i dulan so might as well dont ask. hmmm.. think i'll go on budget this and next week first nia... Haizz...
Other than that nothing much happened...bored bored bored... maybe i'll go and sing... lol

Sat and Sun nonsense!!

Sat..
Nth much.. Woke up late coz previous nite didnt have enuf sleep... Went to PLAY at nite.. All my friends didnt club but i have to go down to settle some event thingy with the boss at PLAY.. SO one of my friend, Noris follow me to PLAY.. Was alone.. met Jojo inside.. wasnt feeling good as usual emo emo again.. need to drink.. Then come a girl called Fiona, she drank with me.. I bought her like 4 tequila shots and 2 abscene red then she got drunk.. haha. also get to know YongAn, got him drink as well.. kinda nice guy... I was Supprised... saw my ex Boss Xandra inside... OMG that bitch is a Lesbie!! haha got her drinks as well... I drank rather alot.. wanted to breakdown and cry, but huggie sumone make me feel better.. Haixxx.. After clubbin, Fiona, YongAn and another girl come sleep at my hse... We left at 2pm plus and i went to see my new Hse in Jurong..

Sun...
Hmmm, went to see my new hse in jurong... Kinda not happy with the situation there...
Hmm let see, The stupid wooden ledge on the stair came off.. the constructor havent fix properly yet.. i nearly fell down the stupid stairs.. Went to see my bedroom.. so bleedy small can.. My parents room damm big la summore got nice view.. My room sux! then after that went to Changi meet my "mummy"... Went to drink and eat seafood with her... she stress nia old liao lor dats why stress... Then at 12 midnite met BenBen and we go watch movie at Cathay.. watch Ah Long Pte Ltd.... So funny yet stupid show... reach home about 3 plus then sleep le very tired... Haiz..

Dont Blame me for ignoring you... its not me... remember, you pushed me away... ii tried... maybe ii should stop trying... U dont have me in ur mind...

Today woke up at 6am to prepare for the CNY concert.. Damm not enuf sleep and bad Hangover frm last nite crap.... Slept at 4.30am and wake up at 6!! only 1 half hour nia... My head spinning like shit.. Prepare all my crap and The bus picked me up at 7.. Had headache the whole day... Reach home at 3pm then went back to sleep till 7.. Then wake up go meet my friends.. Sooo tired still.. Haiz.. nth much to talk.. Aniways, gonna meet my friends now in town.
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ii just wanna sit alone in the corner.. Whats the point of having luxury, money and everything. Having everything without U is like having nothing..



I still miss you alot... Let time erode everything away, im tired... Sick of crying, Tired of trying, Yes im smiling, But inside im dying .....

Break down.....

Trippin Last nite... Went out with some friends, i wished i didnt... Intented to watch movie but i didnt went to St James instead... Ard 9pm ii received a phone call... Received the biggest shocking news of my life.. i made the wrong move on Stock Market and it came crashing down and i had a major loss.. my faced changed.. was not in the mood... No one noticed guess ii was rather "invinsible".. Left them and went to play pool alone.. Had 4 rounds... the fastest rounds i completed.. Lost and distraught.. I went to Balcony Bar to drink alone.. Had a long island tea, Waterfall and flamin lamborghini.. sit down alone... kinda seh already.. I called my "gor gor" and cry on the phone.. which ii only do when im drunk la... I called my best friend Andy also.. He ask me to go St James find him.. So i went to St james.. Met my "real" friends Andy, Ash and Shawn.. Bought more drinks... They dont let me drink flamming so sua lor i bought 8 jugs and drink all.. was damm seh.. I started to break down again...cried and cried... All my shares gone just liddat.. and "Sumone" dont even care... My friends gave me a good lecture.. He say " see la, spend money on boys only let them take advantage on U.. When ur down, they just leave liddat and dont care!.." I realised le ii made that big mistake to to put all my hope and money on sumonelse when ii know its just no returns.. U led me on and then leave me in the lurch.. Thanks alot.. i shouldnt be so blind and stupid.. I learnt my lesson now.. I tot of leaving the country, But my friends persuade me to stay and dont run away.. Yes ii will stay coz of my friends.. But i swear i wont be the same person... I regret everything i did.. Gonna start on new shares again...

Dont blame me for ignoring you..... remember, ur the one who pushed me away... Though its hurting and dissappointed, another lesson learnt.

