OMFG!!! (oh my fucktard god!).... Just found my school pic!! Ugly days!

Was cleaning my room last nite coz wanna move hse already... then found my JC class photo... So fucking farktard can!!! its like 4 years ago la!! haha ii was sooo nerdy back then!! anyways not nerdy la still cool and CUTE! but the day we took the pic was the wrong day. Its right after PE la can!! so me and some boys went to bathe then hair all messy messy like KUKU liddat.. Try and find me lor.. keke. Hmmm The Older teacher is my HT (Home Tutor) Ms Amy Lee, she teaches GP which is dammmm fucking BORING and we called her ugly fucking witch! The younger teacher is our (AHT)shit forger her name, she taught us Economics.. shes da best ever!! Cant remember some of their names liao.. Look at the boys.. hint hint.. majority are GAYS!! freaking fucktard!! and a few Lesbies.. normal we all come frm all boys or all girls sec sch!!

Aniways.. Miss my school and classmates soo much!!! Shit this reminds me... im getting older sia!!

Whatever... CJC Rawks!!!... yeah as if..

Everybody Dance to my LOVE.....

Most people say LOVE is like a song... But to me, Love is like a dance.. There is always a hidden meaning behind it...Everymove has different enigma to what love incorporates.. Love is like a rhytm in the dance... The music and dance must coincide and syncronize in order for it to work.. The music should not ovecast the dance.. and the dance should not overcast the song.. Same way for love.. Love is never unconditional.. But whatever shit is... I love you!

Dont say me EMO... im NOT!!!!

Life has been better..

Falling in love is sooo scary...

Sumtimes the best way not to get hurt is not to get into it.... Just be a lonely fucktard sit one corner and dun have to worry about heart break....
But its still best to fall in love and enjoy happiness...

p.s. I LOVE YOU.....

Fri Nite.. Drunk Girls and boys!!!

Eve went walk walk with Fiona at Chinatown.. She wanted to buy the bag im using the "Agnes B" bag but unfortunately the shop closed already.. so bo bian still early so go walk around then go to play to get a chop. Clubbin at first was bit boring so decided to drink... keke Introduce Fiona and Yongan a new Drink, they say very nice but in the end both drunk like "drunken prawns".. Can u imagine one person "me" taking care or two drunken fellow... Both keep swaying and falling down.. haha.. Bring both back to my home and sleep coz both like cannot walk so must carry them.. Aiyo so heavy can!! LOL u dun wanna know what nonsense happen when they were drunk... I can laugh my arse off!!! hehe... Aniways, i didnt drink much... how to... if not who take care them... bla bla bla... My friends didnt came clubbing again.. Pangseh no.2. Andy go to KL with his BF.. Ash just got his wisdom tooth pulled so fever.. Shawn K went "club-dating" so dao me... Kitty with his new FAT BF also dao me also *piak*.. Noris also didnt come... Haha but atleast i can enjoy without them..

No pic of U this vids reminds me of U.. bla bla Valentines Day!

Watch this vids.. Stop the imeem player and play this vid and watch... nice song too..
Remember how i always say you look exactly like Rain?? Keke and how much you hate it coz i called u "my Rain" but u hated him.. keke and coz of dat u dun let me take ur pic... so ii dun have any of ur pic when we're together.. i was glancing thru my vids and i stumbled upon this one.. It realy reminds me of you.. Well.. haha hope u dun see this if not u sure curse me like hell.... haha.. reminising only..

Valentines day!!

hmm... noting much... After work, went to town to pick up cake i bought at swensens then went to Taka to give it to Adrian (his Bdae).. Bought the 1kg Black forest ice cream cake.. Hmm also gave him Bdae present i bought few days b4.. lol a wallet from Topman.. I dunno to me it look nice and i like it very much.. hopes he like it too ba.. also gave him Centrum Supplement (not bdae gift!) Coz dat time he complain cant sleep and pimples.. The supplements can help sleep better and good for the skin... Hope he take it daily very ex leh!!.. keke.. Give him all the things at Taka then i go off le... dun wan stay long long.. Went walking alone awhile then bought a Vday cake frm Swensens... really emo emo de... im narssistic nia lol. And once again... im BROKE! haiz...

