Out of the hatenes!!

so this few bucnch are among my favourite sudent.. not that im being biased la but really these bunch are not the typical china people.. though their physical aspects still the same.. but attitude and charater wise different. they treat me with respect and we had fun times together.. all the rest either so rude, attitude problem(think they very smart) and CB face! but ground point is kenny = anti MIC. Im just being plastic to them.. all of them.. dey so disgusting can.. can you imagine the girls, can say look abit preety la wear speghetti top then armpit never shave got alot hair wan.. aiyer.. super turn off!! lol...

lol today i wake damm late so didnt have time to put on contact lens and style hair.. lol damm fugly can!!.. i really need to cut my hair.!!!

The decent ME!

been really good at work this few days coz kana warning from boss liao.. lol suddenly become decent liao dunno why... havent been meeting anyone lately... After work is either i go town to walk alone or sit alone at starbucks to study or do work... or sumtimes go home and stay in my room till the next morning then to work.. kinda boring la but wad to do no one pei me out sia!!! my friends will only start calling me on weekends for clubbing.. "main motive is to ask me bring them inside play so they dun need pay".. well may not go clubbing for the month or so la see how long i can stand witout clubbing coz very bored la and i spend so much money there... Only go if there is show la at least can earn bucks there.. now dun look down on me juz because i #####(u know what la ok).. i earn 200 bucks for 3 minutes only can!!! haiz... i need a hair cut also.. my hair very long liao!!

haiz shoooo bored shooo lonely... got parents like no parents liddat.. got siblings like no siblings liddat. got friends like no friends liddat.. got love like no love liddat. When i need sumone, no one come to me all stay far far away frm me... when i dun need anyone, everyone come to me.. sumtimes i sit by the NTU park alone enjoying the serenity of nature.. suddenly my loneliness dissappear coz the wind and the birds and the plants befriend me.. i can feel them soothing me, calming my soul and telling me that loneliness is just in the mind.. wonders of nature.. but inevitably, i will break down in tears reminicing my dreadful misery. this is where life itself hands me a lemon.. what do i do with it??

Reflections 3

Im not proud of myself and my life. People think of me highly but i feel im just a useless person. Everyone look at me as a different person. All dont look at me as KENNY but sumone else. (U know who la) and sumtimes i feel so ashamed of it. But sumtimes I feel good. Its just a mix feelings that always urge me to quit but then alas i cant coz i dont wanna loose the good feeling. Im born to do it. Im born to entertain. However, Right now i have a new meaning for entertaining, im gonna do something different. Well, firstly, i already joined an entertainment company and they are sending me to a Music and entertainment school.. Im gonna study and trained as an event host and a singer. I can sing la but still not good / professional yet so i will be trained by a vocal coach for 4 mth and after getting the Cert/Diploma i will have alot of singing jobs.. lol. But the main priority is hosting. I hope after this course i will be more professional and hopefully will have a chance to come out on TV.. So thats my dream now, to be amongs the TV stars. Well, its only a dream la but i already have the stepping stone for it. Gosh. I really wanna make it big this time. I just wanna feel it. I dunno maybe i think too much la.. but who cares its my dream! not happy with it U can just go fcuk a horny spider!!
BUT this is just my sideline job and i still need to focus on my fulltime job...

Reflections 2

Been reading some inspirational books and some blogs which enlightens me a bit. Did alot of wrong things and bad things lately. I learned a huge lesson never make a deal with a devil or he price paid will be huge. Kinda ashamed of myself, seeking a supernatural being for rewards and giving promises in return which i know i could never fulfill. Im not gonna emphasize on what it is coz its very scary. U may choose to believe it or not coz im just penning down my experience. My friend already warn me not to do it but stubborn me dont listen. Well, karma bites back and its done and over with. Coz of that, I nearly lost my job and now my boss is placing me under a month probation for no reason, I quarreled big time with my parents and brothers and now all of them not talking to me!, I nearly lost sumone i really love, My credit card application suddenly got decline after i got my card already(how funny!). Its a huge loss but what is important to me now is i still have sumone i love. Lesson learnt.

Been thinking about my life also... I wonder what i should do with my life! Im no longer a kid and I dun have NS anymore. Im not like those youngsters still waiting for NS can dun care about their life. My life started rite after NS but where am i now? I have big dreams but im not living it. I know i can reach my dreams coz since young whatever i aimed for i will get there. Like when I aimed for straight As for my 'O' levels, I did got it (except maths which i suck at got C6). Struggled abit in JC but i worked very hard to pass my A level. (i got one A ok not bad!!! the rest ahem). Even when i was working part time since sec 2 in a Fast Food restn, i worked hard and by age of 18, i was already a manager. But after JC suddenly my life change. I become more lazy sia.. I dont wanna study anymore and resort to taking private sch. Work also i play play and kana fired twice now almost the third time. I keep depending on Shows to make money. Theres a point of time i never work at all just shows everyday for a year or two. My financial is always not stable, sumtimes i can have loads of money can buy so many things and sumtimes im flat broke. I wanna more stable income, i wanna earn more than my parents. They are fcuking rich but stinking stingy can!!
Now that i gotta job, i must not lack again sia.. i must really prove myself this one mth. coz after my confirmation then i will be a confirmed fulltime lecturer and will earn big bucks. gosh, and my MBA!! its near April and i havent even do anything about it! i really need to wake up from the dream land and come back to reality! SINGAPORE!.. u no education, u cannot go anywhere, i realize that..