Eve of CNY

Eve of CNY went for Dinner.. Nothing exciting bout it.. Everyone was gossipping and blabbing nonsense.. After that ii go and set up the alter for prayers coz later at 11.30 praying the fortune god and Rat deity" he came out in the pic i took beside the joss stick!" See properly then can see.. Haha and ii also kana force to wear the red guy's cheong sam thingy....so RED can! Then at 11.30 start praying le... keke Ask for soo many things siia hope the god wont du lan with me... haha Finish the praying at bout 12.30 liddat then i go meet my friends and we went clubbing.. haha I cant sleep nia so dunno wad to do then club lor... haha then went home and morning go grandma house.. sianz...

see i set up the table nice nice de hor... haha
See the last pic beside the joss stick my auntie say its the rat deity!! ii also dunno look like wad... ii think im the one looking like rat!

Tuesday BuzZzZz

Today ii woke up damm late! wake up at 2pm... didnt go school.. 5pm went to Office awhile then went down to town to meet a client at cine.. After that ii went to Heeren to get fedora hat for Adrian.. didnt know dat kinda hat would cost a bomb... lol... Haiz... I spend too much on CNY le. Spend almost all my money le.. i didnt realise it untill i checked my account balance.. haha Scary!! Try beg my mom for money hope she give me big big hong bao!! After town ii went to gym near my office ther.. Want to build my bods nice nice de.. Gymmed from 8 pm till 11.30pm de... so lei can.. Gonna go swimming tomorrow morning too!! Then went to my office slack slack then ii went to meet muii ex settle some of his prob.. reach home ard 4 plus de... haiz... gonna wake up at 9 to swim.. See below my pic ii take at the gym... nice bods rite?? LOL. Below also the pic of the fedora hat.. Hope he likes it....

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If ur bl0od cud save me,i'd asked for onLy 1 dr0p. If ur air cud save me,i'd asked for onLy 1 breath. But if ur tears cud save me..i'd rather die .. than to see you CRY ..

Sunday Madness

ii Woke up very late today at 7pm.. Supposed to go for rehearsal coz i need to teach dance for my dancers doing show on CNY.. Something so important ii can overslept.. Short of a dancer coz not enuf guys to dance.. So i called Liliang.. Met Liliang at 9pm at Tg pagar Mrt then we went to Lau Pa Sat to eat coz all the people late!! After that went to my studio for rehearsal.. Was kinda angry coz Few of my dancers didnt turn up.. "hello!! ii pay you people to come rehearsal as well!!".. My best bud Andy also didnt turn up.. Such an attitude im so dissappointed. Aniways, I had a hard time teaching them especially Liliang catch very slow i have to repeat and repeat over and over again... The rest was rather ok.. I still need to call Tommy to come for rehearsal on Monday.. ii hope they do a good show coz its a big officia event with ministers.. hope they enjoy on CNY also...! Sorry to my friends Ashley, Shawn and another gerl ii put u guys on aeroplane coz didnt go St James with ya'll. was to tired lor. Sorry U guys dun angry wif me hor!!!

Fri and Saturday...

Friday...
Cant remember what ii did on friday.. hmmm... well, nothing to write bout friday another mundane day... well at night went to tonn at my friend house coz my friend sick so ii take care him lor.. he cannort sleep so ii accompany him chat till morning... didnt sleep the whole nite only like one hour nia...

Saturday....
Went home ard 3plus in the afternoon then went to take a nap awhile... Then meet Adrian at 7pm and watch movie.. Watch some stupid movie called "Sweeny Tods".. Its a Thriller, Murder plus Musical movie.. It was damm boring to the max and so many singings! Despite that, got the man slit and cut off people throat wan and soo many blood come out frm it... aiyo... I closed my eyes damm tite everytime he slit the throat.. I got hemophobia nia.. "Fear of blood coming out frm human body" ii nearly puked... After movie went to PS TCC there.. ii dun wan eat anitin ther coz ii dun like the food there not nice wan... Then we went to maxwell i feel hungry... went to eat, which ii shouldnt coz i got drunk later and i puked.. grose!! Went to play but Adrian dun wan go.. Tot ii wan bring him in but he dun wan and he say he wan stay alone outside... Feel soo bad leaving him outside alone.. coz the place is many ppl drunk wan scared anitin happen to him nia.. Inside play keep worrying for him.. msged him few times but no reply le guess hes with friends already ba.. Inside PLAY, my stupid friends keep forcing me and buying me drinks... they make me drink like so many flamming drinks till my throat burns like hell... then ii quarreled with sumone, some idiot.. spoil my mood.. Went to maxwell, then went up tp my studio take my bag, coz ii put my bag there earlier, then take cab go home sleep... ZzZzZz. Angry!