My Quotes For Valentines Day..

This year Valentines Day means nothing to me... I dunno... I just wanna be alone on this day.. I just wanna go to the place we went last year and sit there all by myself, maybe i'll smile, maybe i'll cry but it doesnt matter coz im alone.. Today could be our second Vday, but i cant stop forgiving myself for loosing you... And I thought i had fallen in love again, but was dissappointed again.. I know myself, who would ever wanna love me.. Just one look at me and its written all over my face "Utter Failure".. Well, thats what it would be, I just wanna be alone.. I am happy, very happy though, but whats th point of being happy if you cant share that hapiness with sumone.. Why ppl just take me for granted.. Why ppl just want me for my money, for my body but not for my heart?? Maybe im just like one of the preety face toy people play with then throw. Well, this are all the quotes i could think off today.... :

"A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried."

"Forget The Times You Walked By, Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry, Forget The Time You Held My Hand, Forget The Sweet Things If I Can, I Can No Longer Pretend, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend"

"When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have"

"How Can You Be Friends With Someone If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes You Want Them Even More?"

"Even when I pour my heart out to you, I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know."

"I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever."

"I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me."

"There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you."

"The part that hurts me the most, is knowing that I once had you and then lost you..."

"The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned."

"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do."

"How do you heal a broken heart? I have no idea where to start because everything I do reminds me of you. "

"Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and you can never have them?"

"I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last."

"There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ... "

Sore EYE!

Woke up damm late today and have sore eye.. zharks!! hate it now i must wear specs out so unglam can! Left my office early coz have to head down to PLAY at 5 coz having the audition for Beauty pageant called Singapore Miss Universe.... I was one of the audition judges la get to ask questions to all the bimbos!! I didnt know Singaporeans are soo dumb blonde and dead shit bimbo!! OMG the answer they gave u can really make u either wanna laugh or wanna give a thight slap across their face.. Finish at ard 10pm.. Cant find a cab so took bus home.. Bus journey was sooooo long so use my comp in the bus and chat...keke not so boring after all.. Reach home, was too tired then ZzZzZz....

keke pic taken in bus... the upper deck totally no ppl wan.. haha

Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?"

OMG.. Im officially broke!!

Gosh.. im officially broke as of today untill two more weeks to come... Keep spending and spending didnt realise my pocket hole getting bigger.. Then Ytd i go pay my school fee which is like almost all of what i had left this mth.. Hiaz.. now i stress again got no money.. bla bla bla.. ii wan ask my mother money scared later she make noise ar then i dulan so might as well dont ask. hmmm.. think i'll go on budget this and next week first nia... Haizz...
Other than that nothing much happened...bored bored bored... maybe i'll go and sing... lol

Sat and Sun nonsense!!

Sat..
Nth much.. Woke up late coz previous nite didnt have enuf sleep... Went to PLAY at nite.. All my friends didnt club but i have to go down to settle some event thingy with the boss at PLAY.. SO one of my friend, Noris follow me to PLAY.. Was alone.. met Jojo inside.. wasnt feeling good as usual emo emo again.. need to drink.. Then come a girl called Fiona, she drank with me.. I bought her like 4 tequila shots and 2 abscene red then she got drunk.. haha. also get to know YongAn, got him drink as well.. kinda nice guy... I was Supprised... saw my ex Boss Xandra inside... OMG that bitch is a Lesbie!! haha got her drinks as well... I drank rather alot.. wanted to breakdown and cry, but huggie sumone make me feel better.. Haixxx.. After clubbin, Fiona, YongAn and another girl come sleep at my hse... We left at 2pm plus and i went to see my new Hse in Jurong..