Stress

Been very busy lately.. sooo long didnt update my blog.. Haiz so many things to rush nowadays from work to projects to other stuffs.. Been kinda thinking so much lately so stress!! I got alot of problems.. I dunno what... I took MC again yesterday coz too tired then this morning i went to work in the afternoon coz last nite i tonned outside.. hmmm.. really very tired.. i think mu boss wants to fire me already but then he wont do it directly.. I thinks he wants to drive me out of the company and quit. Haiz.. this morning i received a very supprising SMS frm my Director.. he said "Think u need more time 2 rest. U just come from 1:30 - 5:30pm with effect frm 2day. Mr Toh will take over ur mornin classes" . gosh wad does dat means... its like half of my day gone.. i dunno whether he is paying me half day pay also?? if he pays me half day pay then i die already then i cannot survive liao with half pay.. gosh!! wad should i do?? desperately searching for another job now.. this time i think is real.. haiz.. OMFG!! now i try to talk to him try and beg him not to cut my pay in half.. if cannot then i find another job and MIA frm this job serve them right.. once again i emphasise I HATE CHINA PEOPLE!!! BLEEDY BACKSTABBERS WHO LOOK DOWN ON SINGAPOREAN ... they deserves to be a fulltime whore leech on old uncles here in singapore they dont deserve any place here! shoo shoo!! go back to ur stinking country! KENNY = ANTI MIC .. anyone that comes frm there please i advise u to stay the hell away from me!!

Dance show at Grand Copthorne Hotel.

Hmmm, ytd did a show at a Hotel Ballroom, Kinda huge but not excitin enuf.. hmmm, Did few dance item with Jojo so tiring can the song nonstop.. stupid me mix the song untill so long!! Hmmm its been so long since i got out of my heels and Delmontes and be a Male dancer.. think about a year or two...Really missed dancing alot and i would love to do it again... and its hassle free no make up as well!! haha!! Its was crazy.. me and my crazy ideas.. lol... did a nonstop 8 min medly which halfway i was out of breath but still continue with full of energy.. Jojo!! you halfway then no energy liao!! lol see la in camp BJ too much dun wan to run dats why no stamina.. lol.. Proud of Jojo as well, this his first or second time did male dancer and did very well also!! Next time need male dancer can call u liao.. can call u Diva Dancer lol... Wellness as usual did her eye catching enthics and kana sabo by the emcee lol.. should see he expression on stage... so lost! lol.. Aniways good payment also so today can pay my hp bill finish hundred plus sia!!

White angels!! so sexy Shanghai night

All these are the wuliao moment when we were waiting for out second item which was 2 hour interval..

Shoe lace.

I forgot to tie my shoe lace the previous time and when it walk i kept trippin and then i fall.. it doesnt hurt that much as before coz im used to the pain... Now that i got up again, im gonna tie my shoelace double knot coz i dont wanna fall anymore..

New Quotes for the week.. EMOING!!

Things will never be the same again... tired of love politics. Sick of passion entics, i'll return to my monotonous way of life...

"And 'll take this broken heart, and go somewhere else, and try to put it back together,but just so you know,
My heart will NEVER be the same again. "

"Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels"


"Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?"


"Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions"


"Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in? "

"You expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong.While you're inciting others.You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone. because you're not going anywhere"

My new bank Cards... lol

Hmmm recently got too much money so must open few banks and sign up new cards.. kinda sick and tired of POSB liao interest rate not that much.. hmmm.. i heard of a very good deal at Standard Chartered bank so i decided to check it out. Gosh, know what, you can open an account wih just $1.. haha all other banks needs a minimum of $500 and above but this one no need.. summore they can upgrade you to Platinum Mastercard summore.. YOU guys should open an account there as well.. its damm cheap!! oh ya for the youn people.. u need to be at least 17 yrs old.. lol Then I also went to open OUB account coz its near my office and i can just drop in my Cheque weekly coz im receiving Overtime pay in cheque form.. Hmmm Below are pics of my two new cards... lol... Aniways, i also sign up a Visa Credit card from OUB as well coz so far i only have Mastercard and Visa would come in handy sumtimes.. Its a Mini card very cute de but will only received in two weeks time by post.. once receive, its shopping time.. lol.. Reason why i need 3 banks is coz im into investment and financial planning.. I dont want to put in too much money is POSB coz their ATMs are everywhere and i'll tend to withraw money often.. haha clever rite.. hard to find ATM then dun spend so much.. lol...

Nice vids and song.. watch!!! WAITING FOR YOU!