Sun...
Hmmm, went to see my new hse in jurong... Kinda not happy with the situation there...
Hmm let see, The stupid wooden ledge on the stair came off.. the constructor havent fix properly yet.. i nearly fell down the stupid stairs.. Went to see my bedroom.. so bleedy small can.. My parents room damm big la summore got nice view.. My room sux! then after that went to Changi meet my "mummy"... Went to drink and eat seafood with her... she stress nia old liao lor dats why stress... Then at 12 midnite met BenBen and we go watch movie at Cathay.. watch Ah Long Pte Ltd.... So funny yet stupid show... reach home about 3 plus then sleep le very tired... Haiz..

Dont Blame me for ignoring you... its not me... remember, you pushed me away... ii tried... maybe ii should stop trying... U dont have me in ur mind...

Today woke up at 6am to prepare for the CNY concert.. Damm not enuf sleep and bad Hangover frm last nite crap.... Slept at 4.30am and wake up at 6!! only 1 half hour nia... My head spinning like shit.. Prepare all my crap and The bus picked me up at 7.. Had headache the whole day... Reach home at 3pm then went back to sleep till 7.. Then wake up go meet my friends.. Sooo tired still.. Haiz.. nth much to talk.. Aniways, gonna meet my friends now in town.
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ii just wanna sit alone in the corner.. Whats the point of having luxury, money and everything. Having everything without U is like having nothing..



I still miss you alot... Let time erode everything away, im tired... Sick of crying, Tired of trying, Yes im smiling, But inside im dying .....

Break down.....

Trippin Last nite... Went out with some friends, i wished i didnt... Intented to watch movie but i didnt went to St James instead... Ard 9pm ii received a phone call... Received the biggest shocking news of my life.. i made the wrong move on Stock Market and it came crashing down and i had a major loss.. my faced changed.. was not in the mood... No one noticed guess ii was rather "invinsible".. Left them and went to play pool alone.. Had 4 rounds... the fastest rounds i completed.. Lost and distraught.. I went to Balcony Bar to drink alone.. Had a long island tea, Waterfall and flamin lamborghini.. sit down alone... kinda seh already.. I called my "gor gor" and cry on the phone.. which ii only do when im drunk la... I called my best friend Andy also.. He ask me to go St James find him.. So i went to St james.. Met my "real" friends Andy, Ash and Shawn.. Bought more drinks... They dont let me drink flamming so sua lor i bought 8 jugs and drink all.. was damm seh.. I started to break down again...cried and cried... All my shares gone just liddat.. and "Sumone" dont even care... My friends gave me a good lecture.. He say " see la, spend money on boys only let them take advantage on U.. When ur down, they just leave liddat and dont care!.." I realised le ii made that big mistake to to put all my hope and money on sumonelse when ii know its just no returns.. U led me on and then leave me in the lurch.. Thanks alot.. i shouldnt be so blind and stupid.. I learnt my lesson now.. I tot of leaving the country, But my friends persuade me to stay and dont run away.. Yes ii will stay coz of my friends.. But i swear i wont be the same person... I regret everything i did.. Gonna start on new shares again...

Dont blame me for ignoring you..... remember, ur the one who pushed me away... Though its hurting and dissappointed, another lesson learnt.

Eve of CNY

Eve of CNY went for Dinner.. Nothing exciting bout it.. Everyone was gossipping and blabbing nonsense.. After that ii go and set up the alter for prayers coz later at 11.30 praying the fortune god and Rat deity" he came out in the pic i took beside the joss stick!" See properly then can see.. Haha and ii also kana force to wear the red guy's cheong sam thingy....so RED can! Then at 11.30 start praying le... keke Ask for soo many things siia hope the god wont du lan with me... haha Finish the praying at bout 12.30 liddat then i go meet my friends and we went clubbing.. haha I cant sleep nia so dunno wad to do then club lor... haha then went home and morning go grandma house.. sianz...

see i set up the table nice nice de hor... haha
See the last pic beside the joss stick my auntie say its the rat deity!! ii also dunno look like wad... ii think im the one looking like rat!