Its been a long time since i updated my blog.. lol.. nothing much to put in also coz nothing much happen its been work work and work.. finally got some free time.. hmmm.. watched a dvd serial the whole day recently called ai qing he yue(contract of love).. very touching and sadd.. haiz move me to tears sia... and i love the song also very touching and nice.. haiz How i wish there are such true and unconditional love... WAKE UP... THERE ARE NONE! Ppl always promised unconditional love but they dont even know what that means.. Unconditional love doesnt mean you love the person alot alot or you give all your love to the person.. It means that you love the person for what he is. You dont expect anything in return from him. whatever he do or dont do you stil love him with al your heart.. Normally love is alway conditional... for example, "when u become ugly i wont love you anymore" or "If you do this then i love you / dont love you" means that you want something in return.. haiz.. no love is TRUE after all...

Reflections on MONDAY night..

Went to office today.. OMG its been like so long that i am teaching in AMGT school. Im hating my job more and more everyday.. I hate seeing my students everyday.. I hate them for being stupid! i hate them to be so ignorance! I hate them for being so Lazy, Noisy. EVerything they do i HATE them.. OMG im loosing my patience soon.. keep blowing my temper every now and then in class.. Loosing my voice too.. Why cant i get smart and clever student?? gosh yeah, if they were smart, they would be in The local Uni already not a Private school. gosh.. Tmr im gonna start my new module. Human Resource Management. HRM. its gonna be a thougher module and lord help them.. hmm My schedule is becoming more tideous. sarting frm tmr, i will have three lesson per day instead of two.. gosh so tiring can.. hmm morning is IELTS, 1pm is Business Comms and 3pm is HRM.. Guan yin ma help me!!! One thing i dun like is stupid people.. nobody is born stupid.. they're just lazy!! when you're lazy, you become stupid! and dont hate me for calling you stupid since ur too lazy.. gosh get a life!!! and i hate act smart ppl as well... u dont know shit and act as if you know the whole world!!

After school today went to meet baby for dinner and movies... went to yishun there... really miss my baby siia so i went all the way to yishun meet baby. went to watch "meet the spartan". damm stupid funny show but too short la.. after that walk to khatib to send baby home.. The path i took was familiar like the path i used to take almost everyday last time.. walk pass blk 643 and i look above to the widow... the bedroom light was on. ooh ok who cares, reminiscent is a poison to the mind.. i moved on long ago. the old flame had died, but the scare left on the candle still unscathered.. vanquish that thought and embrace the one who love me now... I really wish history wont repeat itself again.. i dun really wan to suffer frm a terrible heart break once more.. i have plans if it does happen again.. its a secret cant tell.. Aniways loking foward to spend long long time with baby... i'll prove you wrong.. i am worthy after all... amour amour amour le baby!!!

Mariah Carey.. She did it again

My Diva duin it again... MC releasing her new album on my BIRTHDAY 15th April..!!! So we celebrate together!! haha..So my bdae wish list would be hmmm...

1) Mariah Fragrance (M)... vry nice!!

2) I wan go Bangkok!!! shopping!!!! clothes and clothes!

3) Party with all my friends and get high... not on E but drinks... lol

4) Ipod Vids

5) New shoes.. i wan black, silver, and white shoes!!!

6) Agnes B bag...

okok, back to MAriah Carey's new album. read this interesting stuffs..

NEW ALBUM IN STORES APRIL 15th; FOLLOWS-UP WORLDWIDE 10 MILLION-SELLING, MULTI-GRAMMY WINNING THE EMANCIPATION OF MIMI
Performer and songwriter Mariah Carey has set April 15th as the in-store date for the most eagerly anticipated album of the year, E=MC². The 11th studio album of her career, E=MC² is the follow-up to The Emancipation Of Mimi, Mariah's worldwide 10 million selling #1 album, which generated three Grammy awards (including Best Contemporary R&B Album), 2 #1 singles and countless more industry honors during its 18-month stay on the charts.
The first single from E=MC² is "Touch My Body," written and produced by Mariah Carey, C. "Tricky" Stewart, and The-Dream, hit radio stations worldwide on February 12th. The video for "Touch My Body" was directed by feature filmmaker Brett Ratner - Internet, cable and network premieres for the video will be announced in the weeks ahead. In addition to C. "Tricky" Stewart and The-Dream, other guest producers joining Mariah on E=MC² will include Jermaine Dupri, DJ Toomp, Stargate, Will I Am, Bryan Michael Cox, Nate "Danjahandz" Hills and James Poyser. E=MC² is executive produced by Mariah Carey and Antonio "LA" Reid, Chairman, Island Def Jam Music Group.
The Emancipation Of Mimi, released April 12, 2005, was an industry phenomenon for the mega-platinum award-winning superstar - Soundscan's biggest-selling album of the year, bringing total sales of Mariah's albums, singles and videos to more than 160 million worldwide, making her the most successful female recording artist in history. Mimi featured "We Belong Together" (winner of the Best Female R&B Vocal and Best R&B Song Grammys) and "Don't Forget About Us," Mariah's 16th and 17th #1 career singles respectively. They tied one of the most enduring chart records in Billboard Hot 100 history, Elvis Presley's 17 #1's. Mariah is now positioned as the only active recording artist in the 48 years of the Hot 100 (which began in 1958) with the potential to surpass the Beatles' all-time high of 20 #1 hits.