Tuesday BuzZzZz

Today ii woke up damm late! wake up at 2pm... didnt go school.. 5pm went to Office awhile then went down to town to meet a client at cine.. After that ii went to Heeren to get fedora hat for Adrian.. didnt know dat kinda hat would cost a bomb... lol... Haiz... I spend too much on CNY le. Spend almost all my money le.. i didnt realise it untill i checked my account balance.. haha Scary!! Try beg my mom for money hope she give me big big hong bao!! After town ii went to gym near my office ther.. Want to build my bods nice nice de.. Gymmed from 8 pm till 11.30pm de... so lei can.. Gonna go swimming tomorrow morning too!! Then went to my office slack slack then ii went to meet muii ex settle some of his prob.. reach home ard 4 plus de... haiz... gonna wake up at 9 to swim.. See below my pic ii take at the gym... nice bods rite?? LOL. Below also the pic of the fedora hat.. Hope he likes it....

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If ur bl0od cud save me,i'd asked for onLy 1 dr0p. If ur air cud save me,i'd asked for onLy 1 breath. But if ur tears cud save me..i'd rather die .. than to see you CRY ..

Sunday Madness

ii Woke up very late today at 7pm.. Supposed to go for rehearsal coz i need to teach dance for my dancers doing show on CNY.. Something so important ii can overslept.. Short of a dancer coz not enuf guys to dance.. So i called Liliang.. Met Liliang at 9pm at Tg pagar Mrt then we went to Lau Pa Sat to eat coz all the people late!! After that went to my studio for rehearsal.. Was kinda angry coz Few of my dancers didnt turn up.. "hello!! ii pay you people to come rehearsal as well!!".. My best bud Andy also didnt turn up.. Such an attitude im so dissappointed. Aniways, I had a hard time teaching them especially Liliang catch very slow i have to repeat and repeat over and over again... The rest was rather ok.. I still need to call Tommy to come for rehearsal on Monday.. ii hope they do a good show coz its a big officia event with ministers.. hope they enjoy on CNY also...! Sorry to my friends Ashley, Shawn and another gerl ii put u guys on aeroplane coz didnt go St James with ya'll. was to tired lor. Sorry U guys dun angry wif me hor!!!

Fri and Saturday...

Friday...
Cant remember what ii did on friday.. hmmm... well, nothing to write bout friday another mundane day... well at night went to tonn at my friend house coz my friend sick so ii take care him lor.. he cannort sleep so ii accompany him chat till morning... didnt sleep the whole nite only like one hour nia...

Saturday....
Went home ard 3plus in the afternoon then went to take a nap awhile... Then meet Adrian at 7pm and watch movie.. Watch some stupid movie called "Sweeny Tods".. Its a Thriller, Murder plus Musical movie.. It was damm boring to the max and so many singings! Despite that, got the man slit and cut off people throat wan and soo many blood come out frm it... aiyo... I closed my eyes damm tite everytime he slit the throat.. I got hemophobia nia.. "Fear of blood coming out frm human body" ii nearly puked... After movie went to PS TCC there.. ii dun wan eat anitin ther coz ii dun like the food there not nice wan... Then we went to maxwell i feel hungry... went to eat, which ii shouldnt coz i got drunk later and i puked.. grose!! Went to play but Adrian dun wan go.. Tot ii wan bring him in but he dun wan and he say he wan stay alone outside... Feel soo bad leaving him outside alone.. coz the place is many ppl drunk wan scared anitin happen to him nia.. Inside play keep worrying for him.. msged him few times but no reply le guess hes with friends already ba.. Inside PLAY, my stupid friends keep forcing me and buying me drinks... they make me drink like so many flamming drinks till my throat burns like hell... then ii quarreled with sumone, some idiot.. spoil my mood.. Went to maxwell, then went up tp my studio take my bag, coz ii put my bag there earlier, then take cab go home sleep... ZzZzZz. Angry!

Thursday nite..

Tonite my friends asked me out to drink in town.. ii was too lazy to go coz very tired and the next day wake up early... and he called me when ii was just about to sleep lying down on my bed le.. i dun wan go but kana forced to.. He say he pei me drink then i bo bian ma near my house so just go lor.. This time is really "out of bed" look.. haha. I only had a long island and a choc martini..

The bar there got so many buddha pantings la... i tot it was a temple... haha the buddha got many expression one.. The first one is Buddha giving the plastic smile and seductive eyes. The second pic is buddha in depression. The third one is buddha is sad coz he gotta ugly hair, a mole on his head and damm droopy ears. The last one was buddha when he was till small... What does this show... PUBERTY changes everything.. The older u get, the uglier U become!

Wed.. Nth much happen

Today was a normal day again.. Ive decided to quit my job in March.. I need to go back and study again.. Made up my mind liao.. too many things stressing me... Gotta be dependant on my parents again maybe for the time being... Probably after finish studyin, ii want to go overseas to work. Nothing left for me stayin here liao.. Probably i'll fall in love with an ang moh there.. haha and get married ther who knows... kekeke.. Well, heres sumthing frm me Wishin You all a Happy New Year!!! Nothing to do in class draw draw le.. haha

In the evening ii went to Cine to watch movie.. Watch 27 dresses.. tot it would be some stupid girlish show but turns out to be very nice and moving.. So romantic yet bimboistic movie.. Went out with this "pal" so auntie can!! aniways ii feel quite bad to him la.. send him aeroplane le but still act as if everything is normal... I hope uu know feelings cant be force and uu being extra caring and nosey is kinda getting me on my nerves.. probably too much mixing with girls made u liddat.. lol.. life is unfair i know, u like the person so much, the person dun like you... The person u dun like, likes u very much... aniways its poetic justice in the end both also hurt... haha kinks showing off my literature expertoir... lmao... Gonna take mc tmr.. feel very tired!!

You are s.i.n.g.l.e make the best of it. It doesnt mean your not good enough, it means [no one] is good enough for y o u.

Today... Nth much

Hmmm... nothing much happened today... went to school on same old boring place... As usual, Business comm module is damm boring so only 2 students turn up.. Those are the "guai kias".. Finish lesson early so wuliao take pic with them.. haha then watch some MR.BEAN vids in class.. haha..

Then in the eve went to Tampenes Mall coz got a meeting with Mr Dave Lim, some Business Partner la.. He's 28 but sooo ke ai look like 20 liddat.. haha.. After that meet a friend there and o eat at Pasta lo.. haha Below pic ii take outside Starbucks while waiting for Mr.Lim.. haha

Who's gonna be my Valentine This year since Ur gone with another??? Gonna be lonely this year Vday!

Sunday Today! Day out in JB

Today ii went JB with Jojo... ii was suppose to go on a business trip nia but ii dun wan go alone so bring Jojo along.. We met at 1pm at bugis and first go to Fu lu Shou ctr and Pray for my good business contract. Then we took bus to JB. The meeting was fast and i gt the contract! yeah! after that we went shopping and walk2. haha Dunno we walk where we actualy got lost! came upon this market so many food! and smoky.. im all sweat out and oily.. hate that feelin! See the pic we took at the market! after that we went home ard 8 plus. The causeway too many ppl and we got stuck! So we walk across the causeway lo soo damm far! After that we went to Causeway point and have dinner at KFC.. tired and all shagged out! went back home!! JB was fun! oh ya, I bought a Giogio Armani Belt and Levis wallet.. soo damm cool and nice! Well, too tired gonna sleep now.. see the pics! haha the last two is me waiting at MacDonalds in JB.. nearly fell asleep too tired

Roses are red, violetets are blue...You are always on my head cuz i love you... I hope you are dead cuz i hate you....These tears I shed are not worth you.

Friday and Saturday crap!

Well now updating for fri and sat stuffs.. haha .. Hmmm let see... Friday, was my stupidest day! I had a meeting till 9 at night.. was not on the right mood too many things on my mind.. was clubbing at PLAY with my friends.. I dunno why i kept getting drinks for me and my friends.. bought alot of lamboughini and abscene black (the strongest flammin drink). Stupidly i spend nearlt 300 bucks... First time tried abscene black.. it was dam FuXXXing strong can! The flame was so big. Sipped the whole thing finish and ii puked at the bar there... so paiseh la! my best bud Andy took it also puke there.. so funny la.. haha.. Well, hmm I dont know why but this guy (no names mention) suddenly came up to me and hugg me.. (He was my so ex date la who is a bastard who like many others only wanna get into my pants!) make me piss off only siia. I push his hands away and ask him to go FxxK off.. He taught me a lesson, I will never date anione older than me! Hmm my phone also dunno what happened... I msged (HIM) 4 times i thought he dun wan to reply or ignoring me but then found out he didnt receive my msg.. Felt so stupid.. So sorry if u think im ignoring you.. im not.

Saturday nothing much happened! Cant sleep well dunno why.. I woke up early at 8 then went to the gym. After gym i went swimming at HV there.. Gonna work my bods till good shape. Went home hungry my, my maid didnt cook and my mum was oversea. Dunno why im not so lazy today i actually cooked my brunch! haha.. nth special, just some eggs and roast a steak. took pic of it below... haha.. hmm He asked me out for movie today but last min cant make it so i went to town alone to get sum things. then went to clerk quay to meet my friends..

BorinG Day Today..

Another Boring Day in School today. Wake up late for my morning Class, Start at 9.30 I reach at 10 plus sia. All the student waiting for me in the Class room siia.. I walk into the class only all start going "Orh U late!!.." then one girl suan me say " U come very early today hor!" such an Evil bitch! Hope she fail her exam cant take Diploma. HUMPH!.. As usual my director came up to me in my office bout 3 plus after my lunch come lecture me... Toopid old man! not as if i everyday late siia.. Aniways ii give him excuse say bus breakdown.. haha Then he ask me why nv take taxi, then i answer "Taxi fare go up liao!". Haiz so suay sia.. Aniways I was still sleepy. Since ii got no eve class, so just sleep nia. Lock my office door and sleep.. hehe so smart right!

Today ii got think of him... hmm dunno whether he is thinking of me.. wanted to keep chatting with him on msn but ii dun wan disturb him scared later he find me irritating... Well, made my resolution. Frm today onwards, I am gonna put aside half of my Pay every mth to save up For my MBA. Maybe i will apply for it somewhere in April. So must go on thight budget.. cant spend so much liao. But i will work hard for the money so dat me and possibly IF will have my other half can enjoy together.. 3 more mth till MBA. Thanks to my director for approving my application..

Everytime you touch me, i become a hero. I'll make you save whereever you are. And bring you everything you ask for, nothing is about me. I'll shine like the candle in the dark, when you tell me that you love me

Today in Office.

Haiz... Today my day is so boring in office.. First, I had a morning class Teaching business English.. only 10 out of my 26 student came.. dont know what happened to them. Then in my afternoon class Business Comms, none of my students come.. Aiyo dunno why leh, is the subject damm boring or is it just me? Aniways they are lucky enuf to have a very young and "shuai ge" not! lecturer.. Haiz.. So whole day sit in my office lor marking papers, Preparing lecture notes and watching youtube... haha.. ii also took pic of my own office.. the wall is one of my fav color Yellow! so bright and lively.. But you see my table is pathetic right so messy.. haha maybe clean tmr la.. Its six already getting late.. beter go back now.. im alone scared got ghost! haha.


ii wanna hold you close under the rain, i wanna kiss your smile and feel your pain, i wanna share the world only for you, all the impossible ii wanna do.

ii misintepreted u...

I guessed i got the meaning wrongly.. He said he didnt reject me but just wanna know muii betta first... I hope he really mean it. Anyways, ii wanna get to know him better as well and ii also wan him to get to knoe me better coz ii dun wan him to regret later being with me just like dat boy "dun mention name".. When the time comes, if we are fated to be together, we will be together. Only time will tell.. ii will keep on trying to impress him with what i am made of, the true me and whats come frm my heart and within... This ii promiise..

Anyways... I might be thinking of doing My Masters Degree probably in few years to come. My school just offered me a direct application for it.. Of cozz ii wan to take it.. Anyone in the corporate world would want a MBA. But the cost is freaking $21 000.. ii will save that money ii hope...

Relationships are like glass... Sumtimes its better to leave them broken than to hurt yourself trying to put it back together.

Guess It wasnt meant to be..

Well, Guess i gotten the answer preety clearly... I know myself very well, its hard for almost anyone to accept me and i accept this reality.. Even though if i changed myself now, my past would still be there.. But ii never regret living my past and doing Its been a great experience, good and bad memories, but i this is what i do best. But now I think i wanna stop doing it already (Those who knoe me should know what i am talking about DQ). now, i wanna leave it all behind and start my career track.. Just wanna thank few ppl. First, my Mummy Sebrena and Agnes for guiding me. Fellow aquaintance who have worked together with me for the longest time; shawn, Lisyaz, Ash, mimi, wellness, Andy, and Max. Also Muii sistaz Jojo, Joey & michael yong. I also wanna thanks some fellow backstabbers (U know who U are: "WJ a must to mention" and others) whom taught me a lesson on trust. Aniways, I hope you guys continue aspiring and do what you do best now! Entertain!.. Cheers

Well, today funny thing happened, after 7 months, My ex suddenly msg me on msn and we talked. Though ii dun have that feeling for him anymore but it just feels wierd.. I felt even worse knowing he's still with his stead for 7 mth and loves him alot still (and his stead his way uglier than mi!!).. ii dunno... Makes me wonder what he's got that is so special? Guess ii must make myself a better man ba so next time i can treat my stead better and prove that i am a worthy and better man... Lessorn leant

I thought i found my Cinderella, But i little did i know that she has found her prince charming.. I got no choice but to walk away.. Goodbye love.

ii WiSh YoU OnLy KnEw ... Play, watch & listen..

This song is how i feel now.. i dont know.. Usually im not this unsure.. Im usually brave enuf to tell sumone i like him.. But dunno what has happend to me now.. Is it coz im scared? but what am i afraid of? theres sumthing inside holding me back.. Hate that feeling that when U like sumone but u're unsure whether he/she likes you back or not.. and ii have this very very low self esteem and confinence of myself.. And whether he/she is the right one for u and many other reasons.. I just wan to love that sumone (U if ure reading this), to take care of that person, be there when he needs me and be sumone he can rely and seek comfort with.. But alot of people dun appreciate this kindness and love and effort that i put in... should i give one more try to get him? or should ii just back out and be alone? Im not emo.. im just curious and it was on my thouht this morning... One day ii may just get married and have kids and spend the rest of my life with my wife, loving sumone till the day i die... but for now, ii want him! Only thing is ii dun think he may want me, at least ii dunno yet.. Well aniways if he dont like me, i'll just move on then, still needa make that big bucks for my future!! haha.. But ii really hope U'de like me too and give me the chance to get to know u better.. coz the day i met u was the day U captured my heart away and i'de do anything to get you.. aniways, yah here's my feelings and hope U read this...

if u know who you are.... i like you!!! and pls pls dun tell anyone about this k... !!!

Lost Muii HandPhone !!!

Saturday night I lost my Bleedy new phone!! OMG how could this happen?? II never lost Phone wan... as if.. ii somehow think one of my friends took it but how could he?? Coz, i was sitting at a food center with two of my friends, then my hp batt died and ii needed to make an urgent call, so i accidentally left my hp on the table (hoping my friends would look after it) and i borrow my friend HP to make a quick call outside the market coz to noisy.. I came back like two min later and found out my hp was gone!! Was so angry and annoyed! I search up and down but my bleedy friends just sit there and continue eating! they say they didnt notice aybe a passerby took it.. HOW could dat be??!!! No passerby will be so daring enuf to take right off sumone table lor.. Then the next day ii found out from another friend that my this friend (the one at the table) said that my bangs cover my forehead is bad luck and i deserve to lost the phone coz my father everytime buy me phones wan.. Walau!! what the hack my hair gotta do with my phone siia... and He took my phone twice liao lor the other time was sumwhere last year.. You see im such a GOOD and FORGIVING friend, i know you took my phone ii still keep quiet and still be ur good friend.. II know UU dun have much money and u confirm sell my phone de. Its not about the phone la but its the friendshp lor.. II help you so many times how could U do this to me TWICE!! U no $$ i always help you lor.. Im just upset with you now la.. but i think aftr sumtime i'll be ok le.. II just hope you change ur character lor.. I am ur BEST FRIEND lor and best friend DONT HURT EACH OTHER!! Pls mend ur way la.. and aniways, thats my new phone!! just got it 1 week ago nia.. but alas, I only have myself to blame for being soo careless. STUPID ME...

i think ii may fall in love again.. But ii dunno whether ii should go for it or stay my way of being ignorance to love and just enjoy freedom... help me.

my fav song.. play!!

Qian Li Zhi Wai... ii like this song very much.. hehe

Summore emoism of me

Will you forgive me??

When you left me..

Me and Barbie Vids... Play

Since i was in school, my friend keep asking me "Ken where is ur Barbie?"... SO, This vids is about me!!! and how Barbie dont deserve me!! haha i know its kind BHB... okok alot BHB but who cares... haha

Day out Bowling with muii friend.. Went to Marina Sq to bowl today.. my bowling skills has degraded so badly siia.. gotta puck up and be as pro as before.... chey!!.. But it was fun coz so long never bowl. Haha nothing much liaoz.. these few days quite free so keep going out with friends... gonna stay home this few days and sleep sleep sleep!!!

you need to take a chill pill and a small fries mister!

Another song for you.. Play watch and listen

Another meaningful song to me.. It was done by a vietnamese boy who lost sumone he really loves. Very toucing story and song.. haha emo again...

HIV test

Today ii got HIV test... Just a routine check and its free aniways.. was very scared to take leh dunno why just scared, not that i was naughty or sumtin but this kinda thing very scary to check wan summore have to take blood... then after that waited for the result.. waaa damm scary and excited siia, can feel my heart beating very fast and my hands trembling.. Aniways, I was super relieve when result show dat im NEGATIVE.. haha see the pic got only one line.. means negative.... haha

play, watch and listen... I love this song.. means alot to me

Hmmm its 2008 already!! I dont feel any diff frm last year.. Maybe not yet. New Year resolutions.. hmmm first, Make more money, second; make more money, third; make more money.. Then the rest of my resolutions will depends whether my first, second and third resolutions are achieve.. lol..

Anyways, New Year countdown party was fun at my friends place.. Loud music, fancy peoples, Nice drinks... Baileys irish cream my fav!! everyone was screaming when the fireworks started.. I dun understant why!! well, guess i dun fancy fireworks.. Didnt go clubbing instead i slept early.. Waiting for sumone to come back in the end that person never come back! I slept alone leh!! slaps! Aniways, I woke up damm late the next day dunno why.. Guess i was tired...

Nothing much happen this two days or so... so nth much to talk about... Oh ya.. I get so annoyed coz alot of ppl say im fat already!! i admit i do put on weight.. alot of weight..!! Dunno why lately i always very hungry, kept eating and eating and eating like pig! Maybe its puberty!